Happy New Year DarLings.

So what is your new year resoLution?

Heres mine:

-Pass ALL my exams[if God's wiLLing]

-Brush my teeth twice a day.

-Save up money.

-New handphone.

-Be more friendLy/kind/caring.

-Have a hot bod.

-Have a HOT hot rich taLL funny boyfriend.Not.

-Grow taLLer.

-Eat more !

-Do something about my hair.

WeLL,most of it is Like a wishList.

So bLearghs

Gotta bounce !

Party up aLL night !

weeeeeeeee`

Yesterday went to Hougang,accompanied 2nd sis to sLeepover + drink at Mickey's aunt's house.
Yeahh.
ALmost aLL the famiLy members drank Bourbon coke.
Mickey's uncLe bought 12 Bourbon bottLes !
Except for me and the kids,the aduLts drank those aLcohoL tiLL their heart was content.
Mickey drank and smoke infront of her parent,i mean,how cooL[?].
Not.
OveraLL,it was quite fun.
Bachin siak aku biLe baLek.
its been 24 hours since i had a proper bath.
HeeXD

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When you've found that speciaL someone,

you thought your Life was perfect and he is your dream comes true.

Eventhough there are miLLion of peopLe around,

you feLt as if the worLd beLong to you and him.

ALone.

Every singLe day,

memories kept fLashing in your Love mind.

SmiLing,

Laughing,

to yourseLves.

Missing and experiencing heartache whenever a day goes by without him by your side.

You heLd your head up high,

Looking straight,

obLivious to guys around you even the hotter ones

cause you've got him and theres not a thing more that you wish for.

The worLd seems to be a more beautifuL pLace to Live in and your eyes onLy got for him.

Those times when you are together

whispering sweet nothings

hoLding hands

a kiss on the cheek

a hug that you wish Last forever

You pray for this to Last forever

and ever.

You dream of him

aLmost every night,wishing that this sweet fairytaLe not to end so soon.

And when things gets tough

you and him overcome the obstacLes together

not even the sLightest intention to rust the reLationship.

You sacrifice your time

money

and pride

to make him happy.

'Cause you don't want nobody eLse

you just wanna be with him

Everytime when you Look in his eyes

you see something

insecurity.

when aLL aLong you tried to make it right

keep the reLationship going strong and Loving him faithfuLLy.

'cause if he ever Leave you

you'd be Lost,you'd be going crazy

He's the onLy one who compLetes you.

He is the one who makes you whoLe

You gave him trust and the most fragiLe thing you own

your heart.

And thats how you feeL when you are in Love,

tiLL someone comes aLong,

i wiLL be experiencing the same

oLd

thing.

The same feeLing,the same words.

i Love you.

Not that i've got anyone to Love.

Nyehhh.

Ayam berkokok pagi hari

kLau ade mase kite jmpe Lagi !

i just reaLised that i own smaLL eyes.
Look at the nose.Refer to the upcoming pic of Toupee.Do compare the nose.Wooops,cant be compared,there are no difference !Nyaha.

Toupee !

Just gotten home from ICA buiLding with Syu.

i forced her into foLLowing me and she kept compLaining that i was wasting her time.

Like heLL i was wasting her time !

Singaporeans were not a considerate bunch.

Witnessed a poor grandma hoLding the MRT poLe for dear Life,but yet,there were not even a singLe souL wiLLing to give up their seat,even those priority seats !

And whiLe standing [since no one was wiLLing to sacrifice their seat for me] Leaning against the gLass pane[?]a crazy guy asked me,how many stops before Jurong East interchange.

After giving him some akward hand gestures,i pointed my middLe[it is the Longest finger,right?Nyaha.Joke,guys !] finger at the MRT map.He Looked at me with a seriousLy-irritating-mintak-kene-sepak-bLur face.Sighing a huge breath,i gLanced at the map and do a mentaL caLcuLation to Jurong East.Suckass.

How couLd there be any dummy in Singapore !

WhiLe accompanying Syu to eat her Lunch,i snapped pics of myseLf.

SuddenLy an uncLe decided to Lend a hand and take pics of me

and what?run away with the camera?

Nyaha`

And after waiting severaL years for my phone to be repaired,the technician[?]decLared that my phone can be of no use,it can be thrown away.

SEDEH baby !

Anyway,my waLLet is thick as ever !

Nyeehee !

Tomorrow sistas gonna thon outside.

Gahhh.

When i wanna thon,tkbLeh,when i tknk thon,boLeh.Apenie ehh **** ehh..

LoL

So destroying me.

HOLiDAYS ARE SO DESTROYED.

How time fLy so fast.

One more week for schooL to be reopen and then the hoLiday joys wiLL come to an end.

*Wipe tears*

My engLish is stiLL not improving....................

Another year Learning the same syLLabLes,new cLassmates,new year.

Same teaching.

*snores*

i couLd pass for a Chinese*cough*except for the dark skin.XP
You've got comment?'cause i don't.

Snapped at Toa Payoh,the cycList is so cute.

i mean,he is so cute to put a P pLate on his bicycLe.

XD

FaLL

I gave you all you desired

All that you needed

Boy, I provided

I let you into my head

Into my bed

And that's a privilege

I had you back at the answers

You took the dollars

I took the chances

Defended, battled and fought

Cuz I really tought you loved me

I don't know where to start or where to stop

No, but I know I am done

I've had enough

[chorus]

So fall out of my hands

Out of my heart

And when you hit the ground

you'll be sorry that I'm not around

I will watch you

And you fall out of your mind

Out of your fantasy

When you hit the wall

Think of me

I'll be on the top just watching you fall

You said that you were the strong one

I was the girl

And I was the young one

I kept your feet on the ground

My head in the rounds I had you

You told me you were so grateful

I was with you

And I was so faithful

Stood by in all that you said

And all that you did

I Loved you

I don't know how to act or what to say

But I know I am good

I'll be okay

[chorus]

Happy birthday to me again.

Weeeeeeeee`

The second cake to be eaten by me.

Thanks to Fat for pLanning to go to Sentosa and the present.

My Legs are cramping now,and bListers are aLL over my feet.

i've got tan Lines.

it was a bLast,great.

We shouLd go to the beach often,it is so reLaxing.

PLayed baLLs,fLour,catching.Right.

And more.

We had fun.

Catch up with the oLd times with Sri,and i know her dirty LittLe secret.

NyeeheeXP

So,im tired.

Thanks for reading.

Do tag.

First of aLL,i am going to wish myseLf a very sweet happy birthday.
Yes,today is my birthday/.
Dummy.

Saturday
-Went out with NuruL indah pLus ika.
Headed to EspLanade,yeahh yeahh,whatever.
Met up with her friends.
FaLL hard/Love at first sight with ****.
*drooL*
And thats was partLy the reason why ika + me head to Jurong west with them except for indah,she head home first.
At Last,i doesnt gain anything by the trip,not even his frickin' phone number.
Gahaha,i thought we hit it off weLL.
Nyaha.
Lose 11 bucks for a taxi at 2 a.m.
its weird how we just gotten to know each other for a coupLe of hours but its Like we are Long Lost friends.
*smiLe*
Guys.
They are sucha jerks.
SUCH A JERKS.

Today,ceLebrate my birthday at home,with abg Shah + Faz + cousins + famiLy
Yes,a cake.
BLah
Tired aLd siaaa
hahaha
*snores*


& yeahh,tomorrow wiLL be heading to Sentosa.
Weeeeeeee`
XD

im soo effen tired.ProbabLy because of Lacks of sLeep.
o(0.0)ozzzzZZZZ

JUST WHEN YOU THiNK THiNGS CAN'T GET ANY WORSE,
THEY DO.
i'VE LEARNED THAT LiFE iS LiKE AN HOURGLASS.
SOONER OR LATER,
EVERYTHiNG HiT ROCK BOTTOM.
ALL YOU HAVE TO DO iS BE PATiENT AND WAiT FOR SOMEONE TO TURN EVRYTHiNG BACK AROUND.

Gahh`
somehow i don't quite agree with this quote.
i mean,Like,why the heLL makes you think that someone need to turn yourseLf around.
You,Like,can't do it yourseLf?
Nyaha nyaha~
XD

Ok,obviousLy,i am a fat-ass Liar. Even the LittLe white Lies are considered a Lie,right?

Sure.

i am so frickin' hungry right now i couLd faint anytime sooon.

=/

i mean,a weLL pLanned saturday.

ahh,you wont get what i mean.

i mean,i has made pLans with someone today,but i end up ditching him for i am Lazy to go out.

Right.

And i promised someone that we wiLL meet up next week.

Shit,do i reaLLy mean it?

HeLL no !

wooooooooo~

Went out yesterday[i've toLd you]

it was a bLast !

i mean,i din notice that guys can reaLLy crack you up.

Hehs

And Afi asked whether i am a mix.

Like heLL,you wLdnt wanna noe the reason why he thought im mixed with chinese.

OnLy managed to take pics with ALep.

HAhahaha

SeLenge~

Ouch !
its Like this room is infested with mosquitoes !Very hungry ones !
im scratching aLL over.
No,no need for you to imagine that Jenny.
Jenny who?
Went to Jp or the extended JP or Boon Lay exchange,whateber,was pLanning to dine out at Swenson,but heLL no,the restaurant were stiLL not open for business.
Right.
So head to Siam Kitchen.
Bro-in-Law + Big sis and 3rd sis.God,i sound as if we were in the drama series,ten brothers?Yes,thats the one.
i aLmost cried from the Last episode.Sobs.
So the manager is a cuckoo.
weeeeeeee`
And Bro ALi[we said that name just to piss him off,but it din work,so..nevermind.Like Bro NuruL?it was to piss off abg Shah,except ofcourse,we hadnt reaLLy said it infront of him]just gotten his pay.
So you know what im saying?
He treat us !
TerimakasihabgRamLi.
XD
And to the movies.
Body of Lies.NC16.Hehe.abeh bange?[PuL's]
ReaLLy exciting movie if you're the one that Like action-packed?adventure?
Yes,thats the movie for you !
About terrorism or something,just when i get the fuLL picture,the story ended !GRRRREEAAt... it was a kinda sad movie.Not sad sad dummy.Just sad disturbing Like.You know what im saying?
gahh !
Fuck it mosquitoes !
ReaLity back.
Going on a date with the pussy i mean pushy guy with the phone?tomorrow.
But i wouLdnt caLL it a date,as we wont be dining out in some fancy restaurant.
Right?
TotaLLy.
FoLLowed by a date with another guy.
Hey,its the best i can do you know if you know the date doesn't go weLL.
A nice excuse this is,meeting up with a friend,rather then my auntie died or something Like that. Pffffft`
So if you found it rather disturbing,repLace the word 'date' to meeting up.
its the Least i can do for you guys not to LabeL me as a Hoochie.=/
Right,i have no frickin' idea what to write anymore,dearest,now its time for you to tag !
hehe.kiss kiss.
idk but i feLt the bottom of my stomach churning wen i saw u.its Like im missing ur jokes?And it feLt so surreaL?Like?What the F !
hahaha
weeeeeeeee`
And stiLL missing ShahriL.Oh my fuck.He has broken up with his gaL,thats wat i tink.mayb.So Get back to me prat !
grrr`
yeLah2,RiNDU BFH pon LAhh
taahaa !
TUKiMi !

Good evening darLings !
Whoever reading or who just happens to hop here
whatever~
nyaha nyaha`

SLept in tiLL 11 a.m,its Like so not me `cause i am usuaLLy an earLy bird.
Right.
Must be because of texting a particuLar guy and heLL was he pushy.
DesperateLy or in another word was BEGging to taLk on the phone with me.
Like heLL,i wont taLk on the phone with a dude unLess i Like the DUDE.
Wait,i wont even taLk to you even if i even Like you.tahha
yeLah Syaf..bedek.
Duuuuuuuuur.
its just that,taLking on the phone is boring.
Shit,how i hated it especiaLLy when darLing 2nd sis was taLking on the phone with abg Shah.
i reaLLy hated THEM for disturbing my beauty sLeep.
And what a coincidence for 2nd sis boifee to have his birthday a day before mine's and kakti's !
And stiLL remember that i used to date a guy who has the same birthday as me.
Like shiet,we are so not compatibLe.
Cause they say dont choose a guy that has the same horoscope as you !
Nyaha nyaha~
And pLease stop asking me what im gonna do for my birthday,cause i've no frickin' idea.
Sure,pLan for me you whiny bitch.
*giggLes*
i wonder why peeps doesnt LabeL me as a Lesbian or something as it are going to be 2 years since i Last attached with a guy.
That guy is so destroyed.
Ok,i know why.
How obvious,i've never been with a girL.
hahaha.ok.Syaf taLking crap.piesspiess..0.0*
i mean,weLL,i am interested with/in/to guys but i reaLLy was hoping that i couLd be singLe tiLL,Lets say,tiLL i am getting married.
Why?
i want to Lay off the things you do with your spouse,
you know what im saying
Right.Sure you are.
HeeXD
i am reaLLy hoping for it.
SeriousLy cant wait for the effen schooL to reopen,its Like im bored to death.
And i swear i wont pick a random dude just to meet up.
dont be pathetic,whats wrong with staying at home?
Right.
After...
Shiet,i was pLanning to type something but it suddenLy sLipped off my effen mind.
Strewth !
Went to repair my-soon-to-be handphone for the second time and it cost me a frickin' 60 bucks.
wah wahh,he want to cheat me[the Last time,he said 80]
ALas
Dont LabeL me for anything that i post in here.
im a good girL.
heheXD
"Suke bace..suke,suke,suke baby
Laughing,Laughing !" <<<that was just an inside jokes.
May the force be with you.

So i've just reaLized that if you want to work in a tattoo parLor/shop you are required to have tattoos.Right.
BLearghzz....
Anyway,wiLL anyone give me an advance birthday present !
Like heLL
i need them money...
PLease give me money
i need them to repair my frickin' handphone.

i NEED TO GET FUCKiNG EiGHTY BUCKS TO FUCKiNG REPAiR MY FUCKiNG HANDPHONE !

thanks God theres Crunchie to caLm me down or i wiLL definiteLy murder someone tonight !
*eviL Laugh*

Booyaka !
weeeeeeee`

So yesterday,around mid-afternoon suddenLy reaLized that the cLass BBQ was being heLd.
After contacting some peeps,we have to reach Bedok at 3?
And it was aLready 1 pLus i think.
So the reason wasnt because of the timing ofcourse,but a coupLe of other reasonabLe reasons.
Right.
Sure.

AfteraLL i've got a pLan.
Niway head out at 4.30 eventhough pLanned to meet at 3.30[i was aLready READY]Right.So waited for Mizi[i feLL asLeep].
TotaLLy unexpected when i first saw him.
The Last time was when i was Like 12?And i thought he was wayy hot[at that time]
Rode on his bike[my first time,weLL,partLy]
it was bLack in coLour so was i,and the heLmet was in bLack too.
So it was reaLLy cooL.
i don't want to ride another bike ever again.
it wiLL effen bore me to death !
Sure.
And
i paid for my OWN effen Lunch !
it sucks.
TotaLLy not an ideaL first date,[not to go dutch anyway]he is so destroyed.
Saw bitch from schoLL,HeLL she doesnt even aknowLedged me,a smiLe the Least?
Not.
Frickin' surprised`
After that hang out around Jurong West,pLus saw Syafiq !
Hang out with them for awhiLe,right.
Head home at 6.30 !!
He need to get to work,too unexpected.
PLease,i don't wanna go on another date,with anyone,anywho.never !
i am so effen destroyed !
And the thing is,i hate it when a guy imitates my taLk.
Yes,i sometimes sounded whiny and stuff,but that doesnt give them the green Light to make fun of me.
TotaLLy not funny and they receive a roLL on the eye from me.
Fcuk off.
nyeh nyeh
weeee`
teeheeXD

Reached home?Guess what?
FamiLy ordered Mac without me.
They din' even bother to order for me !
Effen sad.

And heLL,i shouLd reaLLy change my skin
bLog skin you dummy !
HAha
Not that im in Love or anything.
Grrrr`

SuddenLy i reaLLy effen miss ShahriL.
My best-friend?
Right.
The Last time i contacted with him was Like Dec07.
How couLd he ditch his friend just cause` he got a girLfriend.
Frickin' ..
Haha,ok shuddup

And where the heLL is BFH?
i miss her.
Not !
HAhaha
HeLL-o,i wouLdnt even write someone's name if i din' miss them.
Sure.

OikOik`
ok,i copied someone.

Effen destroyed

i was stressed out and therefore the messy hair.

0.0*

i am trying my new handphone.

Right.

Sure.

i am so destroyed.

Was meant for Mimie,but i use it for my own use anyway.

Hah.

Hah.

Ta-daa !

The fansign !

AtLast.

Managed to create a 'creative' fansign for Mysuicide.

it's my pLeasure to do fansign for peopLe.

Tahaha !

Prompt me if you want one.

What an effen exhausting day !
As i am too fatigue to post aLL the detaiLs,Let me post it on point form.
Right.
Sure.

• FoLLowed Syu meet up with Apiz.
• PLayed soccer.See,we were excersizing.
• At 5 pLus,we went to meet up Faz + Hidzir + Troy.
• Tried the skateboard.Damn i Love it.
• Had a few bruises here and there.
• Lost my bangLe.
• Two caring strangers asked what i was Looking for when they saw me searching high and Low for the bangLe on the grass.Thanks for being so concern anyway.Hee.
• Had a reaLLy bad faLL.Broke my ass.Not Like i have any ass to be broken.
• My achin' ass.
• Caring peopLe was concern if i was ok.
• Awww..
• Hidzir..
• Homed
• Tahaha.Cute.
• Ok.Confused?
• Jeng jeng jeng...

i reaLLy don't care what you said.
it doesnt even bother me.
So just get Lost and stoop back to your Low Life.
Strewth.
Just accept me for who i am.
Cant he take up a joke?
Damn.
Damn it.
So not in the mood.
Syaf sad.
Not.
HeLL,its not me,its him.

='/

i ponder from time to time LateLy.
Who or what type of characters do i want in a companion?
Was it his sense of humour?
or his good Looks?
i was bLinded by this,whiLe chatting with a guy,he was cute though.
We promise to keep in touch.
i din even detect his sense of humour.
Oh,i am so destroyed,what have i done?
The Last few reLationships,i was Left stranded aLone.
They dumped me,for i was wrong to chose a guy just for his Looks.
My funny bone were apparentLy not tickLe.
But,i hate a guy who feLt inferior to himseLf.
Wake up !

He kept my heart beating fast,which i've forgo that feeLing .

Remember him?
Right.Sure.

it's raining,again,afteraLL its the monsoon season right?
Damn,i hate November + December eventhough December is my birthday,i stiLL hate it if i cant ceLebrate it outdoor.
Not that i know anybody gonna make me a surprise party or anything.
Gosh,i am so destroyed.
Reminiscing through the past memories,my birthday ceLebration was taken indoor,as we can't neither go to the beach nor to Escape theme park.
This rain are destroying me.
HeLL.
i shouLd stop saying heLL,Look the thing is,they destroys me,the rain.
i feLt so coLd nearLy everyday i wouLd catch a fLu.
Damn.
Not that i have any idea how to catch it.

i am stuck at home again.
Not because of this effen rain,my sociaL caLenders are empty.

Nuriha,the BFH,is stiLL at Johor,i think.
*Shrugs*

TaLking about MaLaysia,i miss going there,for weddings,shopping etc etc.
i miss going to Seremban and meet aLL the kampong's viLLagers.
AfteraLL i am from MaLaysia,weLL not me exactLy,but its my dad.
it is reaLLy a pLeasure going there cause Singapore's beauty reaLLy made them awe-struck !
HAHAHA.sorry,i was just puLLing your Leg.
Going there either by train,bus or van,it was a wonderfuL journey.
When can i step my foot there again?
i wanna get out of Singapore for a getaway.
Few days back,our famiLy,mostLy my sister and me made a ridicuLous idea.
We asked our mom if we can move to MaLaysia!?
Great,we can,actuaLLy,and i wouLd LOVE to stay there.
*Laughs*
But due to certain measures,damn,this is absoLuteLy a-out-of-your-mind-idea.
So we stick to staying here in Singapore.
ROFL.

i was aiming for this guy in friendster.
*shrugs*
But he doesnt seems to notice me.
Great.
ALL and aLL,i don't reaLLy care,cause if i were meant to have a guy,i shouLdn't make a move at aLL,he can come by himseLf.
i aLways assure myseLf with that.
Being singLe is not a fauLt,its a fact.
i even dreamt of him Last night !
Strewth !

i need to give myseLf some sLack.
Looking at the mirror,i frequentLy notices my fLaws and start criticizing[speLLcheck] and feLt inferior.
Too many pimpLes,too short,too shy,nose that are too big for my Liking and etc.
From now on i swear to myseLf when i Look in the mirror i wiLL say,
"im beautifuL,damn it !"
This is a suggestion to aLL too,but don't over-do-it cause' Liars go to heLL.
*smiLe*

Shit,my mind keep wandering at night.
imsonia sucks.
Din' know that that 'disease' can infect me,but they did.
They are destroying me,this imsonia.

i aLways thought what wiLL become of me next year.
AfteraLL i am retained,so questions Like 'who gonna be a friend,who gonna sits with me for breaks' and other stuffs when it is Like your first day of schooL.
*shrugs*
Can i make it next year?
Or wiLL the same mistake being made again?
AtLeast i have Syu,whats that suppose to mean,that atLeast i've got her?!
HeLL,you guys don't know what you're taLking about.
You guys are destroying me.
Or wait,couLd next year be a better year,to start afresh with my maths and stuffs.
HeLL yeahh,its stiLL a Long way to go.
i shouLd stop thinking unnecessary stuffs[yet].
i've stiLL got a month.

StiLL searching for a job.
StiLL searching for a job.
StiLL searching for a job.

TAAHAA !

i've typed afew sentences before my Laptop went dead.
HeLL,i din even know that this frickin post din automaticaLLy save my draft.
i am so destroyed.
i din remember what i am suppose to type.
So Lets make this another random post.

Aye !
A guy used to ask me,'what is aye?'
i din even have the exact answer but i gave him an answer of my own.
Now after i've mature and are exposed to the worLd,i suddenLy reaLized,what the meaning
actuaLLy means.
Aye,this guy.
He destroys me.
Look,Lets get to the point..
What am i doing infront of this eLectronic device on a sunday anyway?
Shit,you guys have no idea that i've been staying at home aLmost aLL day.
PLans?PeopLe?asked me out on a date?im effen bored.0.0*
No,im not desperate or anywhere near it,but i seriousLy need to get out to breathe in the fresh air.
i am going to schooL tomorrow,retrieve back my reportbook?
Yes,i've toLd you.

After the news was getting oLd,suddenLy a good friend of his asked me a pretty dumb question.
HeLL,he did not teLL the whoLe worLd about our reLationship.Great though.

Any job vacancy?i need a job.
HeLL,hoLidays effen destroys me.
Cant wait for schooL to reopen.
And this Lead to my birthday nearing around the corner.
Sure.
My achin' eLbow.

i've pLenty of money,im not even broke.
But yet,the money is of no use.
Money reaLLy destroys me.

i figure when wiLL my cLass outing be heLd.
i've no effen idea when is the date.
And i bet noone wiLL urge me to go anyway.[i din pay for the foods and stuffs]
Oh,how i miss my cLassmate !
i am genuine.

Friendster sucks.
Look i think i shaLL join tagged,facebook,myspace or anything.
i want to have miLLion of friends.Cyber-friends to be exact.
im effen bored.
Lets drown ourseLves with books.

Some peopLe toLd me to join acting,heLL,i din even know i couLd act !

Random much?
i shaLL stop here,since i've run out of words and there is nothing to say anyway.
And my engLish Language?i shaLL brush up on it.
Right.
Sure.
i am so destroyed .

HEY HUMAN!
i'm back,as in i'm back here trying to bLog again,not that i went to vacation or anything.
But ofcourse i wish to go somewhere during the hoLidays,but money constraint.
Can you dig that?
Man,i'm stuck at home aLmost aLL day.
i am destroyed.
Friends,pLenty.PLans,zero.
Look,i am not exactLy the anti-sociaL type but what am i doing here on a Saturday?
Ok sorry,maybe i am one,but its just because i choose my friends.
No no,not girL friends,i am taLking about guys here.
Guys,they reaLLy destroys me.
And,i am not the type that hangs around under the void deck,unLess you put a hunk there.
TaLking about staying at home,i've tried appLying for job.
They seems to ignore my genuine interest to work with their 'team'.
i am so destroyed.
Ever heard the word Herpes?
Yes,its the word you Learned from your sex-ed cLass.
its a frickin' disease.
Stop thinking ! i din get infected !
Someone i know which i 'Love' sometimes.nyaha
its reaLLy scary.
ok,skip.
i guess i wiLL update soon.
CAnt wait for monday,i wiLL receive my reportbook !
HeLL,i am not Looking forward to it.
Retained !frickin disease !
Another year as a sec 3 again.
Sec 3 express again,mind you.
Hehe.stay safe
XD

Back home from GeyLang.
Phew.
i've aLways hated going there,with the humid air and crowded pLaces it is just too much for my LittLe body and mind to cope.
CouLdnt seems to find the perfect cLothes,it was either way too expensive or way too ugLy.
See,i am so choosy.
i hate choosing Hari raya cLothes.i hate choosing.
Fuck.
i am stressing now.
Hope my
*dream-cLothes-which-i-din't-managed-to-buy-today-wiLL-be-avaiLabLe-tomorrow*
My heart wiLL be shattered into pieces if it were to be soLd out.
={

it is getting a LiL too boring isn't it,seeing me updating everyday?
No fret,i won't be updating again tiLL[Let me see]Hari Raye?
Hehe

Stucked at home again on another Saturday night.
it has been weeks since i step my foot outside,the Last time since i went out with Venom.
Unnecessary again.
i've been shutting myseLf up from my sociaL Life and are cLosing the door from the outside worLd.
i need to get a Life.
HeLp.

i've give up on my studies.
i am in no mood to study,especiaLLy on maths.0.0*


My horoscope:
The social games used to be fun and charming, but lately they've become too predictable and tiresome -- it's time for a change in your plan. People who are all talk and no action need to be avoided -- instead, you need to spend more time with people who commit to things and know how to follow through. You need to align yourself with people you can depend on. Shifts happen from time to time in your relationships, and this one is a necessary one.

Sometimes i am getting too LoneLy and tired

and im missing you again.

CurrentLy devouring on the mouth-watering chocoLate cream pie.
The Last i've got a taste of it was way back in time,the moment i Last ate at Long John,the moment i Last ate with Venom?
Unnecessary.
After about a century i faiL to pass my Geography test,finaLLy i did it.
i passed it,i passed it weLL.
Even Georgina was surprised and said,"Not bad,you actuaLLy studied."
What do you expect madam?Looking down on the quiet girL who seems to sLeep whenever she got a chance during your Lessons?
The truth is,i was taken aback at my score too.[exaggerated]
Thank God.
=DD
Was browsing through a brochure of Temasek poLy and has made up my mind to choose the course 'Law and management'
Laugh hard !
But i've been fatasizing to be a Lawyer when i grew up since i was an infant.
The criteria doesn't take much,just get hoLd on your scores to be a grade 6 and above.
Laugh even harder !
Syaf can do it.
if she say she can,she can.
But for now,she has doubts and time hasn't been on her side LateLy.
She doesn't have much time and even to think about improving her maths which she faiLs tremendousLy was a dream far-fetch.
Tomorrow wiLL be going to GeyLang with famiLy.
Shopped for a white baju kebaya/kurung either way it must be white.
And if there are no white,Let it be green.
Ok,whatever,kaLau sume tkde saye mLs nk crk baju !hehe.=.="""
What a reLief,after BFH accidentaLLy dropped the Laptop,i thought it wouLd be damaged or suffer from any internaL 'bLeeding',but there isn't.
The connection was even faster now!Hahaha.
Yes,Syu has broken up with Faz aka Jerk.XD
Now i couLd rest my head i am so cLear-headed now,kakti too..
it is not that i hate him,but i've never favour him from the start.
But seriousLy? dude,sometimes i misses your effing crazy seLf eventhough you're such an ass to me.
Haha,if you want to Let my sister go,Let her freed compLeteLy out of your Life.
Nobody couLd resist saying you guys was the perfect match for each other,but the behaviour,it is a contradiction.
im terribLy sorry but our famiLies are a bunch of hypocrite peopLes.
Teehee.

aLL i got to do is find my way back to Love.

Cause i'm Lost.`

it was time for me to update on my currentLy hectic days.
UnLucky,is the word that had hit upon Syu and me.
We were Late to schooL after about a Long time improvising our time management we thought we were never to be Late again.
And now i owe two hours of detention.FUCK !
Weeeee~
EventuaLLy the day struck us,hard.
Not onLy did the teacher caLLed our parents but we Lose a period to sitting down on the coLd hardy texture on the parade square.
Ended,it was time for the torturous subject i've been experiencing since forever.
Maths,eventhough how hard i tried,the equations and formuLas just wouLdn't stuck permanentLy in my brain.
Yes,a day is the maximum time i can recaLL the formuLa and stuffs,but after about two days,it was automaticaLLy fLushed out of my mind;brain.
i couLdn't possibLy give up without trying,but i can't seem to concentrate on the 'maths Language'.
What?Cosine ruLe?Sine?HaLf AB sin C?/haha.okok.Sorry.
Since entering the secondary years,homeworks is not in my dictionary.
How hard you prompt me to hand in.i wouLd not.
How strict you force us to do.i wouLd do it by cLosing my eyes.
it is just not working !Serious.
After schooL has ended,onLy three of the Express Art students went to the BiennaLe traiL heLd at City HaLL. [pLus other NA art students]
Yes,the artpiece should i say,magnificent?
Awesome,their creativity skiLLs and uniqueness never in my mind wouLd i think of art as a passion.
They've reaLLy accentuate the meaning of A.R.T.
At first,accepting the excursion bLuntLy was just a chance to escape from Maths remediaL but
to think it was worth it,it even worth my seven bucks.
Teehee.
For a previous Chemistry test,i scored weLL.
Even the teacher who Likes to criticize me and Syu said we are improving.
*Big smiLe*
The truth is,the test was effing easy,so anybody wouLd have ace it !
Hahaha.
XD!!

i am even proud on myseLf in the time management aspect.
Not onLy did i cut down on internet and idLing time but i Learned to squeeze in time to actuaLLy study and study harder.
The minimum time for me to have this Luxuries is onLy about an hour,yes,i can cope with it.
Since i aLso wanna cut down on my friends and not to search for anyone afraid to Let my mind wander again.
HeeXD
ALrite,i need to sLeep now.
Time check=10.45
Wow.What a big improvement !
Since about a few weeks back and counting i sLept the minimum is 12 and maximun is 3.
Jyeahh,
That expLain the head on my tabLe at every period.
ApoLogies.
Hee.XD!!

ALrite,now i reaLize i ought to say sorry,if not for you,its for me.
Pardon me for the previous post and the unintentionaLLy too emotionaL posts.
its just that it is the time of the month which i tend to get emotionaLLy-disturb and overLy-sensative,hehe.
im sorry for scaring you away `cause of my too hoping and expecting too much from this friendship.
its just that i shouLdn't post aLL those shit.
ShouLd just kept it in my thoughts,but i cant refrain myseLf to convey it here.
i need to Let it out.
Aye,apoLogies.
Tcaires.
=DD
Time check=8.16
im ok.
im ok.
its ok.
ALRiTE!!
weeeeee~

Even psycho know how to appreciate me and he even thought you were Lucky cause aLL i think about was you.
Since i've met you,its been awhiLe since i Looked out of the window,but now i reaLize,even the dude has a bigger heart than yours.
Who are you?
i don't even recognize you anymore.
Or maybe it was you aLL aLong but you just din't show your true coLours.
Maybe you din't reaLize who i was too.
Maybe i've commited a mistake,maybe i am too pathetic to grope to any man that waLks pass.
i swear i rue the day i met you.
ShouLdn't have deveLop a feeLings that has not been entering for so Long.
ShouLdn't have judge you from the outside.
Thanks God we wasn't taking things too fast,cause if we were,it wouLd be 20/08.
No,i am not desperate to have a bf or you in any way,you see i have been singLe for about a year + now and yes i know i can be independant.
i need you cause i used to Love you.
it was you.yes,it was you baby that said "when can you be mine?"
i gave you time eventhough if onLy i knew what the outcome wouLd be.
it was sudden and rare to have met someone that i thought couLd be mine.
i even have fantasies about it.
ALas,the person Looking at the product gets tired and move away to another.

i've got roLes to pLay too.
A daughter,sister,bestfriend and a student who pLedged to study even harder now.
What a great way to expLain things huh?But i din't ask for one,aLL i need is for you to teLL me Goodbye.
i'm off.
i wiLL sureLy find my way out and find a cLearer path to waLk,not a path fuLL of roses and thorns.
Thanks again for the memories i've not been experiencing for a Long time but yes,i am going to wash it aLL away soon.
Fancy playing with a 14 years oLd girL's heart.
it's funny how things happened.Laugh it aLL out Syaf.
My tears are drying anyway.
What the use of crying when it wasn't worthwhiLe.
i kept teLLing myseLf to cLose my heart but your words was too meaningfuL that it penetrated into it.
Great,now i have been Losing sLeep and time thinking aimLessLy.
Now i know what i shouLd do.
Yes,it wouLd be very easy for me to move on if onLy there are pLenty of guys Lining up waiting for me.
The probLem is,there isn't.
But i'm sure i can get better.
The patience ones wiLL get much better.=D
PeopLe used to say i am Lucky to have found you but maybe for now,i don't think so.
ReLationship=Some are good but not the permanent one's.
Even Mizi is missing.haha.ok,crap.
Run away guys,go shoo,run away from me.
0..0*
Now you reaLize what is wrong,now you know what you've made.
why did you even need to touched me with your charm?to show off your experienced skiLLs?
it doesn't make any sense.
i guess it wiLL not take much time deLeting you off since i am the girL who gets bored easiLy,
waiting.
AfteraLL i am the girL who can move on fast after a period of time missing a guy.
Read my archive.XD
There is no need for your sorries.
i hate apoLogies.

Yes,i did repLy to his message,now i regret for doing so.
Yepp,went out with famiLy to West Coast eventhough we pLanned to go GeyLang,but 'kite merancang Tuhan yang menentukan',so we din't managed to head with the pLan cause of certain reasons.
Uh-huh,Faz tagged aLong.0_0
i've never study so hard before a test and i am positive that i wiLL ace the Geography test.
Yes syaf !Such optimism to exceL in your studies.
i've never feLt so tired before,my eyeLids just couLdn't stop from coming to a sLit.
FinaLLy a record after about 7 months[OMG!7 months!!]there wouLd be atLeast a day of MedicaL certificate or Letters,now i managed to go to schooL for the whoLe week ![without any absents]
CongratuLate me baby!Hehe
Aye,my tiredness is eating me,so tiLL here i shaLL end.
Gotta regain my sLeeping time.
Tcaires.

i thought you Loved me
you never gave a fuck
why did you have to go and take my Life from me
Looking in your eyes
i finaLLy reaLize
that everything you said was taking Life from me
the memories feeL me back
why did you have to go and take my Life from me
and then you say your sad
Lost everything you had
stiLL everyday your aLways taking Life from me

SYAF DOESN"T GiVE A DAMN ANYMORE!!
WOOOHOOO.
=DD

Yes,here i am again in the middLe of the morning typing about my emotions,just couLdn't sLeep.
its just that i couLdn't resist sLeeping during Lessons and in the evening and therefore i suffered from imsonia.
0.0*
Lessons today was mostLy focused on oraL and conversation.
OraLs has not been my cup of tea,the truth is,i suck at it.
Hands down.
Eventhough i've been reading the dictionary Like a storybook,my vocab skiLLs hasn't improve.Yet.
Whether you are faLLing deepLy in Love or faLLing deepLy in hate with someone,either way you just couLd not concentrate on your studies.
Yes,you've been encouraging yourseLf to focus and concentrate on the most important aspect in your Life,your studies but you stiLL faiLed to pLan it.
if you faiL to pLan.
You plan to faiL.
That was what my EngLish teacher toLd the whoLe cLass.
Eeyer.
StiLL effing missing someWan.
StiLL wanting to cry my heart and eyes out but trying hard to hoLd back the tears.
StiLL wanting to contact with someWan eventhough i knew what the outcome wouLd be.
StiLL wondering why the sudden abandon?
StiLL am gLad that he is stiLL aLive and kicking.=)
StiLL ponder about myseLf because of the way peopLe treat me.
StiLL wondering why he Left my worLd just Like that.
StiLL confuse on why he gave me high hopes and crushed them on the way down.
StiLL thinking whether he is reading this.
StiLL bothers why i steaL his Line.
StiLL have doubts about my studies.
StiLL wondering why he stiLL featured and 'want-to-meet' me.
StiLL figuring if he stiLL regard me as Syaf[?]
StiLL Laughing to Mizi sudden siLence too.
StiLL effing missing Venom.
StiLL feLt the great Loss and LoneLiness overwheLms.
StiLL have attitude probLem.
StiLL hate schooL.
StiLL thinking about Muhd Ridzwan bin RamLe.
StiLL ponder if he is reading this.
StiLL thinking too much about why he have no heart[feeLings]
StiLL teLLing myseLf it is not my fauLt.
StiLL wishing for him to come back.
StiLL thinking that i am over-reacting?
StiLL needs a tutor to teach.0.0*
StiLL need to hear his voice.
StiLL need the tight hug.
StiLL need to Laugh at his jokes.
StiLL scoLding myseLf for being too sensitive.
StiLL regard him as a friend.
StiLL denies the fact that he is gone.
=]

OMG,Venom just message.
He toLd me not to worry that much.
He need more time to expLain that he cant be there for me.

Tears started roLLing.
StiLL thinking hard on why he can't be there for me when i needed him the most.
StiLL saying he is a Liar.

`i need you cause i Love you.

StiLL need bitch from heaven to consoLe me.
StiLL sick because of this shit.
StiLL doesn't know what to repLy.
=/

New post again`
They says never to Let go of the one you Love for the one you Like
Cause the one you Like wiLL go for the one they Love.
Kapish??
Hehe
StiLL enduring with the LoneLiness.
StiLL waiting for your repLy.
0.0*
Syaf has never been so pathetic before.~
ALrite,atLeast give me a week.hee.
i don't know whats wrong but do i need to convince you that i Love you so deepLy so that you wiLL come back to me or;
i hate you now with aLL my heart.i wish you dead so that you wiLL get the fucking out of ma Life !
haa,Either way,you won't respond huh dude.
Tak sangke you are this kinda guy.
=DD
it feeLs great.
Devoid of Love and devoid of sLeep.
Haha.
And it has aLL being stated,of aLL my past faiLed reLationships,not any one of them exceed more than a month.
i'm just not the girL-friend materiaL.=}
~you are a wife materiaL dear-Afi.
Hahaha.Fake!

Sometimes i think too much.
ApoLogies for the previous post if it is too emotionaL for you which i doubt it is.
Hehe.
Loves `Syaf aLways.
=)

CurrentLy chatting with this guy.OMG.You are stiLL rocking and the Rangers effing miss you.Meet up soon !hehe.=DD

Yepp,i'm back.

FeLt betrayed and used.0.0*

As you can see,i couLdn't sLeep,not because of too much pondering but my eyes just couLdn't come to a sLit.

Maybe memories wiLL haunt me if my worLd is in darkness.

its been 76 hours of siLence from that guy.

Two caLLs and two messages,he repLied to none.

He isn't responding and i thought he've got feeLings too.

i don't need any expLanation,what i needed the most is wether he stiLL want to be my friend or we couLd just

cut off this friendship.

Either way,i shaLL endure.

i hate siLence treatment and how guys Leave me hanging.

Just get me out of this abiding pain from my heart and souL.

Yepp,guys come and go out of my Life and the recent ones couLdn't get me Laughing at every sentences they

make.

The recent ones are so boring eventhough they got the Looks.

Appereance doesn't matter to me anymore.Hee

Yepp,i Love to compare,i just couLdn't heLp it.

Just teLL me what you need to impart,i shaLL Listen and understood-understand.hehe.

Why so serious?Lets put a smiLe on that face,or whatever it is.hee.=)

Yeahh baby,sometimes i misses you and needed you badLy and i thought i couLd not Live without you.

The other side of me is to just wish you are gone forever and i can be independant on my own,weLL that exactLy what i've been doing for the Last 1 year and five months.But most of the time,the-im-missing-you-part is overpowering.

Yepp.

Don't you think about me Like how i aLways think about you?

i hope we wiLL stay cLose in times to come.

Yes,dear.That was your sentences.0.0*

Sometimes i wish you are just playing with me and this was aLL a joke.

Yes,i dreamt of you.Once.

Majority of my dreams are the totaL opposite.Yepp.

Where is my tipper and counseLLor when i needed them now.

Haiya...

Ok,i am in a better shape now after chatting with friends that appreciated me and care for me.

Hmph.

it is soo sudden !OMG.What happen to you?

i didn't know that you couLd shift your heart that easiLy,or did you even Like me from the start?

Now everyone is saying,"OMG,where is that -----??!"

Hmmm,ask him yourseLf.=]

i don't give a damn anymore.

i have used up aLL my pride and aLL to get in touch with you.

if you think 2 caLLs and 2 messages are not enough,you are wrong.

it is to me.

ALL eLse needed is for him to get back to me if he stiLL wants too.

Now or never again.

Everyone thought we couLd be together,me too so did you.

You are not putting any sense to me i feLt so abash.

it is considered a big improvement to myseLf cause i think i can move on even though it is just a freaking three

days.

WeLL,you couLd.

So can i.

Yepp,there are afew first times with you and maybe some wouLd be the Last.

Yepp,i Left peopLe too but i didn't give them faLse hopes from the start,drng yg prsn.

ehehe.kLah.shesssshhh.=D

i need to study.

EOY are drawing near,aLL i've got to do is to revise at home.

But i spent most of my time idLing away and i thought you couLd be my tutor.

yadadada.

Teachers thought i am wayyyy stupid.

i shaLL not deny,i am.

hehe

But seriousLy,i dunnoe what happened to Ridzwan.

TOO SUDDEN>iTS TOO SUDDEN>YOU ARE SCARiNG ME.

0.0*

He ain't got feeLings Like what he posted.

=PP

Eventhough in my EngLish compo. i've wrote severaL wonderfuL expressions,i just couLd not get my hands to get a distintion[speLL check].

Hee,

AKWARD~

and maybe if you are reading this,just take note that i won't make you my abhorrence.Or maybe i changed my mind.You are sick.

XD.

Tcaires.

i AM STiLL THiNKiNG,WHERE ARE YOU??

i shaLL wait for tomorrow or perhaps on Monday;waiting for your expLaination or whatever you caLLed it.yah yah.read this fucker.

aahh,

tkpe.tk penting !

i shaLL continue about this feeLings on Monday.

My positive and negative thoughts.

For today,i've never feLt so coLd before.

i Love running aimLessLy in the rain ~

XD

weeee~ehhe.0.0*

insane fucker.This is what an insane fucker wouLd do when he has nothing fuckering to do.

=.=""

xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Yes,i couLd feeL the tears fLowing at night.

Boo.

i couLdn't concentrate on the task given.

i couLdn't sLeep,i couLdn't eat,i couLdn't bathe.

hehe,bedek.

"Omg , Omg"

that is the onLy thing my mouth wouLd bLurt out whenever it's being open.

Oh yes,my mind wouLdn't think straight.

i feLt so nausea and as if i couLd vomit anytime soon.

My heart.

i've kept taLking about my heart this few post

haha

omg,i ade heartprobLem kerr?

fake~

'cause they say never to Let your heart open~

OMG,this is it,this is it baby!

im sick

Love sick

sakit rindu

rofLmao

im so weak~

xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

thanks soLitude,i'm regaining myseLf now

yurhh,so Syu said"mcm fifie"

aaaaahh !no!!!no.pLease no..

=[

Omg,a sad face.

omg.

*shakes head*

*roLL eyes*

O M G

!

0.0*

Look into my heart and you wiLL find Love Love Love Love.

=)

So today Faz and Syu heLped me to cut my hair.i Like my fringe.teehee.

i guess my perspectives of Faz has changed.He isn't that bad afteraLL.

ok,thats it

no mood to taLk about other stuffs.

tc.

if you are reading this,do contact me ASAP.

cause i effing miss you.

=/

hehe.

Boo !
i'm here.
i've managed to straighten my Limp body out of my dark bedroom and now i'm sitting infront of my addiction.
Yes.
internet.
i knew my mind tried to gain controL of myseLf and somehow urged me to post something.
But that something,however was wiped out of my mind.
Hahaha !
So this is it.
Now i remember what is it.
Now i remember what is my motive.
A psycho.
Again.
i am coming to terms about changing my handphone number.
UnfortunateLy,this is not the first time.
After muLtipLes prank caLLs received pLus new numbers wanting to make new friend,right on the spot,i knew i had enough.
A psycho,reaLLy mad but if you are experiencing what i am going through i guess this is what you wiLL do.
*throws handphone on the ground* *put your hands on your ears* *screams* "you are scaring the fuck out of me!!"
hahaha !
yeahh baby !i Loved to exaggerate.
weeeee~

New bLogskin + a new song
This song used to bring tears to my eyes even now when i am typing this post my nose is twitching.
i have been going to Baybeats for the Last two days with Venom and cLans.
So it has been three consecutive days that i met up with him.
His sister is effing friendLy.
it was fun !i sweat,aLot !
Disgusting.Hot.Loving it.
Saw Syafiq yesterday too.=DD buke Lagi biLe-biLe aye.hehe
Saw A.K Lagik.hahaha.
StiLL coming to terms to go out today or not.
PLanned to go out with Hakim and cLans,but everybody seems to be in a Lazy state now.
That incLudes me.XD
i whacked 2nd sis at the back,hard,with a cane.
That was a desperate time,so i just grabbed anything near to me.
=X
She 'punched' my face,hard,.
The end resuLts,
a red scar Lined across her back.
Me,a bLeeding nose.
She cried,i did not
Just because of the tears,everybody was sympathazing[speLL check] with her.
What about me?Just because i am strong enough to hoLd back the tears,doesn't mean that the impact she had on me wasn't as hard as i did to her !
OMG,i have commited a sin.again.
i've had enough,God forgive me.
i don't think i am a good MusLim.
i am aLso rude to my parents.
*cry hard* ='(
i wiLL try to get rid of my bad temper.
it is worthLess.
My heart,it feLt heavy again.
A burden is burying inside it.
Get out,shoo,fuck off !
i want to do as many good deeds tiLL my body couLd no Longer take it anymore.
i want to study hard tiLL my brain couLd no Longer take it anymore.
i want to Love someone tiLL my heart couLd no Longer bear it anymore.
How can i fuLfiLs aLL this wants?
When i am just an imperfect girL.
My heart is hurting.
PhysicaLLy and mentaLLy.
im going to cut my fringe soon.
=X
Where the fuck is Wan !haha.im not Laughing.
0.0*
Tomorrow wouLd be the start of the fasting month.
Cant wait for it to be over and Hari Raya to take over.XD !!
i don't care whether u have got a ride or not.
i don't care if you faiLed to protect me.
Just keep in your mind that i Love you for who you are not what you are.
=DD
Everbody in my msn List was asking."Who the fucking heLL is Venom?"
0.0
Whooooattttt?Serious,tk bedek.haha.we are just friends kan..Friends jee..ahahaha !ok,Syaf shuddup.
And what wrong with you !
Asking me to update when you are not even updating your bLog !
Yes,YOU know who YOU are !=PPP
Stop haunting me.Get out of my Life.
im hungry.
=}
Someone,make me cry.
My heart its fuLL.
Making it harder for me to breathe.
i know certain thing takes time baby.
Stomach growLing to the song bLack rose dying.
haha.ok.bedek seii
i am becoming to conscious with my physicaL image.
HeLp me.Again.
As you can see,Syaf needs heLp badLy.
=/

its been awhiLe since i Last bLog.
ALLow me to write a Long post for today.
=]
Ok,here it goes...

Communication breakdown,
i have been experiencing it,with my peers and if you are reading this and you think i am referring to you.You might be just right !
i get bored easiLy,i get confused too often and my heart couLdn't stop pumping.
Duhhh,i mean it has been pumping faster than ever.
i hate it this way.
i thought my Life is fiLLed with an endLess Loop of excitement and happiness,but LittLe did i know,aLL this 'good times' are going to end soon.
if you can't understand what i am babbLing about,it may be because i jumped from another topic to another without any warning.
Both sisters are having reLationship probLems.ShaLam texted to Syahirah "btw,i Left something at your door,hope you don't Like it."
And my frightened mind was thinking.
'CHUCKY?'And Syu,how Faz is too cLose with his bestfriend.
0.0"" unnecessary stress actuaLLy.
MaLay homework,articLe,stress.
Education breakdown,
im too stupid.
BiMBO?No,that wouLd onLy means that i am saying im pretty.
And guess what?ShaLam is outside after saying he isn't coming down to Teban.
oh,how sweeet..
Surprise me Like that baby !haha.
Faz used to do that to Syu too,in order to win her heart back.
Sweeeeetttt.
But,i have never approved of their reLationship.
XD Once in a whiLe,i used to say Venom name infront of my parent[oh,pnjng umor,he just msg me]ok,back,than my mum was Like "india??!" Maybe it is my fauLt or my poor pronounciation skiLLs but i swore i didnt said "Virnam!!"uh-huh,that is what she heard.=P
OH yeahh B,im stresser than you.
After being the 6th person to get in the high risk of retaining next year,i am speechLess.
HELP ME.
HELP ME.
SEriousLy,HELP ME.
SOS.
HELP !
Tomorrow,my date with Venom,after about a period of time not seeing each other.
Jyeahh,Effing miss him.
Ofcourse,i've got some tips from teachers to onLy concentrate on your 2 best subjects,but onLy if you are confident that you are gonna pass your EngLish that is.
My mind is in a twirL.
Some random thoughts,i reaLLy need to express it aLL out.
Sorry if your eyes are hurting by seeing too many words in a big chunk paragraph.
i don't hoLd any responsibiLities.
Can't wait for the fasting month.
ALL cLans,hope we can get back together and break our fast.
=)
Teachers are going to caLL my parents.
How much more do you guys need to poLLute their mind about us.
Vice-principaL caLLed,that is enough.
ShaLam going to enter my house soon.
Without any hesitation,my bro-in-Law has aLready dust off dirts from the fLoor and stuff.
But for now,he is too shy to even step his right foot in my house.
Pffft.
i wish i don't get a shy guy.
Yeahh,seriousLy,i miss VENOM !
woohooo.
ALL this shit,need to be squeeze out,out from my thinking brain.
i am just a Lazy Lazy Lazy girL.
This Lazy attitude need to evacuate out of my Lazy seLf.
This attitude wouLd onLy get me into a bigger mess than what i have aLreadi make.

CLeaning it aLL up,is not an issue.but to a Lazy girL Like me,it is.

Math Lessons.
Even when teacher was teaching it sLowLy or fast,either way isn't productive enough.
So guys , do give me moraL support or anything.
i don't need a penciL to penetrate into my hoLe.
Ok,indirectLy you know what i mean.
i am stressing about that fucking thing too !
UNNECESSARY !UNNECESSARY !ini semua tak penting !
is this Long enough?
i guess it is.
My heart is stiLL pumping,hurting.
Making hard for me to breathe.
i wish i couLd be taLL.
=DD
i am hungry.Havent eaten.
Guess i shouLd sacrifice my sLeep for tonight.
Pondering.

i woke up.
The room was dark and i noticed i am aLone in the room.
pffft.
Got myseLf to a sitting position and fLashed my mind back to reaLity.
Makeup hasnt remove and Venom hasnt caLLed back.
WaLked out to the Living room,peopLe,famiLies,asking irreLevant questions.No mood to answer,kept quiet.hahaha !i prefer if nobody taLked to me for awhiLe now.My mood is effing bad.
=/

Tomorrow,heres the pLan.
Go to schooL,after schooL,rush to the train station.
The things that i bring to MaLaysia?
My schooL uniform and shoes.
Great.

Cant wait for tomorrow.

Venom,
ehhe
=)
We shouLd be meeting up right now,but you are too busy studying huh dude.
eLeh.

Went to Yishun today.
PoLycLinic.
A maLay 'makcik' attended to me.
OMG,stop Lecturing me Like im somekind of a minahrep.
grrr
She thought that i am one of the types of maLay girLs nowadaes.
huuuuu~
ok,whatever.

im soo gonna miss Nur and Venom + some peeps.haha.hehe.m p.-.-"
Four whoLe days without contacting?!
Good grief..
=X