Din reaLize that i actuaLLy turn in to Faz about my issue with a certain someone.
And God,pLease dont persuade me to beLieve in positive thinking anymore,'cause now the Syaf you know is a pessimist.
HahaXD.
i am for reaL...
AtLeast you are weLL equipped when the undesirabLe occurs to your fragiLe seLf.
True?
HeeXD
Anyway,seeya when i seeya,
which couLdnt be that Long..
Haks.
Have a Happy Night.
Dont Let the BOOGEYMAN get you.
XP

Was appearing offLine just now,when i scanned through my contact List and finaLLy saw the truth in everything.
A guiding Light wishing for me to go into a maybe brighter and deeper side of Life.
To forget the Lust and the heartache of a gLimpse of Love entering into my souL.
Even make me forget about making new friends or even touching this Laptop ever again,but to just vanish off from the cyber-worLd.
Not to mention to bury my handphone but spent time with onLy my beLoved friends.
To stay in schooL as Long as i can and not step foot into reaLity.
Oh dang-June hoLidays are nearing...
Who am i going to spend the one whoLe month duration with?
Haha.Anyway...
i shaLL never Let any boy take usefuL advantage of me on the fxking first date.
i wiLL not regret as at that point of time,that was what i reaLLy wanted.XP
Anyway,i thought he din' date Chinese girLs?
i am too fuLL of myseLf to expect a positive side on everything again.
i shaLL abide by my negative thoughts that what has been happening is for a fxking reason.
i reaLLy do need a break right now,cut-off from aLL this phenomenon.
0.0*
Unprecedented,but im aLL too prepare and aware of this ending.
it wasnt that difficuLt to cope with this and aLL i feLt was a twist in the pit of my stomach.
That wasnt so bad.
Haha.
How i wish i couLd LabeL and caLL him names...but its not fair right?
But im suree he wiLL taLk about me to maybe someone Like what he did to me.
Criticizing the girL.
Poor thing.
i am getting my Life back.
AtLeast i know what i am Looking forward in Life.
Ogay,now im getting superior.
Sorry.
i shouLd reaLLy buckup on my EngLish Language.
Anyway,i hope he doesnt read this.
HeheXD
WiLL update on my current tests scores when i've receive them.
Be safe~
OveraLL mood-im OK.
X)

Am proud of myseLf for actuaLLy finished aLL of my weekends' homeworks and to think that i even went about browsing through thick books just to research on cLimatic change.
Anyway,i just can' wait for MYE...
and for it to be over,
i reaLLy need a Long break...
Somehow~

TaLking about exams,does having a CCA reaLLy heLps in our 'O' LeveLs points?
i mean,friends have been nagging to urge me to take up a CCA,but apparentLy,i reaLLy cant see the reLevantness in it since my course excLude CCA points.
So why shouLd i?

*wonders*

He doesnt misses me,

so i guess i shouLdn't too...`

So had my 2.4 km run today and fortunateLy my Legs aint having cramps and therefore there are no reason for me to skip schooL tomorrow.
Gotten the ninth position in my cLass,basicaLLy the second runner-up for the girLs.
Yes,i'm a runner* quoted by Mr...errr...Mr Phua.
Yes,thats his name.


Anyway,here a situation i want you guys to observe.
Situation:
Friend 1:Why arent you with them anymore?Did you guys fight?
Me:Ermm,no.Our friendship just fades away...

~That situation happened to me coupLes of years back.

So apparentLy i know how it feLt Like to feeL Left out or being ignored or doesnt seems important in the 'cLique'.

So the main point is,we are neutraL,maybe its *** who are fading away from us.

Going to have a faciaL tomorrow at Jurong Point...

So i guess i wont be hanging out after schooL.

HeeXD

i miss someone badLy that i am feeLing morose.

=X

EventuaLLy,i think im sLacking in my studies.Again.

Grrrrrrr`

Nothing new happened today except that i skipped schooL again.
Anyway,head out to CLementi poLycLinic at around 1 pLus eventhough we were supposed to reach there at noon.
Was being referred to NSC on 14/07/09.1.00p.m..
More appointments:Thursday 23/04/09;5.30p.m...Jurong point~
Go figure~
And rumours had it that Shuqun aint gonna hoLd Sports Day this year...
O.M.G,Like what the F !

Sorry.i.ditched.schooL.today.

Too.many.dramas.happening~

&.i.don't.need.another.souL.to.avoid.me.

Or.simpLy.ignore~

~No expressions mighty enough to impart my feeLings about yesterday's happenings.

Went.out.with.Era.Min.and.Syu.yesterday.

Accompanied.the.coupLes.to.shop.

Anyway,after.tedious.hours.shopping,

the.pLan.was.to.go.Shisha-ing.at.Bugis.

Davin.and.his.group.of.friends.which.aLL.in.aLL.consists.of.6.guys.tagged.aLong.

Or.was.it.us.tagging.aLong.after.them?

Anyway,it.was.a.pretty.scary.nightmare.for.me.

ShaLL.not.go.into,.further.detaiLs.and.poLLute.his.name...

But.it.was.practicaLLy.a.dejected.night.for.me.

The.night.was.GREAT.though...

First.time.hanging.out.with.Era.and.overnight.with.her.at.ECP.

Have.i.toLd.you.that.we.actuaLLy.waLked.from.Bugis.to.ECP?

Rather.cooL.huh?!

it.doesnt.feLt.tiring.as.Davin's.friend..

err,heLmy?

started.a.conversation.with.me.so.i.wasnt.fuLLy.desserted.

And.was.being.counseLLed.

Thanks.for.everything.friends.

EspeciaLLy.to.Era!

She.is.so.kind.

HeheXDD

Anyway,before.heading.to.our.pitstop,GeyLang..

we.were.rather.feeLing.Leftout.among.his.group.of.friends.so.decided.

to.head.eLsewhere..

But...

SurprisingLy,they.foLLowed.us.

Haha!

i.know,Era.know,Min.know.Syu.know.pubLic.dont.know!

Anyway,stiLL.my.conversations.with.Davin.wasnt.utterLy.commendabLe.

for.a.'smooth.reLationship'.

The.night.was.apparentLy.coLd.and.wet..

We.were.even.trapped.under.a.sheLter,that.was.unLuckiLy.smaLL[?]

And.what.adds.more.to.the.numbness.of.the.coLd.

Yes,he.wasnt.even.by.my.side.

The.night.wasnt.fuLL.of.excitement.as.there.are.no.interesting.things.happening.

Furthermore.he.ignored.me.

What.more.worse.that.couLd.happen?

Anyway,reached.home.at.10.30.am.

Tomorrow.schooLing.

Gahh.

OveraLL,the.night.was.niceee...

As.Long.as.im.with.him.

So.cLose.yet.so.far.

LoL

And.uh-oh.Singapore.is.frickin'.hot!

i.feLt.used.and.am.feeLing.morose.now.

Tears.are.dried.up~

Doesnt.matter.where.we.going.

if.we're.heading.in.the.wrong.direction.

theres.no.connection.here..

it.doesnt.matter.if.you.want.me.

but.you.cant.decide.what.you.need.

i.just.hope.i've.made.myseLf.cLear..

And.frankLy.im.tired..

im.tired...

OF.YOU.

i.shouLd.update.sooner.or.Later,

i.just.cant.bottLe.up.this.feeLings.anymore..

But..

i.cant.find.the.right.words.to.express.this.emotions.out.

Anyway...

this.week.has.been.a.sad.week.for.some.of.my.peers.

And.bad.attitudes.were.emphasised.out.Loud.

Here.a.short.quotes.for.them:

God'LL.not.give.you.a.burden.you.can't.handLe..

So,if.you.find.yourseLf.in.a.mess.that's.impossibLe.to.resoLve,

take.it.as.a.compLiment

which.God.thinks.YOU.CAN.DO.iT!

Anyway..

Passed.Physics.test.

Haha.

Oh.goLLy.....XD

Anyway.was.suppose.to.be.meeting.Random.up.at.2.30..

But.somehow.he.postponed.the.time.tiLL.Later.at.5.45..

*Bite.him*

He.wiLL.be.picking.me.up.

As.in.fetch.me...

As.in.under.my.bLock.

And gonna catch the movie "17 again"

Haha

Paradise...

Ah.not.quite...

i.expressed.parts.of.my.feeLings.to.some.of.my.cLose.friends...

But.i.din.know.if.i.was.even.Lying.to.myseLf.or.to.them.

Or.maybe...

i.reaLLy.dont.give.a.damn.

Anyway,what.are.we.Looking.for.in.a.guy,if.not.for.his.Looks?

What.are.we.Looking.for.in.a.guy.if.not.for.his.weaLth?

What.are.we.Looking.for.in.a.guy.if.not.for.his.fame?

What.are.we.Looking.for.in.a.guy.if.not.for.the.LUST?

i.guess.i.reaLLy.wasnt.in.the.mood.to.experience.this..kinda.thing.again.

Maybe.aLL.i.want.is.a.companion.after.so.Long..

RecaLLing.back.to.previous.daters...

i.am.expressing.my.gratitude.to.them.for.not.touching.me.

Yes,theres.hugs.and.stuffs.

But.not.to.the.extreme.extent.

Am.reaLLy.touched.by.Era/Amira/Aisyah.

for.caring.about.what.i.shouLd.wear.

Haha.

Anyway...

one.hour.thirty.minutes.to.go...

*heart.thumping*

Haha.

Oh-uh.suddenLy.i.reaLise.how.i.am.missing.him.badLy.

Erk~

Lesser.friends/Lesser.heartache

X)

Good.Friday.was.indeed.a.good.Friday,not.just.for.Aisha.

but.for.me.too.

Haha.

Met.up.with.*Random.on.that.day.at.Teban.reLaxing.at.Pandan.

reservoir.from.night.tiLL.

dawn.

[So.yeah.Go.figure]

We.din'.managed.to.catch.the.sunrise.though,due.

to.certain.reasons.

Anyway,it.was.GREAT.

Meet.up.again.soon.'cause.im.missing.you.

=/

Yes.its time for me to update.
i was daunted by yesterday nightmare.
Here how it goes Like.
A girL whom i knew from friendster hate me so much that i was scared out of my wits.
She even said that i was fLirtatious.
Oh my God,that statement is absoLuteLy faLse.
EventuaLLy,my nightmare was due to yesterday happenings when i press 'esc' to aLomost aLL chatbox window except for three person.
So the connection is there.
i was LabeLed as arrogant.
Anyway it was just a dream.


My mood unfortunateLy may get infected by someone's behavior towards me.
And i am in a bad mood now.
=/

Sometimes,it aint even worth trying.

Certain peopLe doesn't worth the attention

and someone need not try so hard to grab the attention.

Right.

& Someone shouLd reaLLy stop over-reacting over such a triviaL matter.

its reaLLy is unnecessary.

'Cause Life is aLL about chiiLing.