New bLogskin + a new song
This song used to bring tears to my eyes even now when i am typing this post my nose is twitching.
i have been going to Baybeats for the Last two days with Venom and cLans.
So it has been three consecutive days that i met up with him.
His sister is effing friendLy.
it was fun !i sweat,aLot !
Disgusting.Hot.Loving it.
Saw Syafiq yesterday too.=DD buke Lagi biLe-biLe aye.hehe
Saw A.K Lagik.hahaha.
StiLL coming to terms to go out today or not.
PLanned to go out with Hakim and cLans,but everybody seems to be in a Lazy state now.
That incLudes me.XD
i whacked 2nd sis at the back,hard,with a cane.
That was a desperate time,so i just grabbed anything near to me.
=X
She 'punched' my face,hard,.
The end resuLts,
a red scar Lined across her back.
Me,a bLeeding nose.
She cried,i did not
Just because of the tears,everybody was sympathazing[speLL check] with her.
What about me?Just because i am strong enough to hoLd back the tears,doesn't mean that the impact she had on me wasn't as hard as i did to her !
OMG,i have commited a sin.again.
i've had enough,God forgive me.
i don't think i am a good MusLim.
i am aLso rude to my parents.
*cry hard* ='(
i wiLL try to get rid of my bad temper.
it is worthLess.
My heart,it feLt heavy again.
A burden is burying inside it.
Get out,shoo,fuck off !
i want to do as many good deeds tiLL my body couLd no Longer take it anymore.
i want to study hard tiLL my brain couLd no Longer take it anymore.
i want to Love someone tiLL my heart couLd no Longer bear it anymore.
How can i fuLfiLs aLL this wants?
When i am just an imperfect girL.
My heart is hurting.
PhysicaLLy and mentaLLy.
im going to cut my fringe soon.
=X
Where the fuck is Wan !haha.im not Laughing.
0.0*
Tomorrow wouLd be the start of the fasting month.
Cant wait for it to be over and Hari Raya to take over.XD !!
i don't care whether u have got a ride or not.
i don't care if you faiLed to protect me.
Just keep in your mind that i Love you for who you are not what you are.
=DD
Everbody in my msn List was asking."Who the fucking heLL is Venom?"
0.0
Whooooattttt?Serious,tk bedek.haha.we are just friends kan..Friends jee..ahahaha !ok,Syaf shuddup.
And what wrong with you !
Asking me to update when you are not even updating your bLog !
Yes,YOU know who YOU are !=PPP
Stop haunting me.Get out of my Life.
im hungry.
=}
Someone,make me cry.
My heart its fuLL.
Making it harder for me to breathe.
i know certain thing takes time baby.
Stomach growLing to the song bLack rose dying.
haha.ok.bedek seii
i am becoming to conscious with my physicaL image.
HeLp me.Again.
As you can see,Syaf needs heLp badLy.
=/

its been awhiLe since i Last bLog.
ALLow me to write a Long post for today.
=]
Ok,here it goes...

Communication breakdown,
i have been experiencing it,with my peers and if you are reading this and you think i am referring to you.You might be just right !
i get bored easiLy,i get confused too often and my heart couLdn't stop pumping.
Duhhh,i mean it has been pumping faster than ever.
i hate it this way.
i thought my Life is fiLLed with an endLess Loop of excitement and happiness,but LittLe did i know,aLL this 'good times' are going to end soon.
if you can't understand what i am babbLing about,it may be because i jumped from another topic to another without any warning.
Both sisters are having reLationship probLems.ShaLam texted to Syahirah "btw,i Left something at your door,hope you don't Like it."
And my frightened mind was thinking.
'CHUCKY?'And Syu,how Faz is too cLose with his bestfriend.
0.0"" unnecessary stress actuaLLy.
MaLay homework,articLe,stress.
Education breakdown,
im too stupid.
BiMBO?No,that wouLd onLy means that i am saying im pretty.
And guess what?ShaLam is outside after saying he isn't coming down to Teban.
oh,how sweeet..
Surprise me Like that baby !haha.
Faz used to do that to Syu too,in order to win her heart back.
Sweeeeetttt.
But,i have never approved of their reLationship.
XD Once in a whiLe,i used to say Venom name infront of my parent[oh,pnjng umor,he just msg me]ok,back,than my mum was Like "india??!" Maybe it is my fauLt or my poor pronounciation skiLLs but i swore i didnt said "Virnam!!"uh-huh,that is what she heard.=P
OH yeahh B,im stresser than you.
After being the 6th person to get in the high risk of retaining next year,i am speechLess.
HELP ME.
HELP ME.
SEriousLy,HELP ME.
SOS.
HELP !
Tomorrow,my date with Venom,after about a period of time not seeing each other.
Jyeahh,Effing miss him.
Ofcourse,i've got some tips from teachers to onLy concentrate on your 2 best subjects,but onLy if you are confident that you are gonna pass your EngLish that is.
My mind is in a twirL.
Some random thoughts,i reaLLy need to express it aLL out.
Sorry if your eyes are hurting by seeing too many words in a big chunk paragraph.
i don't hoLd any responsibiLities.
Can't wait for the fasting month.
ALL cLans,hope we can get back together and break our fast.
=)
Teachers are going to caLL my parents.
How much more do you guys need to poLLute their mind about us.
Vice-principaL caLLed,that is enough.
ShaLam going to enter my house soon.
Without any hesitation,my bro-in-Law has aLready dust off dirts from the fLoor and stuff.
But for now,he is too shy to even step his right foot in my house.
Pffft.
i wish i don't get a shy guy.
Yeahh,seriousLy,i miss VENOM !
woohooo.
ALL this shit,need to be squeeze out,out from my thinking brain.
i am just a Lazy Lazy Lazy girL.
This Lazy attitude need to evacuate out of my Lazy seLf.
This attitude wouLd onLy get me into a bigger mess than what i have aLreadi make.

CLeaning it aLL up,is not an issue.but to a Lazy girL Like me,it is.

Math Lessons.
Even when teacher was teaching it sLowLy or fast,either way isn't productive enough.
So guys , do give me moraL support or anything.
i don't need a penciL to penetrate into my hoLe.
Ok,indirectLy you know what i mean.
i am stressing about that fucking thing too !
UNNECESSARY !UNNECESSARY !ini semua tak penting !
is this Long enough?
i guess it is.
My heart is stiLL pumping,hurting.
Making hard for me to breathe.
i wish i couLd be taLL.
=DD
i am hungry.Havent eaten.
Guess i shouLd sacrifice my sLeep for tonight.
Pondering.

i woke up.
The room was dark and i noticed i am aLone in the room.
pffft.
Got myseLf to a sitting position and fLashed my mind back to reaLity.
Makeup hasnt remove and Venom hasnt caLLed back.
WaLked out to the Living room,peopLe,famiLies,asking irreLevant questions.No mood to answer,kept quiet.hahaha !i prefer if nobody taLked to me for awhiLe now.My mood is effing bad.
=/

Tomorrow,heres the pLan.
Go to schooL,after schooL,rush to the train station.
The things that i bring to MaLaysia?
My schooL uniform and shoes.
Great.

Cant wait for tomorrow.

Venom,
ehhe
=)
We shouLd be meeting up right now,but you are too busy studying huh dude.
eLeh.

Went to Yishun today.
PoLycLinic.
A maLay 'makcik' attended to me.
OMG,stop Lecturing me Like im somekind of a minahrep.
grrr
She thought that i am one of the types of maLay girLs nowadaes.
huuuuu~
ok,whatever.

im soo gonna miss Nur and Venom + some peeps.haha.hehe.m p.-.-"
Four whoLe days without contacting?!
Good grief..
=X

Gotten back Physics and EngLish paper today.
ShaLL not eLaborate much,but my scores is totaLLy devastating.
i scored atLeast a two digit number for EngLish.[stiLL faiL]=]
And for Physics,i managed to get Less than 10,and to be more specific,Less than 5.=}
What the use of having someone-pro-who-can-teach-me in that subject yet i fLunk the test terribLy?
For maths,another Less than 5 points.Lowest in cLass.Not proud.Dissapointed.
oh yeahh,i am in a seriousLy dead shit.im dead.
High chances to be retained,weLL,that is what most of the teacher toLd me.0.0
UnLess a miracLe happen,i wiLL ace my EOY.Fat hope.My Luck is running out.i need to WAKE UP to face this reaLity.

ALot of unnecessary stress is running in my mind.Get Lost .
My brain is fiLLed up with empty,bLank space.
How couLd i be so stupid?
i used to be so cLever.USED TO.

Jyeah,heLp me God.i wiLL try to heLp myseLf too.PeopLe heLp me too.ehhe.

My heart is somehow being bLocked.The pain,i can't bear it.Something is Like.ok,crap.im fine peopLe !hehe.=DD

Venom,facing aLots of probLem and chaLLenges huh?
Me too baybee !
haha..sedeh Lahh babe...=<
Tomorrow if aLL pLans work out,wiLL be outz with him.
20/08/2008
What a nice date.
LoL.
miss him.=]

WiLL be off to MaLaysia this coming 21.
Hope this trip wiLL somehow ease my mind off things for awhiLe.

Sorry i skip schooL again tomorrow.
Sorry i couLdn't taLk about Love right now.
Sorry i sm such a confused kid.
Sorry i am such a Loser.
Sorry i am not up to your expectations.
Sorry i make you disappointed.
Sorry i didn't make you proud.
Sorry i am not a good friend.
Sorry i didn't taLk to you anymore.
Sorry for everything i did.

=)

TaLking on the phone now with dear venom.
i passed my SS test !
OMG,hard to beLieve right?
great !
=DD
ok,tcaires..

001. Real name
:Syafiqah.[yepp,dats it]0.0

002. Nicknames
: Syaf baby.hahaha.LuL.=D

003. Status
: im stiLL sgL.sadLy.=.=""""

004. Zodiac sign
: Rooster.=/

005. Male or female
: Lady !=D

006. Age
:fourteen gg fifthteen.soon 0.0

007. Birthday
:another four months four days,go count.~ =]

008. School
: SQSS.bebeh.

009. Residence
: TEBAN..weeee~

010. Hair color
: bLack but oh how i wish it was bLonde.haha.dumbo~0.0

011. Long or short hair
:ouhweee.LONG!!!yay !ahaha.=P

012. Smoke
: Passive.=.=

013. Drink
: nahh-uhh.sty away from me !hees.=)

014. Available
: nopeee.bLuekz !hehe.=DD

015. Are you a health freak
: quite..dat is why i am stiLL aLive !hehe.=D

016. Height
: 1.56.sucks big time !=X

017. Do you have a crush on someone
:errrr.confused ~=X

018. Do you like yourself
:quite.but most of the time i hate myseLf.saddened.0.0

019. Piercing
: 4.=}

020. Righty or lefty
: Righty but Lefty oso cn.haha.dick.-.-

021. Tattoos
:get away frm me !haha.=/

022. First surgery
: nose job when im oLder.haha.Laugh out Loud !=DD

023. First piercing
: Primary one.jyeahh..=]

024. First bestfriend/s
: who is it again.wait.i cLdnt seems to rmbr.mayb its syu.=.="""

025. First award
: primary 3.music taLent.=P

027. First pet
: fish !!

028. First vacation
:indonesia.ahahha.=P

029. First date
: sec 1~~hahaha !rofL.

030. First crush
: primary one beb..nyaha !=P

049. Eating as of now
: nahh.no mood.no mood no eat.=/

050. Drinking as of now
:miLo ice.=/ no mood but cn drink.hehe.LuL.

052. I'm about to
: message venom kot soon.ehhe.

053. Listening to
: swearing.haha.cursing at Lee jia Wei..bt i stiLL Love her Lahh !ahha.=D

054. Food
: 0.0

055. Drink/s
: miLo !how obvious.i drink miLo evryday.hehe.=]

056. Color/s
: bLack and pink !ehhe

057. Number/s
:14/21/17..i dunnoe why.ahha.

058. Want kids
: yeppp.4 !or 3.

059. Want to get married
:cant wait !!!

060. Careers in mind
: Lawyer .=D

WHICH IS BETTER? :

068. Lips or eyes
: Lips.*smooch smooch*Lmao

069. Hugs or kisses
: kisses baby.hehe.

070. Shorter or talller
: taLLer..

072. Romantic or spontaneous
: spontaneous beb.romantic?eeuuw.geLi geLi.hehs

073. Nice stomach or nice arm
: nicey nice stomach !

074. Sensitive or loud
: nonono.none.

075. Hook-up or relationship
: reLationship bebeh.=}

077 . Trouble maker or hesitant
: hesitant.

HAVE YOU EVER :

078. Kissed a stranger
: im nt a sLut.haha.ok.wtv.=P

079. Drank bubbles
: when i was young.i wanted to bLow bubbLes using MY mouth.hehe.=D

080. Lost glasses/contacts
: yeahh !sad !!now i cnnt seee.=[

081. Ran away from home
: nahhhh~

082. Liked someone younger
: tk pena ahh.hehs.

083. Older
: obviousLy !!

084. Broken someones heart
: unintentionaLLy.yeahh.

085. Been arrested
: nahh-uhh.

086. Turned someone down
: everyday !nyahah.LoLs.im joking !sorry.=]

087. Cried when someone died
: boyboy.gegerL,pudding.my dead hamsters..=[

088. Liked a friend
: jyeeaahhh.

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:

089. In yourself
:sometimes.depends on da time.haha.k.bye.

090. Miracles
: Yes.ii need one rite now.LuL.

091. Love at first sight
: aLways~

092. Heaven
: uhhuh

093. Santa claus
: haha.noooo

094. Sex on the first date
: TK PERLU.

095. the more you hate, the more you love
: haha.Lg merepek.0.0

096. Angels
: errr,dunnoe.?

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY :

097. Is there one person you want to be with you right now?
: yess.i miss venom & i miss puL puL smeLLs.eeyerr.0.0

098. Had more than one boyfriend/girlfriend at a time?
: noLahh.im nt a bitch.ok.shut,-.-

099. Do you believe in God?
: obviousLy!!

100. Repost this as "100 facts about Syaf"
hahaha.LoL
its nt even 100 !
Lahhh
im bored
i miss venom
i miss da midnight air
gahahha
esk skoLa
byee
=}

i have no idea what to update about

and you guys must have gone

"then what are you posting this for?"

=P

So for today Let a coupLe of pics do some taLking ayeA fansign for my good-friend !You can see his name on the baLLoon.if you can't,too bad.LoL.He keeps pestering me to do this thingy and i came up with this thingy.ok,crap.=DDThis is my first time doing a fansign for someone.So if anyone want me to do for them,don't feeL shy.=DD
This is my favourite teddybear !PuPu.=DD
This is him again.His owner bought him some cLothes to change.This is what happens to coupLe who doesn't bear their own offsprings.They wasted off their money to a..

Teddybear.0.0*

This is his third outfit.He's been pampered.aLot. But hes 'smart' aint he?=DD buy for me this teddybear.i wiLL reaLLy Love you !=P

This is Venom.You must have heard about him afew times in my previous post.ok.waLah !Look at our eyes.it Looks soo eviL.nyahaha.=DDYesterday went out with his friends.Three coupLes incLuding us;except that we are not a coupLe.Yet.=PWent to Arabstreet and smoke Shisha.First time babey..it tasted sweeeet !=D OveraLL,it was a great time going out with him.

As Long as im with him.

ok,tc dearies !

=DD

& owh yah,engLish paper was effing hard !grrrr

i can't wait to get married

With aLL the kompangs and wedding stuffs

Great !

haha

Was supposed to go to my cousin engagement today but decided to skip it

Who is that bitch fiance ehh?

haha

LoL

=P

So gonna head out at 4

meet up with Fatihah at the venue pLanned

and if there is enough time wiLL meet up with the scene kids too

But i guess i dun have enough time as i wiLL be meeting up with Venom after he finished his work at around 10.

Geee

weLL babeh.

"eye.am.why.tea""

go figure.

=DD

PuL is onLining right now

but i did not chat with him as i am appearing offLine

even though i am missing him a LiL bit,

i don't want him to enter back in my Life after about a Long time he has gone siLence.

=}

seriousLy

ok.i wiLL update soon if anything happens.

hehe

And i got jokes:

How to avoid aunties asking you on a wedding that you are next to get married.

At a funeraL,say to the aunties "you are next"

hahaha

ok,not funny

bye !

=DDDD

Cause tonight wiLL be the night that i wiLL faLL for you

over again~

Yesterday met up with Venom

He is damn funny and fcukin' taLL

i stiLL Like him anyway

i Love the way he can make me smiLe pLus Laugh fcukin' hard wherever we go.

=DDD

A big pLus pLus pLus

i Loooo erk ok,its too soon to say it but for now Lets just say

i Like,adore,admire him

And if aLL things go smoothLy it may turn to Love too

=)

How i wish he is the next one after Like one year pLus being aLone without any companion.

WouLd not be seeing him for three consecutive days as he is busy with working and stuffs,but on monday we are soo gonna meet up !

haha.

Tomorrow wiLL be going out with Fatihah and cLans

and at night with the scene kids

hee=}

Mum and Dad wanted to go there with the famiLy but we are grown up so yahh,we choose our friends.haha.

da besaaaarrr..

and tomorrow need to do a fansign for sahar.

haha

ok,great !tomorrow i wiLL if i remember

nyahaha!

=DD

Went out with this babe just now

Accompany her to seLL off her handphone.

PLanned to head to Toa Payoh but LuckiLy she changed the venue to Jurong East.

WhiLe waLking beside a coffeeshop,

suddenLy a guy shouted my name.

As i am an arrogant girL,no i did not Look at him

So who the guy is,is stiLL a mystery.

The meeting up just now was fun

Catching up with the oLd times

See,that what oLd times mean !& i dun wanna catch the oLd time with you EruL.

Dick.

LateLy,i have been noticing that severaL teachers seems so concern about me & Syu.

Motivating us to 'wake up'

Yeah,it did work

but

=X

thanks for the care

i know you know we are good girLs

Mr Raja keeps saying that.

Tomorrow i am going out on a date with Venom.

A LittLe info about him

he's taLL.

thats enough.

& my bitch from heLL is sick.

awww,poor thing

.get weLL soon

=DD

There is a Geograpy test tomorrow.

=X

SpeechLess

Which chapter is it about again?

Syu stiLL hasn't reach home

See,this is what happened when she went out with Faz

Faz has never been my 'favourite'

LoL

isn't this gorgeous ?

i took this pic whiLe waiting for the bus

awww,enchanting

but,ofcourse i edited it,abit,to exaggerate.

=P

Common test is drawing near.

Mum promised to buy me a new handphone if i pass aLL subjects.

Joke?Laugh hard.

But i do wish i couLd pass,

but this dream is too far to catch.

Even math,when i thought i understand what the teacher are babbLing about,i somehow stiLL confused about what has being said.

And physics seems pretty easy,but the truth is,it isn't,weLL for a stupid girL it isn't.

i aLways thought i was the cLeverer one,but in reaLity i am struggLing in the express stream.

GLadLy,there are no Geography CA2.

i think

But i've promised my friend to Let him teach me

gee,next time dude

Stop messaging me you fcuking EX !

You are outta my Life,& i Love it to be Like that forever

& NO!

i dun wanna catch the oLd times with you.

GET LOST.

i effing mean it.

Loser.Dick.

Somehow i wished my post wouLd be Longggg

but i've never had enough story to post.

Venom,

you rock my worLd !

effing funny dude

you can seriousLy make me Laugh.hard.

=DD

ROCK iT.

Yesterday met up with Faris.

Matrep,weLL i think he is

haha

PopuLar,everywhere we go there he was shaking,hugging his brothers and stuffs.

Aaron Aziz brother.nyahah

Cute yeahh

Like him?ermmm,maybe

but he stiLL havent contact me yet

grrr

coz he is da one who said 'pape msg' wen we parted ways

so does dat mean i need to msg him first or what?

coz i wanted to butt

grrr

ok

shuddup

geee

i have no mood to bLog`

cause i'm LoneLy and i'm tired

& i'm missing you again

grrrissshh `

daaaa

but i stiLL Love you !

haha

muah.

=P

crazy.