i need a miracLe

Evening Syaftizens.

~Am rotting at home right now and with an empty stomach somemore !

Was caught with the fLu disease in the morning but thank GOD im perfectLy OK now.

Yay !

Anyway God how can my hoLidays get any more worse and to think thats its onLy the beginning of the June hoLidays !

Money is another issue and everytime when im out i tend to use my money unwiseLy.

Yes,unwiseLy.

it is drying up quicker than you can say 'dry'.

~The schooL's hoLiday programme stiLL havent caLL me same goes to Aisyah and the rest who want to participate.

But stiLL i reaLLy don't give a damn if they caLL.

i mean 60% of my mind am wishing for them to forgot about us and somehow sLip off their mind to caLL us.

Yes i don't have the enthusiasm anymore.

But somehow another 40% of me am hoping for the phone caLL to earn myseLf some cash.

And gain some fats.

Right.

~On Friday received back my reportbook and onLy God knows how i am super satisfied with my resuLts !

But stiLL i know i can do better and i want to do better to reaLLy fuLfiL my dream to take up LnM course.

Yes i reaLLy shouLd study harder.

Yes i shouLd.

And Lets see if i've studied harder during my Midyear...

here is my resuLt[if i've studied harder to score a mere one more mark]

C6

A2

E8

C5

A2

A2

See how many A i couLd have gotten !

Dang~

Anyway never in my secondary Life have i gotten top 3 in cLass !

Super ecstatic aLready.

But yet i am a retained student so peopLe tend to expect more.

~Anyway my internet connection reaLLy sucks so i can't go onLine eventhough i am dying to chat with someone.

How am i even suppose to chat with anyone when the the window keep shutting down/?!

Syaff angry aLready !

~i'VE TOPUP MY PREPAiD ALREADY SO FEEL FREE TO TEXT ME.

BUT STiLL,i STiLL DON'T HAVE THE MOOD TO REPLY UNNECESSARY TEXTS EXCEPT FROM MY GiRLFRiENDS.

XD

no Life~

Had a Last minute date with Aishati yesterday and we went to pLaces Like HoLLand V and KeppeL Bay.

i had fun except for the money wasted on cabs and a bottLe of Coke.

*cough*

Someone simpLy forgot to treat me Lunch.

*choke*

Anyway,effen tired pLus frustrated as i can't upLoad the video we took.

Frickin' sLeepy i shaLL update again pretty soon..

one day~

~im going to schooL tomorrow after two days rotting at home~

XD

~NO MORE LEFTOVER MOOD TO ELABORATE ON MY DAY.

TiLL WE MEET AGAiN~

Envy coupLes

~Upon receiving my EngLish composition for section A,i feLt so humiLiated of myseLf and effen disgusted.

Furthermore i've written the two of the most unLuckiest guys' name ever.

And to add to my miseries,my Geography's score wasn't aLL that sweet and wonderfuL afteraLL.

The situation is where i said to myseLf...

"if onLy i had study for this topic"

Anyway,i've stiLL got an A for Geog but somehow my standards has skyrocketed and i wanted more !!

For Maths my teacher congratuLated me for improving as i did a major improvement compared to Last's year resuLts which im sure i scored a mere one digit.

TypicaLLy the Art teacher was absent from schooL.

~During Art period,me Aisha and Naeemah did a video but sadLy i haven't gotten a hoLd of it.

~i feeL content with my current Life but somehow there is stiLL some sparks that are

missing.Devoid of extra Love and care,maybe.Or maybe i reaLLy am faking a smiLe.

~i want to go on a date again someday.i want to go out tomorrow~

monotonous

First of aLL how couLd i be so stupid as to respond to a certain question and LiteraLLy embarrassed myseLf.

Like,~

[Iřwin]™[c=4]WiWiN[/c]
u noe paramore?

☠Syãf =☜♡☞*woochy
hahaha

☠Syãf =☜♡☞*woochy
heLL.yeahh!

☠Syãf =☜♡☞*woochy
i.Like.her

☠Syãf =☜♡☞*woochy
haks

☠Syãf =☜♡☞*woochy
=]

[Iřwin]™[c=4]WiWiN[/c]
HAILEY WILLIAMS?

[Iřwin]™[c=4]WiWiN[/c]
isit?

☠Syãf =☜♡☞*woochy
ermm,yeahh

☠Syãf =☜♡☞*woochy
i.mean,.i.Like.the.vocaList

☠Syãf =☜♡☞*woochy
-.-

~Anyway,gotten back my Chemistry/Phyiscspaper2/Mathspaper1/MaLay.

Passed aLL except for Maths by 3 marks but hopefuLLy i pass Physics too *cross-fingers*.

Am eLated with my Chemistry resuLts but am not too happy with the rest.

Ah,rest assure i stiLL have LittLe hope to somehow pass my overaLL scores.

HopefuLLy.

But stiLL can't effen wait for tomorrow.

There wiLL be Art/EngLish/Mathspaper2/Geography.

And.Syu.owe.me.3.bucks.now.and.counting.if.my.scores'.beats.her's.Like.again...~

*eviL.grins*

~During MotherTongue period,my cooLest teacher ever Let us out to recess Like 15 minutes earLy-or-was-it-just-5 just so that she can catch who is the next American idoL in the Lounge room.

And we knew it not an hour Late.

Anyway,in.my.opinion,Kris.is.Like.the.American.version.of.Hady.Mirza.

And.you.wouLdnt.want.to.know.how.i.feeL.about.him.

0.0*

~StiLL am coming to terms on whether to work during the hoLidays or Likewise.

its pretty mind bLowing to think of the positive effects on which ofcourse concerning my finance.

But stiLL !!

Ogay,Syaf chiLL.

Go and work your ass off.

~its a pity that it's unrequited

Tsk

i used to genuineLy Like him.

He.din.even.repLy.to.my.comment.

when.i.thought.he.tried.to.chat.with.me.but.my.windowLive.keeps.shutting.down.when.his.chat.window.comes.up

And.it.was.pretty.saddening.At.first.

WeLL.heLL.yeah.

But.now.im.reaLLy.pissed.off.

TO.HELL.WiTH.CRUSHES !

HopeLess

~FirstLy,i am so effen coLd right now.

The weather doesn't heLp much by raining and the air is practicaLLy moisty[?]

i've been sick for over a two days period and somehow the LeveL of my sickness has decrease.

Which is to say that i am recovering.

HeLL yeah,i'd better be !

~Today's had Maths paper1 and Physics exams and i fLunked it bad.

Cannot make it for Maths same goes to my Physics,no hope at aLL.

Eventhough it wouLd be a miracLe for me to somehow pass Physics Like i sometimes do.

Anyhow,i was frickin' sick during both of the papers and it seriousLy doesn't heLp my brain to think.

And i swear it onLy made me think sLower.

Maybe im being cursed.

i stiLL remember during my PSLE maths paper and i was effen sick at that time.

Yes.

[There wasn't even a spare tissue]

i think i am,Cursed to faLL sick during a Maths paper.

Maybe being cursed and sick wiLL Let me off the hook if i faiL the papers badLy.

Right.

But anyway,i sLept with my frickin' mouth opened but somehow,drooLs are not sighted at aLL.

Guess i am aLready a pro to contain my saLiva inside my mouth.

Didn't eat during recess but bought myseLf two packets of miLo.

Yummaye~

The cure to my hunger,somehow.

~Anyway,head out to Bugis [Like again] to buy the dress that Aisyah and Leggings that Naeemah wants.

Was forced to tag aLong but i was pretty reLuctant.

Anyhow,Aisyah decided to give me 10 bucks to Lure me into foLLowing them.

WeLL,who couLd resist money?

So i reaLLy feLt guiLty for taking major advantage on Aisyah so Lets make that LittLe cute pink and bLack top an advance birthday present for me.

That wiLL do.

Anyway,bought a sandaL for tomorrow's outing.

So yes,we are going to the beach after our Last paper which is Art/DnT/homec.

Things hasn't been organise yet,i mean my things as in im stiLL cLueLess on what to wear.

But stiLL,the major issue is...

What if im stiLL sick tomorrow?

PRAY FOR ME TO GET WELL SOON>

Thanks~

~So i pictured myseLf wearing the top i just bought on a date...

Gosh.

Ofcourse,the guy im dating shouLd dress up too.

XD

~Giving up doesn't aLways mean that you are weak

sometimes it means you are strong enough to Let go.

i think God can expLain.

~So what happened yesterday?

EventuaLLy mum was booked out of the 'hoteL' and as i am the onLy daughter who aint' working,i took the priviLege to fetch her.

But i din' go there aLone for **** sake.

OLdest sis tagged aLong.

We were being ushered to the rehabiLitation centre and Learnt some usefuL stuffs to take care of mum at home.

Gahh.

So i guess the roLe of the caregiver has changed now.

~THEN THEN i SAW THE CUTE GUY AGAiN.

*meLts*

i know,Syu know,Aisyah know.

~Anyway,there was this super cute oLd man who smiLed at me !

During the process of Learning to overcome his weakness which Left in his hands.

Goodness,he is suree a finee young man once upon a time ago.

~Were infected by the germs and virus inside the room and corridors that i feLL sick once i reached home.

Up untiL now.

*sneeze.

~At night,me and Syu head out to Nuriha's crib.

We caught up with each other Life and we spent haLf the time camwhoring.

i mean webcamwhoring.

Yongyeng,i wiLL aLways miss you even when you are right beside me.

Huakhuakhuak !!!

~PLease God.

CURE ME.

i want to be heaLthy !

*sneeze

~Tomorrow wouLd be my 2nd Last paper which is Maths and Physics.

Wooooohooooooo !

Ogay,gotta revise now.

Sinking Like Quicksand,

Shout 'HeLLo' to Toupee !

Heyy Syaftizens !

*winks*

So today had our Geography and MaLay paper 2.

im confident to pass my Geography but not to the extent of acing it.

And i am positive that i wiLL not be abLe to secure my A1[Geog] or A2 for MaLay for that matter.

But aLL in aLL...

the hardest exams' paper i had so far are Maths paper 2 and EngLish.

Yes,i've fLunked Maths reaLLy bad.

Somehow i used up onLy 2 fooLscap paper eventhough we were given 8 of them.

Haha.

AfteraLL,save the Earth !

XDD

Anyway,theres stiLL Maths paper 1 so i shouLd just ace that paper.

Yes,easy said than done.

Head to Bugis straight after schooL[with Naeemah,Aisha,Aisyah & Farhana],but ofcourse i've changed out of my uniform.

Haha.

The pLan was to accompany THE aishahs to Look out for a dress to wear this Tuesday.

But somehow they Left Bugis empty handed and guess who's the one who bought something?

Hahaha.

Yours truLy.

Bought myseLf a sLeek bLack stiLLeto !

For a reaLLy cheap price..

Yummaye ~

Was tagged by KhaLidah to do this survey.

Ok,anyway,here goes.XD

1. Besides your lips, where is your favourite spot to get kiss?
- Who say kissing on the Lips is one of my favourites?LoL.Anyway,yeahh.Cheeks,neck,ears.XP
2. How do you feel when you wake up this morning?
- haha.Happy happy.HAPPY aLways.
3. Who was the last person you took photo with?
- TOUPEE,the Last thing.
4. Would you consider yourself to be spoiled?
- Haha.AbsoLuteLy am not a spoiLt brat.

5. Would you ever donate blood?
- Maybe.When i've reach the suitabLe weight to donate.HeeXD
6. Have you ever had a best friend who was the opposite sex?
- Haha.No.Cyber bestfriend can?
7. Do you want someone dead?
- NO !!
8. What does your last message says?
- "Bring comb"-Aisha.hahaha.
9. What are you thinking right now?
- Nothing in particuLar.XP
10. Do you wish someone to be with you right now?
- Maybe.Someone who've got the sweetest smiLe that can make me meLt?haha.
11. What is the time you go to bed last night?
- 12.00a.m.
12. Where did you buy the T-shirt you are wearing now?
- Jeniffer or something.haha.
13. Is someone on your mind?
- NOPE.
14. Who was the last person who texted you?
- Aishati !

15. Tag 10 random people to do this survey.
1. Aisha
2. Aisyah
3. Era

4. Atai
5. Ceetee

6. Ninie

7. Nuriha

8. Naeemah
9. KhaLidah
10.Sahar
16. Who is no. 2 having relationship with?
- HAHAHA.She cLaim that she's singLe.HeeXD
17. Is no. 3 a male or female?
- FEMALE !

18. If no. 7 & no. 10 get together, would it be a good thing?
- hahaha.i've no idea...0.0*

19. What is no. 1 studying about?
- Same as me apart from History.
20. When was the last time you had a chat with them?
- Lahhh.Some of them was just now.The rest,ermm...Quite a whiLe?

21. Is no. 4 single?
- i don't know.

22. Say something about no. 3.
- She is rocking !!Wooooooooo`

23. What do you think about no. 3 & no. 5 being together?
- Haha.Don't know.
24. Desrcibe no. 9.
- A Loud but friendLy/cheerfuL girL !HeeXD

25. What will you do if no. 6 & no. 7 fight?
- ignore uhh.Want me to do what?HahahaXDD
26. Do you like no. 8?
- Not a chance.Hahaha.Joking Maeenahti!!XP

i miss him..i miss him not..i miss him.i miss him not.

Am aLone at home right now as everybody has gone somewhere.i.e working etc etc.
Anyway,reached home and discovered that there are no foods on the dining tabLe.
TypicaL.
But again,mum was admitted to NUH Like after the Last time which were on the ""Good"" Friday.
Mum LiteraLLy Lamented to herseLf yesterday with me and my sisters witnessing it and somehow brought tears to our eyes.
She even said things that made me raised my voice and encouraged her to be optimistic.
Who wouLdn't when she said things Like she was just a burden to us,she is hopeLess,she couLdn't waLk without tripping,cook and even worse,she said to me that having her around is Like not having a mum at aLL.
God.
LittLe did she know...
i miss her.
But somehow,i can't visit her today as everyone are gone.
0.0*

Anyway,today at schooL,nothing much happened as we had free periods except for Art.
Yes,those dreadfuL 2 hours sitting whiLe trying to concentrate on Mr FaizaL's beautifuL vocabuLary.
Anyhow,it was indeed fun when things get physicaL.
Spent one hour yawning but another hour suddenLy energized !
Haha.
Someone asked a bonus or infact a tricky question to me today.
"Are you happy?"
i was speechLess and i have no idea on how to convey the feeLings inside.
So that Led me to ponder and queried to myseLf.
Somehow,i was taken aback by her bLuntness but managed to function my mind to work out the answer.
Anyway,its true that she said i was trying to hide my emotions by faking a smiLe.
How true.
But thats the way how things work doesn't it?
Like my idoL Tyra and i quote Fake it tiLL you make it.
But,by faking a smiLe or a Laugh wouLd onLy make me seems as a fraud.
Maybe even a hypocrite.

THiNGS are happening and i reaLLy effen wish to end it aLL and now.
i am so destroyed.

Anyway,yesterday headed to Lucky pLaza,Far East pLaza and Queensway.
Not much to teLL except that it was mereLy a girLs' day out to shop !
MUST SAVE MONEY NEXT TiME GOiNG SHOPPiNG !!!

i quite enjoy the sense of power when bLokes fancy me,i suppose,but i hate it when they go aLL soppy and start taLking about being in Love with me.

Nothing puts me off so quickLy.

i ought to give someone a chance and see what the outcome is.
Ahh,but what do i care...

FAREWELL...

See what i meant by getting physicaL?The.Learning.of.SOVA.=.=

See,how.dirty.our.toiLet's.mirror.are.

The.perfect.picture.is.aLways.upside.down.

HeeXD

i've tried not to care..

OH NO i CANT TAKE THiS ANYMORE...

The truth is that im missing Davin Like crazy !

Hahaha.

So much for moving on.

CouLdn't hide it anymore.

GOOD DAY~

~Let go of negative things today --

it will be easier than ever before,

because your mind is eager to move on to more positive endeavors.

One way is to release yourself from being responsible for other people's happiness --

you have to let them take care of their own issues.

Instead, start focusing more on the new opportunities coming your way soon.

Have faith and hope that things are only going to get better,

and they will.

Maybe if i do beLieve in horoscope,my mind wouLd somehow digest aLL those words and [Like the saying 'mind over matter'] sureLy i couLd have faith that things are going to get better.

But,LiteraLLy i am getting bored of missing someone when that someone doesn't even forge an attempt to chat with me when he's onLine.

Syaf is starting to buiLd a bridge and to get over it soon.

AfteraLL...*yawns* im getting tired chasing you or to be specific...

im worn out with this charade.

GOOD for me right?

But,i reaLLy don't wish to have another hookup in the future and my handphone is and are going to be officiaLLy buried once and for aLL 'tiLL my fate cross with someone's that is generaLLy equipped with good Looks,money,height,charms,brains and importantLy a huge sense of humour.

[impossibLe?i know.But that does put off reLationship for a whiLe and i Like it that way]

OR the Least is Love at first sight,which is effen rare.

So,untiLL now...

nobody is good enough for me.

Or atLeast i aLways comfort myseLf with that.

Muahaha !

XPP

So anyway,Faz sLeptover our house yesterday and to think that i couLd persuade the-dude-next-door to join in our movie marathon.

As much as Loving to stand me up,he's aLso a spoiLsport.

Giving out pLausibLe reasons to stay out of my house but they turn out to be excuses.

Shame on him.

Tomorrow is Mothers' Day and as a thoughtfuL daughter which is i am every year,i din' fork out any money nor effort to make/buy my mum a present.

WeLL,having me in her Life is aLready a present right mummy?

Hahaha !

So mum and dad went on a date just now and brought sad news home.

Like the fact that mum couLd bareLy waLk straight and strong anymore they stiLL went out Like a young Lovebirds..

And mum feLL for about two times.

Tsk.

PLease do take care 'cause i care.

XDD

So taLking about tomorrow,maybe we are going to eat over at 2nd sis workpLace.

Make it happen pLease.

i want to go out.

HeeXD

So was surfing through the snow i mean net,and got caught with an articLe on how to grow taLL.

HAHAHA.

i know,cooL right?

i won't share it with you how !

hahaha

Find yourseLf !

wooooooooooo`

And to think how my day couLd get any better when im struck with fLu.

Haha.

Was shivering [i swore i did shiver !] when evrybody eLse were sweating.

CooL huh.

Yes,somehow~

i know i know..
iGNORANCE iS BLiSS.
But sometime,don't you think that you want to dig more on the secrets?
Guess not.

Anyway,had SociaLStudies and MaLay paper 1..
One word for it,
"Don't taLk about it."
Haha,ogay.Four words.
im.positive.to.ace.my.SBQ.but.my.essays.weLL...
it.wouLd.be.a.miracLe.if.i.pass.it.
LoLx.

Somehow,my Laptop were renewed on its own and its quite amazing except for the fact that aLL my photos are GONE !

~imissyoubuticantbeartohavethethoughtsofyoumissingsomeoneeLse...

Evening Syaftizens.
Ha Ha.
Anyway...



Something suddenLy popped out of my mind and i don't wish to convey it to you guys..
But since im aLready enveLop with this information..
i guess i shouLd teLL you.
Mentos and PringLes are not aLLowed to be eaten by MusLim.
Haha.
You wish i din' teLL you right and just be ignorant.
im sorry.
That just sLipped out.

So had EngLish paper today and i swear im effen' gLad its frickin' over !
it is somehow do-abLe but Let shaLL just wait for the resuLts..
i wiLL not Let myseLf suffer from any more high hopes that are going to get crush.
ExampLe Like Aisha who offered to treat me MiLo but was actuaLLy joking about it.
Yes,my hopes were crushed Like a paperbaLL.
Erk,paperbaLL are crumpLe...
0.0*
Anyway...

Mum wiLL be out of job starting from 15th May.
The financiaL situation here are aLready tight,so i can't imagine what it wiLL be Like without an extra income.
OH MercifuL God,do heLp me.and those who needs it.
But Looking at the bright side or positive effect that wouLd effect me is that..
*i couLd onLy come up with two*
My meaLs wiLL aLways be serve when i've return home from tedious hours studying my head off.
And,mum couLd reLax at home..
i mean,she needs *reLax*...
Like reaLLy in need of reLaxing at home.
i Love you mum.
*Happy Advance Mothers' Day*

So Syu accused me of sLacking as i did not bury my face on the SociaLStudies bookLet which i hadn't pay to my teacher.
Hahaks.
Guess that just mean that the book are stoLen...

Anyway,
i need to save up !
ALL i couLd save is a wee Lesser than 2 bucks.
Per day !
How pathetic.
Guess i shouLd cut down on my daiLy intake of food in schooL.
MostLy the junks.
How am i suppose to enjoy my hoLidays being broke ?
No,thats not the way.
Ahh...

i know i've been missing in actions for about one and a haLf week now from msn.
i've got a good cause to it.
& i aLready vow to onLine onLy when...weLL when that something happen.
CLosest wouLd know what.
Gahh,
im just wasting my time but what the heck,
it feLt good !
Not that theres someone im interested in.
LoLx
WeLL,there are probabLy a coupLe of dudes im missing..
Whatever~

Ogay,my phenomenon wiLL be continue..
i need to revise on my SociaLStudies !
NightsXD

~Nothing of me is originaL...

i am the combined effort of everybody i've ever known.

X)

Evenin' humans.
Anyway,received back my Physics and SociaLStudies test and i din' scored weLL for both subjects.
But most importantLy,i passed.

i did study for them..just not hard enough.
Gaga~

After finishing Lessons at 1.00pm,i was pLanning to head home straight and curL under the duvet..
But somehow,me Aisyah Aisha and Farhana managed to drag our feets,weLL mine atLeast to revise at the Library.
We couLdn't even simpLy managed to open up our textbooks or scribbLe on our homeworks and as for me,to bury my face into a comic book when suddenLy someone suggested eating Sushi !
HahaXDD
i swear i wouLd never eat one..
Anyway,
i was taken aback at first when i saw the raw thingies,but i took a brave front and popped one in my mouth.
And guess what...?
iT TASTE AWESOME.
Maybe,i wiLL become one of their reguLar customer.
LoLx.
Ogay,that was a joke.

Anyway,shouLd anyone know of a job vacancy for a 15yearoLdgirL..
PLease do inform me.
i need them money badLy.
*Huguhh-Huggah*

Haha.
Thursday wouLd be the inaugraL starting of MYE.
Jeng jeng jeng..

FoLLow by the hoLidays..

God,bLess me.

ALright,i shouLd probabLy hit the sheets now,
its past my bedtime !

HAHAHA`

i harts you,but how couLd you juggLe two guys at one time...

i don't even have one.

its not fair.

Hahahak

NyehhXP

Owh,misses his hugs !

ALright,back to post updates on my current Life.
First thing i hate about bLogging is that my keyboard are making deafening noise when i am typing.
i mean,it was as if i am typing furiousLy on these keys,which ofcourse im not.
Anyway,on Friday which was yesterday,went to KeppeL Bay with Nuriha aka Yongyeng aka bfh.
Were supposed to be on our own coupLe date when suddenLy Syu intervened.
Haha.
it doesnt reaLLy matter as we had our girL's taLk and updating on each others miseries/happiness.
Haks.
AfteraLL,Syu were having a fight with her beLoved.
And aLL i wanted is to go out on a Friday's night.
is it just me,or reaLLy the hoLidays nowadays are mostLy on Fridays?
Anyway,today me and Aisyah and Syu head out to Jurong East Library...
i din' even reaLise that today is a SATURDAY's night.
Muahaha.
Spends time studying is better than a time wasted doing unproductive things.

Anyway,someone i know cLose to me by distance and bLood did something reaLLy seLfish.
Whatever decision you make next not onLy affects you,but us too.
Bear that in mind *****.
HahahaXP

And i reaLLy cant onLine on msn in this near future due to seriousLy Lagging connection.

And handphone credits are Left with $0...

So,there is no way you can contact me.

*0.0*

i.stiLL.am.missing.Random~

Latest update:

how couLd you went out when you're broke?

i guess its reaLLy an avoiding situation.