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2009-07-05T18:57:00.001+08:00

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2009-07-05T16:24:00.000+08:00

Wait for me !

i'LL be back !

HeeXDD

2009-07-01T23:00:00.003+08:00

~So today schooL started as per normaL but somehow i can't find my socks anywhere.

And it doesn't Left me any more choice but to just pick up any random socks and put it on as time was ticking fast and i don't have much time Left.

And so that is the story of how i managed to wear different socks to schooL.

*Grins*

Anyway two of my teachers were absent from schooL and therefore...

Jengjengjeng...

FREE PERiODS!!

Except that we were handed some worksheets that i don't even bother to do.

i have no idea as to what i've become.

More Lazier?

Yes.

~So after schooL head straight home and had a Last minute pLan to dine out with my dad's angeLs at FignOLive.

~During EngLish,suddenLy Era asked whether me and Aisyah are tired of Living.

The truth is...

i AM TiRED of Life...

Fakers

2009-06-30T20:30:00.005+08:00

~i was about to type something when suddenLy i stopped myseLf,stared into the screen and forgot what i had in mind moments ago.

~Anyway,i thank God for not Letting my heart open and now its too empty.

So i have no idea as to honour and appreciate this or reaLLy feLt LoneLy.

~im such a fake a Liar and a hypocrite.

How shouLd i Live Life anymore?

To be myseLf and not what peopLe expect of me.

i hate myseLf sometimes..

i am Living in a worLd fuLL of Lies.made by myseLf

And im a FAKER~

Empty heart

2009-06-29T22:39:00.003+08:00

Evening Syafftizens !

So on Sunday the Last day before schooL starts,me Aisyah and era spent our time outside to make that Last day aLL worthwhiLe and enjoyabLe.

We head out to Orchard and catch the movie Transformer:revenge of the FaLLen;a MUST watch movie even to those who hasnt watch part 1.

Anyway after watching the movie we cruised around Orchard and pLayed cards,again.

Had fun bytheway and GOD...

SchooL started today and i swear i need to sLeep at 10.00pm sharp or 11.00 max.

Any Later i wouLd simpLy doze off during boring periods.

Anyway,my cLass were shifted to the new bLock and goLLy my new cLassroom is effen big and too white,but the new toiLets are awesome !

So i had a new timetabLe too

+ new teachers.

And for Art i'd confirm with Mr faizaL to take SOVA[study of visuaL arts] instead of the reguLar painting.

YAY~

Ok,pretty boring but i need to get my beauty sLeep.

No time to chitchat Late at night aLready.

Tata~

Hook-up partner minus hook-up part.

2009-06-25T21:29:00.005+08:00

Had a date with JR at Jurong Park in the afternoon.

Went out of the house at 12 in the afternoon and OMG before reaching the bustop i was aLready sweating.

Like a pig somemore.

Anyway i swear we din' do anything i mean who wouLd when there are no privacy?

Wakaka~

The park were so fuLL of peopLe and we kept waLking trying to find the perfect spot to sit but anywhere,it was too frickin' HOT.

Yes,the sun was scorching and burning my skin.

Ofcourse,his fair skin too.

Woah anyway i din reaLise how our conversation somehow step into the future and career.

Sad.

And i heard a LiL bit of regret in his voice.

Hmmm...

And he said i don't Look Like a LocaL.

LOL.

Anyway had fun had fun but sadLy din managed to hug him when we parted ways.

Another time perhaps ?

2009-06-24T00:01:00.004+08:00

Had a great time today,i mean rewinding 2 minutes.

First off went out in the wee hours just to reach JP at 12 to meet Aisyah.

She treated me with Oreo vaniLLa when i beat her,reaching JP first.

i.LOVE.THAT.GAME.

Anyway,spent 11 hours outside and it feLt good.

Didie Aisyah and me watched Drag me to heLL.

A must watch movie.

*tired aLready*

Anyway,bought a dress or was it a top?

i have no idea which,'cause it's too Long for a top but too short for a dress.

Haha.

PLayed arcade,voLLeybaLL,soccer.

With Mira..

Haha.

Syaff.no.mood.aLready.

Tata~

OH,yeahh.

Anyway,it.been.2 consecutive days i dreamt of the dude next door.

0.0*

2009-06-22T20:22:00.003+08:00

i reaLLy wish to post on what i did on Saturday,but as i am the type of girL who easiLy forgets an event Long after it happened or simpLy get bored within a day time,yes i'LL skip.

Anyway as per usuaL wireLess connection wiLL cut off abruptLy when my grandfather cLock strikes midnight.

Not that i own one but stiLL the sound wiLL automaticaLLy pLay inside my mind when the cLock strikes midnight.

Weird right?

Like the connection been cursed or something.

Anyhow,i was about to post on what happened yesterday but fate reaLLy wants me to sLeep earLy[to avoid eyebags and somehow to avoid me from faLLing in Love]

what i meant by faLLing in Love was that i wouLd usuaLLy chat with my crush after midnight which is the onLy time he wouLd be appearing onLine.

And therefore if our bond are strengthen by chatting this wiLL cause further damage to my heart.

Get what im trying to say?

You might query on who am i taLking about since i keep changing crushes.

WeLL im referring to the Chinese bad guy.

Haha.

Anyway Lets get back to the main story.

Hmmmm...

What was it?

*thinking*

*shrugs*

Anyway,so yesterday went rounding around Singapore.

Haaa...

LiteraLLy.

With aunt,sis+huband+Syaza,Syu.

Since bro-in-Law just gotten his driving License,we aLL took advantage of this and cruised around.

But ofcourse i urged him to go East but somehow we rounded the Westside instead.

Oh damn.

SYAFF LAZY TO ELABORATE MORE ALREADY.

See how short my interest span is?

Haha.

So yeah,can't wait to go out tomorrow and Wednesday.

i mean Like HeLL yeahh atLast outings~

2009-06-17T16:22:00.003+08:00

What if i were to cut my hair??

Anyway,yesterday went to Aisyah's house aLong with Nuriha and had our movie marathon.

We watched SLumdog MiLLionare which is a guaranteed must watch movie and Jangan Tegur which to me was absoLuteLy nonsensicaL.

Or maybe i don't favor that movie because we were too engrossed taLking that we din' paid our fuLL attention to the movie.

OveraLL i had fun at Aisyah's house as we were treated Like princess with treats showering me and Nuriha.

Get our asses back home at around midnight.

And just now in the morning watched Yesman and imagined if my Life were to be Like that,saying yes to every opportunity.

Oh GOD,disastrous!!

HAHA~

HoLidays are going to end soon...

Wahh~

Anyway,Syaff gottogo.

TATA~

take.me.now

2009-06-15T01:07:00.003+08:00

Okaye,its past midnight but yet i can't sLeep.

Maybe i've suffered from imsonia or i reaLLy can't be bothered to sLeep again when i know im not schooLing tomorrow.

Anyway,i reaLLy hate facebook,weLL currentLy hating it.

Created a new account as the oLd one's gotten disabLed for something which i've no idea of.

And now,i need to restart from scratch to buiLd up my account and the appLications.

Anyway,had kenduri cukur rambut for my niece yesterday...

NUR.SYAZA.ASYURA.

CRUSHiNG.ON.THE.DUDE.NEXT.DOOR.

Like.again~

2009-06-06T15:59:00.001+08:00

Yesterday i had Loads of fun !

FirstLy me Aisyah Era and Mira went to Bugis to actuaLLy interview for a job,

but somehow when we reach the pLace ended up the job doesn't have any more vacancy or something Like that.

So anyway,because it was stiLL earLy in the afternoon,we decided to catch up with some baLLs game.

As in voLLeybaLL at Mira's crib.

And guess who i saw?!!

*drums roLL*

JR!!!

OMG,its such a smaLL worLd !

Hahaha~

Ogay,Syaff crushing...

What is my true fear?

2009-06-05T10:49:00.001+08:00

~i've aLways ponder to myseLf whenever im aLone as to whose genes do i inherit.

i mean ofcourse i know its from my parents,but stiLL which parents' genes more.

And it aLL came down to a concLusion when i was about to go out on a date some times back.

When my mum asked whether the guy im dating with is handsome or rich?

Ok,maybe my mum din' queried about weaLth that much but stiLL...

And it aLL went down when my oLdest sis asked the same question..

Hmm..

Now maybe i shouLd ask my mum who the cuLprit is.

Or maybe i shouLd just point my finger to my grandma.

~Anyway,went out with Ariffin yesterday to Henderson waves.

it was a casuaL meetup and since we are Living in the same area,whoever get to the bustop Last shaLL buy for the other person a chocoLate.

But somehow he treat me to a drink instead.

WeLL,i was feeLing rather thirsty yesterday.

Anyway,the pLace was cooL.

Reached home at 11.00p.m and saw my aunt.

SHALL.NOT.ELABORATE.

~Another weird thing is eventhough the jerk i used to date Like centuries ago,my mum stiLL asked about him !

Effen' sick of that.

And therefore that reaLLy taught me a Lesson as to NOT decLare anything to my parents again regarding guys.

And yesterday to my horror,my dad intervene into my 'dating' Life.

God,so awkward~

2009-06-01T15:47:00.002+08:00

~Went out in the wee hour to actuaLLy dine out at 2nd sis's workpLace but somehow the pLan changed.

instead we as in me and eLdest sis and hubbie went shopping for Syaza's stroLLer and etc.

They forked out a Large sum of money just to buy her a bLack and pink stroLLer after much persuasion by me.

AfteraLL i am Syaza's babysitter right?

Anyway,today mark the first ever time Syaza has ever vomit at me.

Yes~

So i were Left aLone with Syaza outside OCBC bank with a pink and bLack stroLLer.

Passerby kept Looking at me with suspicious eyes.

God know how it must reaLLy feLt Like if you have a chiLd at my age.

They Look down upon peopLe Like that.

i don't know why but atLeast i support peopLe who don't have the heart to abort.

Anyway i am serioushietLy am rotting at home.

GOD where is my effen job??

i need a miracLe

2009-05-31T18:24:00.005+08:00

Evening Syaftizens.

~Am rotting at home right now and with an empty stomach somemore !

Was caught with the fLu disease in the morning but thank GOD im perfectLy OK now.

Yay !

Anyway God how can my hoLidays get any more worse and to think thats its onLy the beginning of the June hoLidays !

Money is another issue and everytime when im out i tend to use my money unwiseLy.

Yes,unwiseLy.

it is drying up quicker than you can say 'dry'.

~The schooL's hoLiday programme stiLL havent caLL me same goes to Aisyah and the rest who want to participate.

But stiLL i reaLLy don't give a damn if they caLL.

i mean 60% of my mind am wishing for them to forgot about us and somehow sLip off their mind to caLL us.

Yes i don't have the enthusiasm anymore.

But somehow another 40% of me am hoping for the phone caLL to earn myseLf some cash.

And gain some fats.

Right.

~On Friday received back my reportbook and onLy God knows how i am super satisfied with my resuLts !

But stiLL i know i can do better and i want to do better to reaLLy fuLfiL my dream to take up LnM course.

Yes i reaLLy shouLd study harder.

Yes i shouLd.

And Lets see if i've studied harder during my Midyear...

here is my resuLt[if i've studied harder to score a mere one more mark]

See how many A i couLd have gotten !

Dang~

Anyway never in my secondary Life have i gotten top 3 in cLass !

Super ecstatic aLready.

But yet i am a retained student so peopLe tend to expect more.

~Anyway my internet connection reaLLy sucks so i can't go onLine eventhough i am dying to chat with someone.

How am i even suppose to chat with anyone when the the window keep shutting down/?!

Syaff angry aLready !

~i'VE TOPUP MY PREPAiD ALREADY SO FEEL FREE TO TEXT ME.

BUT STiLL,i STiLL DON'T HAVE THE MOOD TO REPLY UNNECESSARY TEXTS EXCEPT FROM MY GiRLFRiENDS.

no Life~

2009-05-27T22:53:00.012+08:00

Had a Last minute date with Aishati yesterday and we went to pLaces Like HoLLand V and KeppeL Bay.

i had fun except for the money wasted on cabs and a bottLe of Coke.

*cough*

Someone simpLy forgot to treat me Lunch.

*choke*

Anyway,effen tired pLus frustrated as i can't upLoad the video we took.

Frickin' sLeepy i shaLL update again pretty soon..

one day~

~im going to schooL tomorrow after two days rotting at home~

~NO MORE LEFTOVER MOOD TO ELABORATE ON MY DAY.

TiLL WE MEET AGAiN~

Envy coupLes

2009-05-22T20:49:00.004+08:00

~Upon receiving my EngLish composition for section A,i feLt so humiLiated of myseLf and effen disgusted.

Furthermore i've written the two of the most unLuckiest guys' name ever.

And to add to my miseries,my Geography's score wasn't aLL that sweet and wonderfuL afteraLL.

The situation is where i said to myseLf...

"if onLy i had study for this topic"

Anyway,i've stiLL got an A for Geog but somehow my standards has skyrocketed and i wanted more !!

For Maths my teacher congratuLated me for improving as i did a major improvement compared to Last's year resuLts which im sure i scored a mere one digit.

TypicaLLy the Art teacher was absent from schooL.

~During Art period,me Aisha and Naeemah did a video but sadLy i haven't gotten a hoLd of it.

~i feeL content with my current Life but somehow there is stiLL some sparks that are

missing.Devoid of extra Love and care,maybe.Or maybe i reaLLy am faking a smiLe.

~i want to go on a date again someday.i want to go out tomorrow~

monotonous

2009-05-21T20:01:00.010+08:00

First of aLL how couLd i be so stupid as to respond to a certain question and LiteraLLy embarrassed myseLf.

Like,~

[Iřwin]™[c=4]WiWiN[/c]
u noe paramore?

☠Syãf =☜♡☞*woochy
hahaha

☠Syãf =☜♡☞*woochy
heLL.yeahh!

☠Syãf =☜♡☞*woochy
i.Like.her

☠Syãf =☜♡☞*woochy
haks

☠Syãf =☜♡☞*woochy
=]

[Iřwin]™[c=4]WiWiN[/c]
HAILEY WILLIAMS?

[Iřwin]™[c=4]WiWiN[/c]
isit?

☠Syãf =☜♡☞*woochy
ermm,yeahh

☠Syãf =☜♡☞*woochy
i.mean,.i.Like.the.vocaList

☠Syãf =☜♡☞*woochy
-.-

~Anyway,gotten back my Chemistry/Phyiscspaper2/Mathspaper1/MaLay.

Passed aLL except for Maths by 3 marks but hopefuLLy i pass Physics too *cross-fingers*.

Am eLated with my Chemistry resuLts but am not too happy with the rest.

Ah,rest assure i stiLL have LittLe hope to somehow pass my overaLL scores.

HopefuLLy.

But stiLL can't effen wait for tomorrow.

There wiLL be Art/EngLish/Mathspaper2/Geography.

And.Syu.owe.me.3.bucks.now.and.counting.if.my.scores'.beats.her's.Like.again...~

*eviL.grins*

~During MotherTongue period,my cooLest teacher ever Let us out to recess Like 15 minutes earLy-or-was-it-just-5 just so that she can catch who is the next American idoL in the Lounge room.

And we knew it not an hour Late.

Anyway,in.my.opinion,Kris.is.Like.the.American.version.of.Hady.Mirza.

And.you.wouLdnt.want.to.know.how.i.feeL.about.him.

0.0*

~StiLL am coming to terms on whether to work during the hoLidays or Likewise.

its pretty mind bLowing to think of the positive effects on which ofcourse concerning my finance.

But stiLL !!

Ogay,Syaf chiLL.

Go and work your ass off.

~its a pity that it's unrequited

Tsk

i used to genuineLy Like him.

He.din.even.repLy.to.my.comment.

when.i.thought.he.tried.to.chat.with.me.but.my.windowLive.keeps.shutting.down.when.his.chat.window.comes.up

And.it.was.pretty.saddening.At.first.

WeLL.heLL.yeah.

But.now.im.reaLLy.pissed.off.

TO.HELL.WiTH.CRUSHES !

HopeLess

2009-05-18T19:15:00.005+08:00

~FirstLy,i am so effen coLd right now.

The weather doesn't heLp much by raining and the air is practicaLLy moisty[?]

i've been sick for over a two days period and somehow the LeveL of my sickness has decrease.

Which is to say that i am recovering.

HeLL yeah,i'd better be !

~Today's had Maths paper1 and Physics exams and i fLunked it bad.

Cannot make it for Maths same goes to my Physics,no hope at aLL.

Eventhough it wouLd be a miracLe for me to somehow pass Physics Like i sometimes do.

Anyhow,i was frickin' sick during both of the papers and it seriousLy doesn't heLp my brain to think.

And i swear it onLy made me think sLower.

Maybe im being cursed.

i stiLL remember during my PSLE maths paper and i was effen sick at that time.

Yes.

[There wasn't even a spare tissue]

i think i am,Cursed to faLL sick during a Maths paper.

Maybe being cursed and sick wiLL Let me off the hook if i faiL the papers badLy.

Right.

But anyway,i sLept with my frickin' mouth opened but somehow,drooLs are not sighted at aLL.

Guess i am aLready a pro to contain my saLiva inside my mouth.

Didn't eat during recess but bought myseLf two packets of miLo.

Yummaye~

The cure to my hunger,somehow.

~Anyway,head out to Bugis [Like again] to buy the dress that Aisyah and Leggings that Naeemah wants.

Was forced to tag aLong but i was pretty reLuctant.

Anyhow,Aisyah decided to give me 10 bucks to Lure me into foLLowing them.

WeLL,who couLd resist money?

So i reaLLy feLt guiLty for taking major advantage on Aisyah so Lets make that LittLe cute pink and bLack top an advance birthday present for me.

That wiLL do.

Anyway,bought a sandaL for tomorrow's outing.

So yes,we are going to the beach after our Last paper which is Art/DnT/homec.

Things hasn't been organise yet,i mean my things as in im stiLL cLueLess on what to wear.

But stiLL,the major issue is...

What if im stiLL sick tomorrow?

PRAY FOR ME TO GET WELL SOON>

Thanks~

~So i pictured myseLf wearing the top i just bought on a date...

Gosh.

Ofcourse,the guy im dating shouLd dress up too.

~Giving up doesn't aLways mean that you are weak

sometimes it means you are strong enough to Let go.

i think God can expLain.

2009-05-17T13:33:00.003+08:00

~So what happened yesterday?

EventuaLLy mum was booked out of the 'hoteL' and as i am the onLy daughter who aint' working,i took the priviLege to fetch her.

But i din' go there aLone for **** sake.

OLdest sis tagged aLong.

We were being ushered to the rehabiLitation centre and Learnt some usefuL stuffs to take care of mum at home.

Gahh.

So i guess the roLe of the caregiver has changed now.

~THEN THEN i SAW THE CUTE GUY AGAiN.

*meLts*

i know,Syu know,Aisyah know.

~Anyway,there was this super cute oLd man who smiLed at me !

During the process of Learning to overcome his weakness which Left in his hands.

Goodness,he is suree a finee young man once upon a time ago.

~Were infected by the germs and virus inside the room and corridors that i feLL sick once i reached home.

Up untiL now.

*sneeze.

~At night,me and Syu head out to Nuriha's crib.

We caught up with each other Life and we spent haLf the time camwhoring.

i mean webcamwhoring.

Yongyeng,i wiLL aLways miss you even when you are right beside me.

Huakhuakhuak !!!

~PLease God.

CURE ME.

i want to be heaLthy !

*sneeze

~Tomorrow wouLd be my 2nd Last paper which is Maths and Physics.

Wooooohooooooo !

Ogay,gotta revise now.

Sinking Like Quicksand,

2009-05-15T22:58:00.004+08:00

Shout 'HeLLo' to Toupee !

Heyy Syaftizens !

*winks*

So today had our Geography and MaLay paper 2.

im confident to pass my Geography but not to the extent of acing it.

And i am positive that i wiLL not be abLe to secure my A1[Geog] or A2 for MaLay for that matter.

But aLL in aLL...

the hardest exams' paper i had so far are Maths paper 2 and EngLish.

Yes,i've fLunked Maths reaLLy bad.

Somehow i used up onLy 2 fooLscap paper eventhough we were given 8 of them.

Haha.

AfteraLL,save the Earth !

XDD

Anyway,theres stiLL Maths paper 1 so i shouLd just ace that paper.

Yes,easy said than done.

Head to Bugis straight after schooL[with Naeemah,Aisha,Aisyah & Farhana],but ofcourse i've changed out of my uniform.

Haha.

The pLan was to accompany THE aishahs to Look out for a dress to wear this Tuesday.

But somehow they Left Bugis empty handed and guess who's the one who bought something?

Hahaha.

Yours truLy.

Bought myseLf a sLeek bLack stiLLeto !

For a reaLLy cheap price..

Yummaye ~

2009-05-15T22:37:00.002+08:00

Was tagged by KhaLidah to do this survey.

Ok,anyway,here goes.XD

1. Besides your lips, where is your favourite spot to get kiss?
- Who say kissing on the Lips is one of my favourites?LoL.Anyway,yeahh.Cheeks,neck,ears.XP
2. How do you feel when you wake up this morning?
- haha.Happy happy.HAPPY aLways.
3. Who was the last person you took photo with?
- TOUPEE,the Last thing.
4. Would you consider yourself to be spoiled?
- Haha.AbsoLuteLy am not a spoiLt brat.

5. Would you ever donate blood?
- Maybe.When i've reach the suitabLe weight to donate.HeeXD
6. Have you ever had a best friend who was the opposite sex?
- Haha.No.Cyber bestfriend can?
7. Do you want someone dead?
- NO !!
8. What does your last message says?
- "Bring comb"-Aisha.hahaha.
9. What are you thinking right now?
- Nothing in particuLar.XP
10. Do you wish someone to be with you right now?
- Maybe.Someone who've got the sweetest smiLe that can make me meLt?haha.
11. What is the time you go to bed last night?
- 12.00a.m.
12. Where did you buy the T-shirt you are wearing now?
- Jeniffer or something.haha.
13. Is someone on your mind?
- NOPE.
14. Who was the last person who texted you?
- Aishati !

15. Tag 10 random people to do this survey.
1. Aisha
2. Aisyah
3. Era

4. Atai
5. Ceetee

6. Ninie

7. Nuriha

8. Naeemah
9. KhaLidah
10.Sahar
16. Who is no. 2 having relationship with?
- HAHAHA.She cLaim that she's singLe.HeeXD
17. Is no. 3 a male or female?
- FEMALE !

18. If no. 7 & no. 10 get together, would it be a good thing?
- hahaha.i've no idea...0.0*

19. What is no. 1 studying about?
- Same as me apart from History.
20. When was the last time you had a chat with them?
- Lahhh.Some of them was just now.The rest,ermm...Quite a whiLe?

21. Is no. 4 single?
- i don't know.

22. Say something about no. 3.
- She is rocking !!Wooooooooo`

23. What do you think about no. 3 & no. 5 being together?
- Haha.Don't know.
24. Desrcibe no. 9.
- A Loud but friendLy/cheerfuL girL !HeeXD

25. What will you do if no. 6 & no. 7 fight?
- ignore uhh.Want me to do what?HahahaXDD
26. Do you like no. 8?
- Not a chance.Hahaha.Joking Maeenahti!!XP

i miss him..i miss him not..i miss him.i miss him not.

2009-05-12T17:23:00.008+08:00

Am aLone at home right now as everybody has gone somewhere.i.e working etc etc.
Anyway,reached home and discovered that there are no foods on the dining tabLe.
TypicaL.
But again,mum was admitted to NUH Like after the Last time which were on the ""Good"" Friday.
Mum LiteraLLy Lamented to herseLf yesterday with me and my sisters witnessing it and somehow brought tears to our eyes.
She even said things that made me raised my voice and encouraged her to be optimistic.
Who wouLdn't when she said things Like she was just a burden to us,she is hopeLess,she couLdn't waLk without tripping,cook and even worse,she said to me that having her around is Like not having a mum at aLL.
God.
LittLe did she know...
i miss her.
But somehow,i can't visit her today as everyone are gone.
0.0*

Anyway,today at schooL,nothing much happened as we had free periods except for Art.
Yes,those dreadfuL 2 hours sitting whiLe trying to concentrate on Mr FaizaL's beautifuL vocabuLary.
Anyhow,it was indeed fun when things get physicaL.
Spent one hour yawning but another hour suddenLy energized !
Haha.
Someone asked a bonus or infact a tricky question to me today.
"Are you happy?"
i was speechLess and i have no idea on how to convey the feeLings inside.
So that Led me to ponder and queried to myseLf.
Somehow,i was taken aback by her bLuntness but managed to function my mind to work out the answer.
Anyway,its true that she said i was trying to hide my emotions by faking a smiLe.
How true.
But thats the way how things work doesn't it?
Like my idoL Tyra and i quote Fake it tiLL you make it.
But,by faking a smiLe or a Laugh wouLd onLy make me seems as a fraud.
Maybe even a hypocrite.

THiNGS are happening and i reaLLy effen wish to end it aLL and now.
i am so destroyed.

Anyway,yesterday headed to Lucky pLaza,Far East pLaza and Queensway.
Not much to teLL except that it was mereLy a girLs' day out to shop !
MUST SAVE MONEY NEXT TiME GOiNG SHOPPiNG !!!

i quite enjoy the sense of power when bLokes fancy me,i suppose,but i hate it when they go aLL soppy and start taLking about being in Love with me.

Nothing puts me off so quickLy.

i ought to give someone a chance and see what the outcome is.
Ahh,but what do i care...

FAREWELL...

See what i meant by getting physicaL?The.Learning.of.SOVA.=.=

See,how.dirty.our.toiLet's.mirror.are.

The.perfect.picture.is.aLways.upside.down.

HeeXD

i've tried not to care..

2009-05-11T00:29:00.003+08:00

OH NO i CANT TAKE THiS ANYMORE...

The truth is that im missing Davin Like crazy !

Hahaha.

So much for moving on.

CouLdn't hide it anymore.

GOOD DAY~

2009-05-09T22:57:00.003+08:00

~Let go of negative things today --

it will be easier than ever before,

because your mind is eager to move on to more positive endeavors.

One way is to release yourself from being responsible for other people's happiness --

you have to let them take care of their own issues.

Instead, start focusing more on the new opportunities coming your way soon.

Have faith and hope that things are only going to get better,

and they will.

Maybe if i do beLieve in horoscope,my mind wouLd somehow digest aLL those words and [Like the saying 'mind over matter'] sureLy i couLd have faith that things are going to get better.

But,LiteraLLy i am getting bored of missing someone when that someone doesn't even forge an attempt to chat with me when he's onLine.

Syaf is starting to buiLd a bridge and to get over it soon.

AfteraLL...*yawns* im getting tired chasing you or to be specific...

im worn out with this charade.

GOOD for me right?

But,i reaLLy don't wish to have another hookup in the future and my handphone is and are going to be officiaLLy buried once and for aLL 'tiLL my fate cross with someone's that is generaLLy equipped with good Looks,money,height,charms,brains and importantLy a huge sense of humour.

[impossibLe?i know.But that does put off reLationship for a whiLe and i Like it that way]

OR the Least is Love at first sight,which is effen rare.

So,untiLL now...

nobody is good enough for me.

Or atLeast i aLways comfort myseLf with that.

Muahaha !

XPP

So anyway,Faz sLeptover our house yesterday and to think that i couLd persuade the-dude-next-door to join in our movie marathon.

As much as Loving to stand me up,he's aLso a spoiLsport.

Giving out pLausibLe reasons to stay out of my house but they turn out to be excuses.

Shame on him.

Tomorrow is Mothers' Day and as a thoughtfuL daughter which is i am every year,i din' fork out any money nor effort to make/buy my mum a present.

WeLL,having me in her Life is aLready a present right mummy?

Hahaha !

So mum and dad went on a date just now and brought sad news home.

Like the fact that mum couLd bareLy waLk straight and strong anymore they stiLL went out Like a young Lovebirds..

And mum feLL for about two times.

Tsk.

PLease do take care 'cause i care.

XDD

So taLking about tomorrow,maybe we are going to eat over at 2nd sis workpLace.

Make it happen pLease.

i want to go out.

HeeXD

So was surfing through the snow i mean net,and got caught with an articLe on how to grow taLL.

HAHAHA.

i know,cooL right?

i won't share it with you how !

hahaha

Find yourseLf !

wooooooooooo`

And to think how my day couLd get any better when im struck with fLu.

Haha.

Was shivering [i swore i did shiver !] when evrybody eLse were sweating.

CooL huh.

Yes,somehow~

2009-05-08T19:49:00.004+08:00

i know i know..
iGNORANCE iS BLiSS.
But sometime,don't you think that you want to dig more on the secrets?
Guess not.

Anyway,had SociaLStudies and MaLay paper 1..
One word for it,
"Don't taLk about it."
Haha,ogay.Four words.
im.positive.to.ace.my.SBQ.but.my.essays.weLL...
it.wouLd.be.a.miracLe.if.i.pass.it.
LoLx.

Somehow,my Laptop were renewed on its own and its quite amazing except for the fact that aLL my photos are GONE !

~imissyoubuticantbeartohavethethoughtsofyoumissingsomeoneeLse...

2009-05-07T18:57:00.004+08:00

Evening Syaftizens.
Ha Ha.
Anyway...

Something suddenLy popped out of my mind and i don't wish to convey it to you guys..
But since im aLready enveLop with this information..
i guess i shouLd teLL you.
Mentos and PringLes are not aLLowed to be eaten by MusLim.
Haha.
You wish i din' teLL you right and just be ignorant.
im sorry.
That just sLipped out.

So had EngLish paper today and i swear im effen' gLad its frickin' over !
it is somehow do-abLe but Let shaLL just wait for the resuLts..
i wiLL not Let myseLf suffer from any more high hopes that are going to get crush.
ExampLe Like Aisha who offered to treat me MiLo but was actuaLLy joking about it.
Yes,my hopes were crushed Like a paperbaLL.
Erk,paperbaLL are crumpLe...
0.0*
Anyway...

Mum wiLL be out of job starting from 15th May.
The financiaL situation here are aLready tight,so i can't imagine what it wiLL be Like without an extra income.
OH MercifuL God,do heLp me.and those who needs it.
But Looking at the bright side or positive effect that wouLd effect me is that..
*i couLd onLy come up with two*
My meaLs wiLL aLways be serve when i've return home from tedious hours studying my head off.
And,mum couLd reLax at home..
i mean,she needs *reLax*...
Like reaLLy in need of reLaxing at home.
i Love you mum.
*Happy Advance Mothers' Day*

So Syu accused me of sLacking as i did not bury my face on the SociaLStudies bookLet which i hadn't pay to my teacher.
Hahaks.
Guess that just mean that the book are stoLen...

Anyway,
i need to save up !
ALL i couLd save is a wee Lesser than 2 bucks.
Per day !
How pathetic.
Guess i shouLd cut down on my daiLy intake of food in schooL.
MostLy the junks.
How am i suppose to enjoy my hoLidays being broke ?
No,thats not the way.
Ahh...

i know i've been missing in actions for about one and a haLf week now from msn.
i've got a good cause to it.
& i aLready vow to onLine onLy when...weLL when that something happen.
CLosest wouLd know what.
Gahh,
im just wasting my time but what the heck,
it feLt good !
Not that theres someone im interested in.
LoLx
WeLL,there are probabLy a coupLe of dudes im missing..
Whatever~

Ogay,my phenomenon wiLL be continue..
i need to revise on my SociaLStudies !
NightsXD

~Nothing of me is originaL...

i am the combined effort of everybody i've ever known.

2009-05-04T22:17:00.005+08:00

Evenin' humans.
Anyway,received back my Physics and SociaLStudies test and i din' scored weLL for both subjects.
But most importantLy,i passed.

i did study for them..just not hard enough.
Gaga~

After finishing Lessons at 1.00pm,i was pLanning to head home straight and curL under the duvet..
But somehow,me Aisyah Aisha and Farhana managed to drag our feets,weLL mine atLeast to revise at the Library.
We couLdn't even simpLy managed to open up our textbooks or scribbLe on our homeworks and as for me,to bury my face into a comic book when suddenLy someone suggested eating Sushi !
HahaXDD
i swear i wouLd never eat one..
Anyway,
i was taken aback at first when i saw the raw thingies,but i took a brave front and popped one in my mouth.
And guess what...?
iT TASTE AWESOME.
Maybe,i wiLL become one of their reguLar customer.
LoLx.
Ogay,that was a joke.

Anyway,shouLd anyone know of a job vacancy for a 15yearoLdgirL..
PLease do inform me.
i need them money badLy.
*Huguhh-Huggah*

Haha.
Thursday wouLd be the inaugraL starting of MYE.
Jeng jeng jeng..

FoLLow by the hoLidays..

God,bLess me.

ALright,i shouLd probabLy hit the sheets now,
its past my bedtime !

HAHAHA`

i harts you,but how couLd you juggLe two guys at one time...

i don't even have one.

its not fair.

Hahahak

NyehhXP

Owh,misses his hugs !

2009-05-02T23:55:00.005+08:00

ALright,back to post updates on my current Life.
First thing i hate about bLogging is that my keyboard are making deafening noise when i am typing.
i mean,it was as if i am typing furiousLy on these keys,which ofcourse im not.
Anyway,on Friday which was yesterday,went to KeppeL Bay with Nuriha aka Yongyeng aka bfh.
Were supposed to be on our own coupLe date when suddenLy Syu intervened.
Haha.
it doesnt reaLLy matter as we had our girL's taLk and updating on each others miseries/happiness.
Haks.
AfteraLL,Syu were having a fight with her beLoved.
And aLL i wanted is to go out on a Friday's night.
is it just me,or reaLLy the hoLidays nowadays are mostLy on Fridays?
Anyway,today me and Aisyah and Syu head out to Jurong East Library...
i din' even reaLise that today is a SATURDAY's night.
Muahaha.
Spends time studying is better than a time wasted doing unproductive things.

Anyway,someone i know cLose to me by distance and bLood did something reaLLy seLfish.
Whatever decision you make next not onLy affects you,but us too.
Bear that in mind *****.
HahahaXP

And i reaLLy cant onLine on msn in this near future due to seriousLy Lagging connection.

And handphone credits are Left with $0...

So,there is no way you can contact me.

*0.0*

i.stiLL.am.missing.Random~

Latest update:

how couLd you went out when you're broke?

i guess its reaLLy an avoiding situation.

2009-04-28T21:36:00.002+08:00

Din reaLize that i actuaLLy turn in to Faz about my issue with a certain someone.
And God,pLease dont persuade me to beLieve in positive thinking anymore,'cause now the Syaf you know is a pessimist.
HahaXD.
i am for reaL...
AtLeast you are weLL equipped when the undesirabLe occurs to your fragiLe seLf.
True?
HeeXD
Anyway,seeya when i seeya,
which couLdnt be that Long..
Haks.
Have a Happy Night.
Dont Let the BOOGEYMAN get you.
XP

2009-04-27T23:30:00.003+08:00

Was appearing offLine just now,when i scanned through my contact List and finaLLy saw the truth in everything.
A guiding Light wishing for me to go into a maybe brighter and deeper side of Life.
To forget the Lust and the heartache of a gLimpse of Love entering into my souL.
Even make me forget about making new friends or even touching this Laptop ever again,but to just vanish off from the cyber-worLd.
Not to mention to bury my handphone but spent time with onLy my beLoved friends.
To stay in schooL as Long as i can and not step foot into reaLity.
Oh dang-June hoLidays are nearing...
Who am i going to spend the one whoLe month duration with?
Haha.Anyway...
i shaLL never Let any boy take usefuL advantage of me on the fxking first date.
i wiLL not regret as at that point of time,that was what i reaLLy wanted.XP
Anyway,i thought he din' date Chinese girLs?
i am too fuLL of myseLf to expect a positive side on everything again.
i shaLL abide by my negative thoughts that what has been happening is for a fxking reason.
i reaLLy do need a break right now,cut-off from aLL this phenomenon.
0.0*
Unprecedented,but im aLL too prepare and aware of this ending.
it wasnt that difficuLt to cope with this and aLL i feLt was a twist in the pit of my stomach.
That wasnt so bad.
Haha.
How i wish i couLd LabeL and caLL him names...but its not fair right?
But im suree he wiLL taLk about me to maybe someone Like what he did to me.
Criticizing the girL.
Poor thing.
i am getting my Life back.
AtLeast i know what i am Looking forward in Life.
Ogay,now im getting superior.
Sorry.
i shouLd reaLLy buckup on my EngLish Language.
Anyway,i hope he doesnt read this.
HeheXD
WiLL update on my current tests scores when i've receive them.
Be safe~
OveraLL mood-im OK.
X)

2009-04-26T21:27:00.003+08:00

Am proud of myseLf for actuaLLy finished aLL of my weekends' homeworks and to think that i even went about browsing through thick books just to research on cLimatic change.
Anyway,i just can' wait for MYE...
and for it to be over,
i reaLLy need a Long break...
Somehow~

TaLking about exams,does having a CCA reaLLy heLps in our 'O' LeveLs points?
i mean,friends have been nagging to urge me to take up a CCA,but apparentLy,i reaLLy cant see the reLevantness in it since my course excLude CCA points.
So why shouLd i?

*wonders*

He doesnt misses me,

so i guess i shouLdn't too...`

2009-04-22T21:37:00.002+08:00

So had my 2.4 km run today and fortunateLy my Legs aint having cramps and therefore there are no reason for me to skip schooL tomorrow.
Gotten the ninth position in my cLass,basicaLLy the second runner-up for the girLs.
Yes,i'm a runner* quoted by Mr...errr...Mr Phua.
Yes,thats his name.

Anyway,here a situation i want you guys to observe.
Situation:
Friend 1:Why arent you with them anymore?Did you guys fight?
Me:Ermm,no.Our friendship just fades away...

~That situation happened to me coupLes of years back.

So apparentLy i know how it feLt Like to feeL Left out or being ignored or doesnt seems important in the 'cLique'.

So the main point is,we are neutraL,maybe its *** who are fading away from us.

Going to have a faciaL tomorrow at Jurong Point...

So i guess i wont be hanging out after schooL.

HeeXD

i miss someone badLy that i am feeLing morose.

EventuaLLy,i think im sLacking in my studies.Again.

Grrrrrrr`

2009-04-21T19:43:00.005+08:00

Nothing new happened today except that i skipped schooL again.
Anyway,head out to CLementi poLycLinic at around 1 pLus eventhough we were supposed to reach there at noon.
Was being referred to NSC on 14/07/09.1.00p.m..
More appointments:Thursday 23/04/09;5.30p.m...Jurong point~
Go figure~
And rumours had it that Shuqun aint gonna hoLd Sports Day this year...
O.M.G,Like what the F !

2009-04-20T09:17:00.002+08:00

Sorry.i.ditched.schooL.today.

Too.many.dramas.happening~

&.i.don't.need.another.souL.to.avoid.me.

Or.simpLy.ignore~

2009-04-19T15:49:00.009+08:00

~No expressions mighty enough to impart my feeLings about yesterday's happenings.

Went.out.with.Era.Min.and.Syu.yesterday.

Accompanied.the.coupLes.to.shop.

Anyway,after.tedious.hours.shopping,

the.pLan.was.to.go.Shisha-ing.at.Bugis.

Davin.and.his.group.of.friends.which.aLL.in.aLL.consists.of.6.guys.tagged.aLong.

Or.was.it.us.tagging.aLong.after.them?

Anyway,it.was.a.pretty.scary.nightmare.for.me.

ShaLL.not.go.into,.further.detaiLs.and.poLLute.his.name...

But.it.was.practicaLLy.a.dejected.night.for.me.

The.night.was.GREAT.though...

First.time.hanging.out.with.Era.and.overnight.with.her.at.ECP.

Have.i.toLd.you.that.we.actuaLLy.waLked.from.Bugis.to.ECP?

Rather.cooL.huh?!

it.doesnt.feLt.tiring.as.Davin's.friend..

err,heLmy?

started.a.conversation.with.me.so.i.wasnt.fuLLy.desserted.

And.was.being.counseLLed.

Thanks.for.everything.friends.

EspeciaLLy.to.Era!

She.is.so.kind.

HeheXDD

Anyway,before.heading.to.our.pitstop,GeyLang..

we.were.rather.feeLing.Leftout.among.his.group.of.friends.so.decided.

to.head.eLsewhere..

But...

SurprisingLy,they.foLLowed.us.

Haha!

i.know,Era.know,Min.know.Syu.know.pubLic.dont.know!

Anyway,stiLL.my.conversations.with.Davin.wasnt.utterLy.commendabLe.

for.a.'smooth.reLationship'.

The.night.was.apparentLy.coLd.and.wet..

We.were.even.trapped.under.a.sheLter,that.was.unLuckiLy.smaLL[?]

And.what.adds.more.to.the.numbness.of.the.coLd.

Yes,he.wasnt.even.by.my.side.

The.night.wasnt.fuLL.of.excitement.as.there.are.no.interesting.things.happening.

Furthermore.he.ignored.me.

What.more.worse.that.couLd.happen?

Anyway,reached.home.at.10.30.am.

Tomorrow.schooLing.

Gahh.

OveraLL,the.night.was.niceee...

As.Long.as.im.with.him.

So.cLose.yet.so.far.

LoL

And.uh-oh.Singapore.is.frickin'.hot!

i.feLt.used.and.am.feeLing.morose.now.

Tears.are.dried.up~

2009-04-17T15:48:00.004+08:00

Doesnt.matter.where.we.going.

if.we're.heading.in.the.wrong.direction.

theres.no.connection.here..

it.doesnt.matter.if.you.want.me.

but.you.cant.decide.what.you.need.

i.just.hope.i've.made.myseLf.cLear..

And.frankLy.im.tired..

im.tired...

OF.YOU.

i.shouLd.update.sooner.or.Later,

i.just.cant.bottLe.up.this.feeLings.anymore..

But..

i.cant.find.the.right.words.to.express.this.emotions.out.

Anyway...

this.week.has.been.a.sad.week.for.some.of.my.peers.

And.bad.attitudes.were.emphasised.out.Loud.

Here.a.short.quotes.for.them:

God'LL.not.give.you.a.burden.you.can't.handLe..

So,if.you.find.yourseLf.in.a.mess.that's.impossibLe.to.resoLve,

take.it.as.a.compLiment

which.God.thinks.YOU.CAN.DO.iT!

Anyway..

Passed.Physics.test.

Haha.

Oh.goLLy.....XD

Anyway.was.suppose.to.be.meeting.Random.up.at.2.30..

But.somehow.he.postponed.the.time.tiLL.Later.at.5.45..

*Bite.him*

He.wiLL.be.picking.me.up.

As.in.fetch.me...

As.in.under.my.bLock.

And gonna catch the movie "17 again"

Haha

Paradise...

Ah.not.quite...

i.expressed.parts.of.my.feeLings.to.some.of.my.cLose.friends...

But.i.din.know.if.i.was.even.Lying.to.myseLf.or.to.them.

Or.maybe...

i.reaLLy.dont.give.a.damn.

Anyway,what.are.we.Looking.for.in.a.guy,if.not.for.his.Looks?

What.are.we.Looking.for.in.a.guy.if.not.for.his.weaLth?

What.are.we.Looking.for.in.a.guy.if.not.for.his.fame?

What.are.we.Looking.for.in.a.guy.if.not.for.the.LUST?

i.guess.i.reaLLy.wasnt.in.the.mood.to.experience.this..kinda.thing.again.

Maybe.aLL.i.want.is.a.companion.after.so.Long..

RecaLLing.back.to.previous.daters...

i.am.expressing.my.gratitude.to.them.for.not.touching.me.

Yes,theres.hugs.and.stuffs.

But.not.to.the.extreme.extent.

Am.reaLLy.touched.by.Era/Amira/Aisyah.

for.caring.about.what.i.shouLd.wear.

Haha.

Anyway...

one.hour.thirty.minutes.to.go...

*heart.thumping*

Haha.

Oh-uh.suddenLy.i.reaLise.how.i.am.missing.him.badLy.

Erk~

Lesser.friends/Lesser.heartache

2009-04-12T15:32:00.007+08:00

Good.Friday.was.indeed.a.good.Friday,not.just.for.Aisha.

but.for.me.too.

Haha.

Met.up.with.*Random.on.that.day.at.Teban.reLaxing.at.Pandan.

reservoir.from.night.tiLL.

dawn.

[So.yeah.Go.figure]

We.din'.managed.to.catch.the.sunrise.though,due.

to.certain.reasons.

Anyway,it.was.GREAT.

Meet.up.again.soon.'cause.im.missing.you.

2009-04-05T12:40:00.007+08:00

Yes.its time for me to update.
i was daunted by yesterday nightmare.
Here how it goes Like.
A girL whom i knew from friendster hate me so much that i was scared out of my wits.
She even said that i was fLirtatious.
Oh my God,that statement is absoLuteLy faLse.
EventuaLLy,my nightmare was due to yesterday happenings when i press 'esc' to aLomost aLL chatbox window except for three person.
So the connection is there.
i was LabeLed as arrogant.
Anyway it was just a dream.

My mood unfortunateLy may get infected by someone's behavior towards me.
And i am in a bad mood now.
=/

Sometimes,it aint even worth trying.

Certain peopLe doesn't worth the attention

and someone need not try so hard to grab the attention.

Right.

& Someone shouLd reaLLy stop over-reacting over such a triviaL matter.

its reaLLy is unnecessary.

'Cause Life is aLL about chiiLing.

2009-03-28T00:14:00.002+08:00

Here.are.some.of.the.remaining.photos.during.the.outings.with.sweethearts.

More.updates.on.my.Life...
when.i've.found.it.
*winks*

2009-03-22T00:55:00.003+08:00

So.here.is.a.short.update.about.my.day.
Even.when.my.keyboard.are.spoiLed,im.stiLL.here.typing.away.as.if.nothing.is.wrong.
See.how.i.am....*insert.a.suitabLe.word*
Anyway.head.out.to.Jp.with.Ponyoyo[oLdest.sis].and.mum.and.dad.
Was.being.treat.to.Swensens.

So.reaLLy.Lets.get.to.the.point.
in.this.few.course.of.Life,i've.Learnt.aLot.of.things.
i've.Learned.how.to.*dig.GoLds.from.empty.caves*.whiLe.acting.innocent.
i've.known.how.to.keep.the.darkest.secrets.without.spiLLing.the.beans.
i've.Learned.how.to.controL.my.emotions.without.being.too.sensitive.
i.know.how.to.differentiate[speLLcheck].between.the.jerks.and.the.Losers.
And.i.know.aLL.dogs.are.the.same.
i've.Learned.how.to.ignore.peopLe.
i've.Learnt.how.to.twist.story,sneaking.out.behind.backs.
i've.Learned.how.not.to.commit.the.sins.of.what.my.dearest.peopLe.had.done.
Ok.That.wasn't.reaLLy.today's.topic.
What.i.am.trying.to.say.is...
im.gLad.imma.good.girL.
Hah.
That.just.sLipped.out.deepest.apoLogies.
XD

Meet.up.again.soon.and.i.wiLL.teLL.you.whats.reaLLy.in.my.mind.
XP
*winks*

2009-03-20T10:54:00.002+08:00

pacar.gue.XPP

im.back.from/.Batam.trip.

And.i.miss.them.aLready.

[Nora,Ayu,Puteri,Miza,Hikmah]

Anyway,need.to.head.out.in.1.hour.time.

And.keyboard.are.spoiLed.

So.i.guess.i.wont.be.bLogging.much.

ALrite!

2009-03-09T21:32:00.004+08:00

So gotten aLL my resuLts back.
Here are my overaLL scores.
EngLish:F9
MaLay:A2
Maths:D7 [1 freakin' more mark to pass !]SHiTTAYE~
Science[Phy & Chem]:C5
Combined Humanities:A1
Art:B4

Gasp !Quite an improvement from Last year's.
Anyway,to my friends who din managed to ace their test,don't give up that easiLy and get disorientated.
i know you guys can do it.
So can SYAF.
Hehe.
ALrite,im outz.
WiLL get back to activeLy update and making this bLog aLive as soon as im back from 'vacation'.
Same goes to my friendster.
0.0*
Which is during the hoLidays.
And am reading TwiLight again
i miss Edward
thats why.
XD

2009-03-08T19:52:00.002+08:00

My mind is spinning,

my fLu is getting worse,

homeworks hasn't been done,

i hasn't eaten a thing since this morning.

Oh God,Let me survive !

2009-03-06T20:27:00.003+08:00

Heyy netizens.
Syaf woochy is back.
After tedious hours revising on my common test,i managed to pass Geography,Mothertongue,Chemistry but not EngLish.
Haa.
Apart from that,we din' receive back my SS,Maths,Physics and Art.
i passed Geography with seriousLy fLying coLours that couLd buiLd up a rainbow.
And mothertongue that is high tiLL it can touch the sky.
Fake.

Anyway,it's Syu's birthday tomorrow,so we decided to advance her ceLebration today.
Me and Naeemah shared money to buy her a MP3.
Era bought her a muffin which im sure taste heavenLy.
Siti Aisyah bought her socks but the reaL present wiLL not be presented tiLL the day we go to Batam-which is on the 14-17.
Aisha bought for her a cap which she then design it with her artistic skiLLs.
Niceee.
And Amira bought for her a neckLace which she wiLL buy for aLL of us too.
XD

After the mini ceLebration,me Aisha Aisyah and Naeemah headed to JP to windowshop and were actuaLLy pLaning to eat Durians.

But oh the change of pLan !

haha.

Postponed to MONDAY.

Anyway,went to IMM[and ate chicken rice at Bagus] for two consecutive days and i swear i wont go there again.
Too fatigue to waLk the Long journey to the West.
=.=""""

Whats more shouLd i update on?
More about my Life?
it's stiLL GREAT.
X)

2009-02-23T17:39:00.004+08:00

~Who says that its better to have Love and Lost i wish that i've never Love at aLL.

it's true how humans are not perfect.
Everyone has got their imperfection and fLaws,and yet when you think that someone is perfect,then maybe you just din' know that person weLL enough.
Every human beings has got their imperfection but if you think you are not one of the imperfect human,
And debate and counter my saying,which means
if you think you are perfect...
try waLking on water.
XP

Anyway,two of my subjects' teachers were absent from schooL and therefore very mendak.

Haha.

So far i've faiLed my Maths-for the mean time-but din receive back my SS and Chemistry.

Shiet,what a major improvement.

And i don't think i'LL be updating that often again,i need to chiLL out.

i need to man-hunt.

Yummy.XPP

Oh great,New Moon wiLL be in the theatres on November !

its ok,Edward won't be in the movie anyway,i mean,appearing.

i mean,read the book and you know what i meant.

2009-02-22T15:22:00.002+08:00

HEART-SHAPED ROTi PRATA ONE AND ONLY MADE BY SYAF WOOCHY.

i doughed it myseLf !CooLio.

HahahaXD

And i spotted a smiLey face on the bLock opposite's mine when i was busy binocuLar-ing someone.

Not.

Haha.

Anyway,whiLe pouring my excess water out yesterday,i reaLLy feLt the Loniness without a companion.And guess who i was thinking of at that time??

Go figure.

~i need a guy.

2009-02-22T11:48:00.008+08:00

What happened yesterday?

Accompanied oLdest sis to attend a taLk program about First Mums' Congress 2009 at RaffLes convention centre.
There's Zoe Tay + ivy Lee.
ivy Lee is 6 month pregnant but she Look as if she wasnt.i mean,she is so skinny.

Had a tiff with 'sLow' and i swear that was the Last straw and i don't wanna Look in the eye with him ever again.You think i shouLd change my attitude?What about yours huh?You think your attitude is so perfect that you can attract friends more?And bytheway mister,you Lose friends more than you can gain them so better Look inside your souL and change first and maybe i shaLL foLLow your Lead.But for now,you are just a number one jerk i have ever met.How to avoid you since i don't wanna pLay in this hypocrisy and i swear i can't when you keeps haunting my sis,hauting in my house.TaLking about bLinded Love.And it so saddened that my heart expLoded at the wrong time,but an embrace can reaLLy warm your coLd heart.Thanks Yongyeng.

Bought a bag which cost just within the budget that mummy gave me.
Anyway,eff off my sight faggot.

GOOD MORNiNG !

2009-02-19T20:13:00.001+08:00

KiLL me softLy peopLe....
Syaf dying of boredom...

2009-02-18T19:30:00.003+08:00

i don't know what to do with my Life.
Something inside my heart is Lacking but i cant muster up the courage to find it...
To know even what is it...

2009-02-18T18:33:00.004+08:00

Syu are getting ready to assist 2nd sis on choosing her new heLmet.
How absurd.
i mean,she put aside her most important aspect,homeworks,and went off to Bugis on a schooL night just for the sake of accompanying.
HeLL,i shouLd say yes more,then maybe i wouLd do something fooLish too.

Haha,ok,saying yes to accompany someone on a schooL night is not that absurd.

i am frickin' exaggerating.

But maybe i shouLd start the-saying-yes-to-every-questions next year...
And my Life wouLd be MORE interesting right?
Like saying yes to everything.....
Can you guys imagine that??
Anyway,i nearLy had a heartattack back on the paradesquare this morning when i was being informed that Siti din' went to schooL.
And Era.
You see,i am aLone without them.
Yes,see how LoneLy i am.
i cant survive in cLass without them,oh so meLodramatic.
Anyway,i've this 'exciting' event coming up this Saturday.
i wiLL teLL you what it is on the day itseLf aLrite?
Passed my Geography test,but din' score weLL enough to make me jump up and down and touch my forehead to the ceiLing.
FOREHEAD??!
Right..
One thing i hate in most of my 'friends'are they are such a racist bunch !
HeLL,frickin' get a straight mind and stop criticizing other cuLtures wiLL you?
Yes,i stiLL have got the hots for Edward.
ANYWAY,i've got the feeLings that someone doesnt favor me that much.
i mean,you wiLL know it when you suspect someone disLike you right?
Yeah,go figure.

i am effen bored so apoLogys for any unacceptabLe words.

if there's any,that is.

2009-02-18T15:43:00.001+08:00

Who is your TWILIGHT guy? Your Result: Edward You are attracted to the dark, sexy, sensitive types. You like the bad boys, and love adventure, and the unknown. Edward is your ideal guy because who wouldn't love a guy with model good looks, charm and a dangerous side?
Jacob
Tyler
Jasper
Emmett
Eric
Mike
http://www.gotoquiz.com/who_is_your_twilight_guy">Who is your TWILIGHT guy? http://www.gotoquiz.com/">Quiz Created on GoToQuiz

YES!EDWARD.....*hearts*

What is your True Fear? Your Result: Losing Someone You love affection and the people in your life more than anything. Your greatest fear is that one day someone you care about won't be there anymore. You are a very friendly and inviting person, who draws in a lot of friendships with your kind, considerate, and loyal nature. However, deep down you are slightly insecure and unsure of yourself. You couldn't deal with it if you didn't have one of your loved ones in your life anymore. You don't have too much to worry about though, because with a friend like you, no one will want to lose you either!
Being Alone
Death
Where Your life is Going
Looked down on
Commitment
Disappointment
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Ah yes.
Anyway,Syaf outz~
X)

2009-02-17T18:42:00.003+08:00

Today schooL went weLL,i mean great as in its normaL as in Like my normaL is great,so you get what im saying?
Except that Era was absent from schooL and Left me and Aisyah to stare into each other eyes during recess.
Haha,joke.
Thanks fer the chicken !
XD
Anyway,Syaf has become Syaf the bLack girL now,so i figure you know what i am trying to say.
Syaf,bLack skin,bLack hair.
Anyway,received my tests and i was frickin' shocked.
i managed to pass my Physics !
Oh my oh my,never in my Life...
And EngLish,im among the two person who has passed it.
And Aisyah..ofcourse,shes the Legend.
Hehe.
i want to study more..
and i meant reaLLy more...
as in MOOORRREEEEE...
and ofcourse the correct word is HARDER.
Anyway,i Like my mothertongue teacher which is better[in my opinion]than Last's year.
i am not comparing,just stating a fact.
i mean Last year's was ok too,tiLL i managed to pass it.
i need MORE homeworks to improvise my revision.
HeLL,what am i saying?
Ah,art..
What a drag......
Notes to Aisyah and Era:if by any chance when both of you are absent from schooL,do inform me !EspeciaLLy on Tuesday,Wednesday or Friday.
Haha.
i miss Nuriha !hahaha
i mean going out with you.
i mean going out with you and reminding you about my beLated birthday present.
XP
And anyway,my bag was being torn apart when i decided to wash it in the washing machine.
HeLL,such a frickin' Lazy *** i am,that what it does to you,Lazy destroys you.
And guess what mummy?
Dont worry i wont need money to repLace it,i wiLL just stitch it up,i reaLLy dont intend to waste your money.
i reaLLy dont,i am a reasonabLe daughter.
Right.

2009-02-15T01:27:00.005+08:00

Arh,fuck you upside down !
Hahaha.
Anyway,went to Vivo at around 2 pLus but was actuaLLy supposed to be there at 2.30.
Me,Syu and Nur went out of the house at 2.30.
Hehe.
The most memorabLe pLus traumatized part was when we were being chased by a dog !
FUCK !
i used to hate dogs,but now i reaLLy hate hate dogs.
Up to date,counting today,i've been chased by a dog for about three effen time.
Now teLL me how not to get traumatized.
Anyway,the dog was a GoLden retriever !
LuckiLy,the dog wasn't aiming for me,he was running towards Nuriha and Huda.
Haha !
Now take that !
Anyway,overaLL was fun,took some pics and i've had a reaLLy tough time upLoading it at friendster.
Bite this Lappy off.
Too fatigue,im going to eat.
i wanna gain some frickin' weight !

2009-02-13T21:34:00.002+08:00

So what did i do today that is 'memorabLe'?
Went to Aisyah's house,then headed straight to the saLon at around 7 pLus after returning home from her house at 5 pLus.
Era went back home after the first period which is fLag raising and by the Look at her Legs.
Ouch,that must reaLLy hurts?
Yeah.=/
Anyway,cut my hair and it doesnt Look any different.
Tomorrow gonna ceLebrate VaLentine's day with girLs since i've no Boy-s.
Nyahaha.
HAPPY ADVANCE VALENTiNE'S DAY !
HeheXDD

2009-02-12T17:01:00.004+08:00

isnt it funny how day-by-day

nothing changes

but when you Look back

EVERYTHiNGS DiFFERENT

So here i am again,Syaf,the bLonde girL.
Anyway,i passed my hair attire check and someone said because it was just 'cause of mere Luck.
WeLL,i guess it was partLy true as i din' redye my hair and i couLd feeL Lady Luck smiLing at me when i Lied to the teacher.
How ignorant.
Anyway,THANK GOD.
Maths has become tougher each frickin' day and i cant cope with it.
Syaf gives up.
Homeworks are catching up with my hectic scheduLe but somehow,i am too fatigue mentaLLy and physicaLLy to entertain them.
God bLess me.
And i need to effen change this skin to a fresh one ASAP,there're no frickin' dates !
Latest update:THURSDAY>12/02/2009

2009-02-11T18:03:00.005+08:00

Was caught for coLoured hair.
HeLL,ofcourse i shouLd be caught,my hair coLour is so striking.
Too bLonde,its not naturaL.
Anyway,was given a warning Letter,the coLour of the piece of note was striking too.
YeLLow.
A Warning Letter.
And my fringe was too Long?
Shit,i thought we couLd just pin it up..
What happen to the invention caLLed hairpins?
Ahh,burned a frickin doLLar just for spraying afew strands of hair.
Had Chemistry test for today's Lesson,i doubt that i wiLL pass it with fLying coLours.
But i wiLL be overjoy if i were to get atLeast a two digit for the test's score.

i am so stressed out.

i just cant seems to get the right ones.

ALL of it was just so pLain.

Either that,or,we just seems to Lack chemistry.

i've had enough of aLL this searching,and i am too tired to search for one now.

Eventhough my Life wouLd be meaningLess without the perfect bLogskin,i shaLL endure.

2009-02-08T21:35:00.004+08:00

Oh heLL,i've Lost track of today's date.
Anyway,am stiLL trying to keep up with updating my bLog reguLarLy pLus interestingLy.
i know how it feeLs Like when you're bLog-hopping to someone's page but the Latest update was Like 2 years ago.
Oh the horror !
Anyway,was haLf-way through my Art project when suddenLy my-get-bored-easiLy-attitude came.
it was sad how the physicaL appearance of this rectangLe thing managed to Lure my mind and therefore activate my brain to move my body infront of this rectangLe thing.-unnecessary
Which is ofcourse my Laptop.
Anyway,i doubt i wiLL pass my Art.
Or Physics.
Or Chemistry.
Or Maths
Or...
EngLish.
*gasps*
i mean,what's reaLLy the aim for having CA1?
To nonetheLess perk you up when you reaLise you have done way badLy for your test.
Hah.
Like Last year's resuLt couLdn't buck me up enough.
One thing that offence me is when even after severaL times teLLing peopLe to Link me,they stiLL din' do it.
i mean,whatthefuck,just effen Link me !
ANYWAY,probLem aside.
i has finished reading the TwiLight Saga,and onLy managed to controL my emotions for two books onLy.
Which is TwiLight and EcLipse,but i did cried watching the movie[TwiLight].
=X
Anyway,was feeLing emotionaL when reading New Moon and Breaking Dawn.
Oh the sadness.
Sorry,din intend to teLL you of how fragiLe emotionaL vuLnerabLe naive i am.
And speaking of resuLts,i couLdnt imagine why i wiLL not faiL my tests again?
i mean,the routine is the same.
My attitude?
i guess i was cLearLy a faiLure when i din' do my EngLish homeworks.
Am stiLL not doing it.
Anyway,i know i couLdnt get to the course that i dream of.
The answer is simpLe.
i din' take up a subject that they wanted.
Oh the pure dissapointment.
if onLy i couLd beLieve and reLy on fantasy,i wouLdnt stuck in this reaLity worLd.

2009-02-08T01:04:00.004+08:00

Someone toLd me to update my bLog everyday.
But,what shouLd i post for every frickin' day?
i mean,my days aLL went smoothLy with the same frickin' routine.
i don't want to hypnotize my audience into a compLete daze with my frickin' exciting everyday Life;which is schooL,home,sLeep,study.
You see,i guess my Life isn't that 'interesting' Like some peopLe who updates everyday.
Right.
Anyway,VaLentine's day is drawing nearer each day.
And as per usuaL,i don't have a date for that speciaL day where you reaLLy need to truLy express your genuine Love for your significant other.
The onLy day.
Anyhoo,going to spend with my girLfriends if i am reaLLy going to near hysterics if being Left aLone at home.
But theres actuaLLy someone in my mind that i wouLd Love for him to ask me out on a date.
i miss him.
AfteraLL,he stiLL owe me one.
i am currentLy cracking my empty skuLL for ideas to entertain me through the night.
My eyes are too heavy to continue reading my breaking dawn and my body is too numb to fiLL my stomach with proteins.
Don't get easiLy despise with the beautifuL facade.
Beauty is skin-deep.
And i've spent about severaL hours just to find myseLf a new fresh skin.
This was the best choice.
But it stiLL doesn't have the 'kicks'
And my money is draining out of me faster than you can say 'Edward CuLLen'.
Gahh,i reaLLy shouLd spent my time dieting and save myseLf some pocketmoney.
And what?

Become effen bony but managed to own a fat waLLet?
That wouLd be nice.
Syaf outz~

2009-02-05T19:18:00.002+08:00

BasicaLLy that's me when im in my freaking schooL uniform.

Too bad,you aint seeing me much in it.

UgLy?just impart it out Loud.

i aint even care a hoot.

Anyway,head home at around 4 pLus with the usuaL,as in La,Bu,Wa,Bi.

Babu babi.

Ok bad joke.

Anyway,i shouLd type furiousLy on this keyboard whiLe my time is ticking,oh,how precious is my time.

StiLL cLueLess with my Art.

FaiLed my Latest test as in maths and physics,the most hated subjects but managed to pass my Geography.

Like heLL,we din even do any test on Geog.

Anyway,improve aLot,but stiLL din' scored high enough,on my maths i mean.

Thank God its Friday tomorrow.

Ah,weekends,i can feeL it caLLing me,softLy,soothingLy to my ear.

FeeL the breeze baby !

i miss Sentosa bytheway.

Nope,definiteLy not,i was just joking.

Gosh,you aint even Laughing.

How worse can my jokes get?

Anyway,i vow to myseLf that i wiLL dedicate my precious time to just studying my LittLe ass off.

Right.

i effing want that course in PoLy.

i know you know but i am too embarrassed to say it out Loud to this uninvited audience.

Shit,you guys wiLL Laugh your big ass out if you knew what my ambition is.

Serious.

ANYWAY,im stiLL haLfway through breaking dawn,the twiLight saga book no. fourth series?

Yes,thats the one.

Am stiLL in Love with Edward.

i'd rather feLL in Love with a fantasy guy than a reaL Lifetime jerk.

No,heLL,i am not the kinda girL that anti-guy or anything.

Just the right one havent comes aLong,and,pLease bitches,this is exactLy not the right time to have a reLationship.

This phrase is dedicated to you know yourseLf.

Hahaha.

No offence intended.

No,i mean,do take offence.

Dont Let your heart open to simpLe opportunity that passed by and grabbed it without thinking.

i mean,they're aLL the same !

ReaLLyshiet.

i am not going to take a shoveL and shove it down his throat,cause i know this is not his fauLt.

Maybe yours.

i do care thats why i kept teLing you to be Like me !

No offence.

=DD

2009-01-29T21:34:00.004+08:00

Stop singing !!!
Argh,i just cant be bothered with art assignments and maLay.
Whatever.
Anyway,get weLL soon bfhdarLing.
Nyahah.
Ok,i am seriousLy BORED.
Syaf outz~
[* anyway,for the survey,its up to you guys to do it.i mean ofcourse i wont force you.Hehe.And the haram thingy ofcourse i was joking.Ok.Right.]
Chow~

2009-01-29T20:17:00.003+08:00

1. The person who tagged you:

Siti Nuriha bte Zakaria.XD

2. Your relationship with her/him:we are **t** from heLL.

3. Your 5 impressions of her/him:Sweet,pretty,funny,friendLy,not cute.cheh chehh.nyahaXD

4.The most memorable thing that he/she has done for you:

she bought for me a bear.Right.0.0*

5. The most memorable thing he/she has said to you:

Bff.gahaha.idk.heeXD

6. If he/she becomes your lover, things he/she has to improve on:

Dont be too jeaLous.whatever ehh Nur.

7. If he/she becomes your enemy, you will:

i wiLL?i wiLL ignore her for the rest of my Life.What eLse?haha

8. What is the thing you want to tell him/her now:

its been so Long since we Last went OUT together.

9. Your overall impression of him/her:

A great friend.=]

10. How do you think the person around you will feel about you:

A kind friend.hahaha !

11. The character you love about yourself is:

i am not too seLf-conscious.LoL.

12.The character you hate about yourself is:

EasiLy get bored.is that a character?LoL.& yurh,sLow...

13. The most ideal person you want to be:

i want to pursue a career as a ****** and married to a eurasian.Yes.

14. For people who cares and likes you, say something to them:

Thanks for caring and Liking me.hahaha.=]

15. Pass this quiz to 10 people to know how they feel about you:

1)Aisyah

2)Naeemah

3)Syuhaidah

4)Nuriha

5)Ceetee

6)Ninie

7)Huda

8)inshirah

9)era

10)Amira

16. Who is No.6 with?

hahaha,yeah..i know the answer.KhairuL izzuL shah.Right?Hehe.

17. No.9 male or female?

femaLe.

18.If No.7 & 1 get together, will it be a good thing?

As in together together?haha.Yes,it wouLd be sucha hassLe[??!]

19. What is No.2 studying about?

ermm,EngLish,Maths,TamiL,History,SosiaL Studies,Physics and Chemistry and Art.Yeahh !

20. When was the last time you chat with No.3?

Haa,just a moment ago and we aint even chatting.

21. What kind of music does No.8 like?

MostLy RnB.

22. Does No.10 have siblings?

Yes,four incLuding her.i think.haha.

23. Will you woo No.3?

Never.haha.

24. How about No.7?

Ah,can ah.haha.LoL.im straight.*grins*

25. Is No.4 single?

Yes,its been 9 months pLus i guess.Whatever.XP

26. What is the surname of No.5?

Surname?errrr,siti?ehhe.

27. What is the hobby of No.1?

She Loves to disturb peopLe and is very irritating !hahaha.Nyehhh~

28. Does No.5 & 9 get along well ?

ermm,idk.hehsXD

29. Where is No.2 studying at?

Shuqun sec.cLass 3A.haha.

30. Talk something about No.1.

Very irritating,Very cute.hahaha.Very friendLy,very taLkative.NyahahaXDD

31. Have you tried developing feelings for No.8?

Hahaha.NoLah,just as friends.weeeeee`hahaha

32. Where does No.9 stay?

WoodLands !

33. Are No.1 & 5 best friends?

i have no idea,but i know they know each other.Nyehee.

34. Does No.1 have pets?

No.

35. Is No.6 the sexiest person on earth ?

Sexiest !weeeeeee`

36. What is No.10 doing now?

TaLking to her boyfriend.haha.ok,sembarang je aku.idk actuaLLy.hehs.

Ok,i am too fatigue to post anything,anyway.

So whoever see their name here wiLL need to do this survey !

[Cause i am too Lazy to go around tagging you guys,and i know,some of them don't even own a bLog]

Anyway.

Hukumnye haram kaLau tk buat horr.~

Nyaha.

Anyway,wiLL be heading to ECP on Saturday with Aishah,

but Lets see if i wiLL canceL on the Last minute.

Hahaha.

Joke.

Take care`

i cant beLieve theres stiLL some peopLe who wouLd sing karoake at this hours..

Even worse,some at 11 pm !

Argh~

Seeya..

EDWARD !

i MiSS EDWARD !

NyehXP

2009-01-23T15:50:00.009+08:00

[ S R N i G T i A F E A R]

if you are cLever enough,you shouLd know how to scrambLe this aLphabets into four words.

But,too bad,neither me,La,Bi nor Aisha knows how to scrambLe this words.

if you has had a sLightest idea what it is,teLL me ok?

HeeXD

Anyway,had CNY ceLebration today,but,reaLLy,we werent REALLY ceLebrating.

i mean,what wouLd be the first thing that wiLL pop in your head if i say ceLebration?

Party,concert etc etc.

Guess what we did for A ceLebration?

We did quizzes !

EventuaLLy my group consisting of six students managed to get highest but with a draw to Muthu's group and Syaf made our group to get the second pLace when she pLayed scissors paper stone and Lose.

=.="""""

Anyway,won a cow.

We din' even received a goodybag.

Yeah.

Head off to Jurong West to get eyebrow threading.

Encountered with a crazy uncLe in the bus from Jurong West to Jurong east.

He sat next to me and kept taLking about God and repentance.

it aLL started when he asked me whether im schooLing or busy in Love.

And shit-omg-i-shouLdnt-have -repLied-him-but-i-did-anyway and that was it.

i shouLd have just said "sorry,i dont speak maLay"

Right.

Crazy sakkk.

Going to town tomorrow with indah.

Yes,anyone wanna tag aLong?FeeL free,cause i doubt that it wiLL be very exciting if there were onLy to be the two of us.

Anyway,

BU OUTZ~

2009-01-22T00:23:00.002+08:00

Ok,back by popuLar demand [LoL] im here to

update you guys about my day in schooL.

Our schooL Let us out haLf day as the 'O' LeveL's

students did weLL on their resuLts.

Thanks.

Next wiLL be my turn.

Another two years ofcourse.

So head out of cLass at 10.00 a.m.

PLanned to waLked out straight to the schooL gate but somehow the gurgLing grumbLing

giggLing[?!] sounds coming from my stomach forced me to sit down and have a kitkat.

LoL.

i mean,stayback to eat chicken !

Then somehow,the unexpected thing happened.

Me,Syu,Mira,Naemah and La[??] bonded over bottLes of appLe aLoe Vera.

LoL.

i mean,the unexpected thing was that i simpLy wasted my precious hours gossiping.

Haha.Joke.it was great Lahh,amaLkan sLaLu.weeeeeeee`

Finished up aLL my homework at the Last minute but i stiLL din managed to compLete the maths

question.

im so Lame.

Sorry

im hungry now.

Yes,its 12.29 a.m.

im gonna eat rice tonight.

Not that i wiLL get any fatter.

Not that i wouLdnt get any fatter.

Not that i wouLdnt want to get any fatter.

Ahh,anyway,my height shrunk by a centimetre and my weight,weLL,stiLL not acceptabLe.

Ahh,shuddup...

Syaf Woochy Benett vampire zombie outz ~

HeeX)

2009-01-18T13:53:00.005+08:00

i miss my hair.Not the coLour,but,the Length.As you guys most probabLy know,i've ,aLready cut it.

AtLeast haLf of it.NyahahaXP

Sorry if i scares you,but,i might probabLy Look Like this when i am 70 years oLd.

i mean with the bLack teeth and no eyebrows.

0.0*

Ah,niwae,

Bought fLight of fancy yesterday./

Was aiming for Mac foundation,but,

Arghh,money is so constraint.

i cant make it.

Syaf gave up:

with her Life,

studies,

money

and herseLf.

Gonna be going to the beach again on Chinese New year.

Great.

im bLack.

Hairi asked me to tag aLong yesterday to the pooL or the beach,but,next time perhaps.

My tanLines are stiLL showing.

And my neighbour toLd me that i've become darker.

Great.

2009-01-16T18:18:00.002+08:00

Dont ask why her face is Like that.NyahaXP

Promise yourseLf to be so strong that nothing can disturb your peace of mind.

Look at the sunny side of everything and make your optimism come true.

Think onLy of the best,work onLy for the best,and expect onLy the best.

Forget the mistake of the past and press on to the greater achievements of the future.

Give so much time to the improvement of yourseLf that you have no time to criticize others.

Live in the faith that the whoLe worLd is on your side so Long as you are true to the best of you !

2009-01-15T21:09:00.005+08:00

it's time for me to update on my daiLy routine at schooL for this week.

As i said,the sec 3 went to their camping farm and the Leftover-who doesnt want to go-was Left isoLated at cLass 3/3.

We aint doin' anything interesting but make ourseLves busy by putting our head on the tabLes.

i guessed that was the reason why many peopLe din' came to schooL today.

But aLas,my free time was spent reading TwiLight and now,haLfway through New Moon.

Yes,next shouLd be EcLipse foLLowed by Breaking Dawn.

But rumour has it that D doesnt own breaking dawn,so how am i supposed to continue reading the sequeL??!

Arghh !i am reaLLy in Love with Edward.

Sheesh.

i know im outdated and shit and sorry if i've ever insuLted him infront of anyone,but if you reaLLy Look into his character in the movie or books,i swear you wiLL Look through his appearance and straight to his heart.

He is a reaL sweetie.

And its pretty disturbing in the fantasy of myths and romance where,compared to our Life,pLainLy ordinary.

it is breaking my heart to be reading the Last chapter of the book.

i am totaLLy enchanted by the fictionaL characters.

Saddened.

Oh yes,the cLass was prinstine and quiet without someone.

jeng jeng jeng.

HopefuLLy you guys are enjoying the camp.

The books are way better than the movie.

i mean,why doesnt the movie foLLows the story Line of the book?

it was compLeteLy irreLevant to twist the story.

But stiLL,i cant wait for New Moon to be reLease in the theatre soon.

i prefer Edward than Jacob.

Hmph.

Oh Syaf,get a GRiP.

2009-01-11T12:56:00.004+08:00

it doesnt matter anymore

i guess things happen for a reason

tears eventuaLLy fade and one day everything wiLL be exactLy how it's supposed to be

moving on is a process & you have to promise that you're are reaLLy reLLy ready to Let go.

Never regret anything becuse at one time...

it was exactLy what you wanted.

ReaLize whats important in your Life

what you can Live with

but more importantLy what you cant Live without.

2009-01-11T11:40:00.004+08:00

A very GOOD morning humans !

So Lets start story teLLing about yesterday before the events fLush down my mind.

Jeng Jeng Jeng...

Woke up at 7 as instructed by 2nd sis but it was aLL just a faLsity.

End up waking at 8 instead and therefore she wasted my one hour of BEAUTY sLeep.

Met up with ShaLam at SiLoso cause he isnt patience enough to wait for us at Harbourfront.

After dreaming of something wonderfuL,Nur decided to come down.

The events was caLLed i dont know,safra something sport whatever.

ShaLam ended up as the top 5 finaList for the Hunks and Babes contest.

but he din managed to win coz Lacks of confidence.

if onLy he has 100% confidence,he couLd have win the tittLe hands down.

LoL

But seriousLy,he was the hottest dude there.i mean the ABS.8 pac.

And the babes.gosh.

The babes was putting the REAL Singapore babes to a shame..

Okay,out of idea.Heres the pic:

We were spotted !But the website have not upLoad our picture yet.Soon.
This was a fouL move and Syu ended up with one point!

i won !Syu won for the first round.But i won on the 2nd round.Hee.

We pLayed frisbee in the water.And when the disc went wayy into the sea,guess whos the hero?Me !

Yes.UgLy.Hehe.

And if you want more pics and video,hop on to Syu's bLog.Jyeah.Syaf outz~XDD

2009-01-08T21:09:00.006+08:00

She Loves to stood peopLe up.FoLLowed by Nuriha.Hahaha!=.="""""""""

im confuse whether i am enjoying schooL or eitherwise.
i mean,i've made new friends and the subjects were great except for Maths,engLish,Chemistry and Physics and MaLay.

Haha.

So,was virtuaLLy forced to go to Sec 3 camp again but LuckiLy or was it unLuckiLy,aLL the retained students were not aLLowed to experience camping again.

This years camp wiLL be heLd at Dairy farm or vision farmwhatever.

Hahaha.

And they've got bed !

So unfair,i mean,Last year we were make to sLeep at wooden pLanks.

Hmmm.

The truth is,i genuineLy wanted to go but the hope was crushed by the Lady in pink.

You know i know shuqunites know.

Haha.

THANKS GOD iTS ALREADY THURSDAY !

Cant wait for Geography Lesson tomorrow.

The reason is because i LOVE it when Ms Chin teaches us.

Not.

Nono,its because theres Aisyah.

Hahaha!

Ogayyy,

So yeahh,Saturday !

SiLoso baby !

Weeeeeeee`

2009-01-04T18:11:00.002+08:00

Beware bitches !

i'LL turn into this nasty monster once i gets reaLLy mad,

instead of turning into a big green monster

HuLk.

Scared huh?

Then run away hussy./prat

Shoo. !

Don't poLLute my sight.

Muahahahah!
*eviL Laugh*

Ok,pssst.

i don't think i Looked that scary.

Anywaayyyyyyyyyy................................

2009-01-02T23:17:00.003+08:00

i am too weary to post a Long Long winded post.
So i may just cut out the irreLevant detaiLs.
First of aLL,the first day of schooL has totaLLy ruin my Leisure time with my friends.
And,i supposed there is a no need for 'them' to separate Syu and me.
But heLL,is she going to transfer to my cLass,'cause she can't cope with the geniuses.
Yes,i frickin' miss Huda,inshirah,Hidayah,Syahira,Hanz and probabLy the whoLe 3E08 mothertongue cLass.=/
i miss MY 3A !!
i was feeLing dejected.
Guess what i did when it was recess time?
Yes brainiac,go figure.
i am so destroyed.
After a bLeary day at schooL[T.G.I.F]i went off to Sentosa.
Yes,Fee HurLey birthday !
Weeeeeeee`
aku da wish kan?
haha
it was fun,yes it reaLLy is.
Like i said,we shouLd spend more time at the beach.
PLayed with frisbee instead of soccer.
And heLL,i am too fatigue to post what i've been composing.
But oh weLL,
Syaf outz~

2009-01-01T15:50:00.004+08:00

Happy New Year hunnies !

So Let me brief you about how i spent my new year eve.

FirstLy,went to Marina with Syu and Faz and cLans.

Brought a jeans for myseLf.Nyaha.

Stayed there tiLL 9.45pm then i gotta bounce.

Aimed straight to Pasir Ris to D'marquee.

Was quite Lost as i cant find ika or indah anywhere,just feLt Like ditching them.

PLus i was sick as heLL !

But i gotta dance so you know.

The pLace was FULL of HUMANS !

To get inside,we gotta go through a security check.

And heLL the queue was frickin' Long !

And thats what made me ika and Nutt and some guys spent our countdown.

i mean just the counting down outside;whiLe queuing.

it was a BLAST !

After the stroke of midnight,eventuaLLy the music raved up.

Sooner or Later,atLast,we got our LittLe butts into the music.

it was fun as heLL !

Saw HOT guys;who couLd dance.,
Hmmm..
Was jeaLous when Nutt was dancing with this Hot guy you know the rubbing your dick to your pussy type of dancing?
Yeah,thats the one.
Jeng jeng jeng.

if onLy the rangers couLd join me that time,i swear it gonna be great too.

Too bad i cant spy on Hafiz,i dont even recognize him ah Nur.

NyahaXD

So Headed home at around 1 + but heLL the Last bus and train were way before 1.

i was aLone.

Stranded.

ALone.

Picture a girL wearing a short skirt whiLe waLking at the curb whiLe Looking aimLessLy everywhere.

i Looked Like a baby prostitute searching for her sugardaddy.

LoL.

i was scared.

i regret for Leaving at 1,shouLd have just home-d at 3 right?

i took a cab home anyway.

Gahh.

& Shit,its hard to find a cab at Pasir Ris !

So bLah bLah.

Cab-ed.

Daddy's money

hehe.

weeeeeeeeee`

Ahhh,party up aLL night~

Oh shiet,tomorrow is the day where the routine start.

The study routine.

SCHOOL.

But oh weLL.

Gonna ceLebrate Fee's birthday tomorrow.

HAPPY ADVANCED BiRTHDAY FATiHAH !

XDD

2008-12-31T12:58:00.002+08:00

Happy New Year DarLings.

So what is your new year resoLution?

Heres mine:

-Pass ALL my exams[if God's wiLLing]

-Brush my teeth twice a day.

-Save up money.

-New handphone.

-Be more friendLy/kind/caring.

-Have a hot bod.

-Have a HOT hot rich taLL funny boyfriend.Not.

-Grow taLLer.

-Eat more !

-Do something about my hair.

WeLL,most of it is Like a wishList.

So bLearghs

Gotta bounce !

Party up aLL night !

weeeeeeeee`

2008-12-28T22:08:00.004+08:00

Yesterday went to Hougang,accompanied 2nd sis to sLeepover + drink at Mickey's aunt's house.
Yeahh.
ALmost aLL the famiLy members drank Bourbon coke.
Mickey's uncLe bought 12 Bourbon bottLes !
Except for me and the kids,the aduLts drank those aLcohoL tiLL their heart was content.
Mickey drank and smoke infront of her parent,i mean,how cooL[?].
Not.
OveraLL,it was quite fun.
Bachin siak aku biLe baLek.
its been 24 hours since i had a proper bath.
HeeXD

xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

When you've found that speciaL someone,

you thought your Life was perfect and he is your dream comes true.

Eventhough there are miLLion of peopLe around,

you feLt as if the worLd beLong to you and him.

ALone.

Every singLe day,

memories kept fLashing in your Love mind.

SmiLing,

Laughing,

to yourseLves.

Missing and experiencing heartache whenever a day goes by without him by your side.

You heLd your head up high,

Looking straight,

obLivious to guys around you even the hotter ones

cause you've got him and theres not a thing more that you wish for.

The worLd seems to be a more beautifuL pLace to Live in and your eyes onLy got for him.

Those times when you are together

whispering sweet nothings

hoLding hands

a kiss on the cheek

a hug that you wish Last forever

You pray for this to Last forever

and ever.

You dream of him

aLmost every night,wishing that this sweet fairytaLe not to end so soon.

And when things gets tough

you and him overcome the obstacLes together

not even the sLightest intention to rust the reLationship.

You sacrifice your time

money

and pride

to make him happy.

'Cause you don't want nobody eLse

you just wanna be with him

Everytime when you Look in his eyes

you see something

insecurity.

when aLL aLong you tried to make it right

keep the reLationship going strong and Loving him faithfuLLy.

'cause if he ever Leave you

you'd be Lost,you'd be going crazy

He's the onLy one who compLetes you.

He is the one who makes you whoLe

You gave him trust and the most fragiLe thing you own

your heart.

And thats how you feeL when you are in Love,

tiLL someone comes aLong,

i wiLL be experiencing the same

oLd

thing.

The same feeLing,the same words.

i Love you.

Not that i've got anyone to Love.

Nyehhh.

Ayam berkokok pagi hari

kLau ade mase kite jmpe Lagi !

2008-12-26T18:32:00.002+08:00

i just reaLised that i own smaLL eyes.
Look at the nose.Refer to the upcoming pic of Toupee.Do compare the nose.Wooops,cant be compared,there are no difference !Nyaha.

Toupee !

Just gotten home from ICA buiLding with Syu.

i forced her into foLLowing me and she kept compLaining that i was wasting her time.

Like heLL i was wasting her time !

Singaporeans were not a considerate bunch.

Witnessed a poor grandma hoLding the MRT poLe for dear Life,but yet,there were not even a singLe souL wiLLing to give up their seat,even those priority seats !

And whiLe standing [since no one was wiLLing to sacrifice their seat for me] Leaning against the gLass pane[?]a crazy guy asked me,how many stops before Jurong East interchange.

After giving him some akward hand gestures,i pointed my middLe[it is the Longest finger,right?Nyaha.Joke,guys !] finger at the MRT map.He Looked at me with a seriousLy-irritating-mintak-kene-sepak-bLur face.Sighing a huge breath,i gLanced at the map and do a mentaL caLcuLation to Jurong East.Suckass.

How couLd there be any dummy in Singapore !

WhiLe accompanying Syu to eat her Lunch,i snapped pics of myseLf.

SuddenLy an uncLe decided to Lend a hand and take pics of me

and what?run away with the camera?

Nyaha`

And after waiting severaL years for my phone to be repaired,the technician[?]decLared that my phone can be of no use,it can be thrown away.

SEDEH baby !

Anyway,my waLLet is thick as ever !

Nyeehee !

Tomorrow sistas gonna thon outside.

Gahhh.

When i wanna thon,tkbLeh,when i tknk thon,boLeh.Apenie ehh **** ehh..

LoL

So destroying me.

HOLiDAYS ARE SO DESTROYED.

How time fLy so fast.

One more week for schooL to be reopen and then the hoLiday joys wiLL come to an end.

*Wipe tears*

My engLish is stiLL not improving....................

Another year Learning the same syLLabLes,new cLassmates,new year.

Same teaching.

*snores*

2008-12-23T23:56:00.002+08:00

i couLd pass for a Chinese*cough*except for the dark skin.XP
You've got comment?'cause i don't.

Snapped at Toa Payoh,the cycList is so cute.

i mean,he is so cute to put a P pLate on his bicycLe.

FaLL

I gave you all you desired

All that you needed

Boy, I provided

I let you into my head

Into my bed

And that's a privilege

I had you back at the answers

You took the dollars

I took the chances

Defended, battled and fought

Cuz I really tought you loved me

I don't know where to start or where to stop

No, but I know I am done

I've had enough

[chorus]

So fall out of my hands

Out of my heart

And when you hit the ground

you'll be sorry that I'm not around

I will watch you

And you fall out of your mind

Out of your fantasy

When you hit the wall

Think of me

I'll be on the top just watching you fall

You said that you were the strong one

I was the girl

And I was the young one

I kept your feet on the ground

My head in the rounds I had you

You told me you were so grateful

I was with you

And I was so faithful

Stood by in all that you said

And all that you did

I Loved you

I don't know how to act or what to say

But I know I am good

I'll be okay

[chorus]

2008-12-23T00:57:00.002+08:00

Happy birthday to me again.

Weeeeeeeee`

The second cake to be eaten by me.

Thanks to Fat for pLanning to go to Sentosa and the present.

My Legs are cramping now,and bListers are aLL over my feet.

i've got tan Lines.

it was a bLast,great.

We shouLd go to the beach often,it is so reLaxing.

PLayed baLLs,fLour,catching.Right.

And more.

We had fun.

Catch up with the oLd times with Sri,and i know her dirty LittLe secret.

NyeeheeXP

So,im tired.

Thanks for reading.

Do tag.

2008-12-21T23:10:00.004+08:00

First of aLL,i am going to wish myseLf a very sweet happy birthday.
Yes,today is my birthday/.
Dummy.

Saturday
-Went out with NuruL indah pLus ika.
Headed to EspLanade,yeahh yeahh,whatever.
Met up with her friends.
FaLL hard/Love at first sight with ****.
*drooL*
And thats was partLy the reason why ika + me head to Jurong west with them except for indah,she head home first.
At Last,i doesnt gain anything by the trip,not even his frickin' phone number.
Gahaha,i thought we hit it off weLL.
Nyaha.
Lose 11 bucks for a taxi at 2 a.m.
its weird how we just gotten to know each other for a coupLe of hours but its Like we are Long Lost friends.
*smiLe*
Guys.
They are sucha jerks.
SUCH A JERKS.

Today,ceLebrate my birthday at home,with abg Shah + Faz + cousins + famiLy
Yes,a cake.
BLah
Tired aLd siaaa
hahaha
*snores*

& yeahh,tomorrow wiLL be heading to Sentosa.
Weeeeeeee`
XD

im soo effen tired.ProbabLy because of Lacks of sLeep.
o(0.0)ozzzzZZZZ

2008-12-14T21:45:00.002+08:00

JUST WHEN YOU THiNK THiNGS CAN'T GET ANY WORSE,
THEY DO.
i'VE LEARNED THAT LiFE iS LiKE AN HOURGLASS.
SOONER OR LATER,
EVERYTHiNG HiT ROCK BOTTOM.
ALL YOU HAVE TO DO iS BE PATiENT AND WAiT FOR SOMEONE TO TURN EVRYTHiNG BACK AROUND.

Gahh`
somehow i don't quite agree with this quote.
i mean,Like,why the heLL makes you think that someone need to turn yourseLf around.
You,Like,can't do it yourseLf?
Nyaha nyaha~
XD

2008-12-13T16:19:00.004+08:00

Ok,obviousLy,i am a fat-ass Liar. Even the LittLe white Lies are considered a Lie,right?

Sure.

i am so frickin' hungry right now i couLd faint anytime sooon.

i mean,a weLL pLanned saturday.

ahh,you wont get what i mean.

i mean,i has made pLans with someone today,but i end up ditching him for i am Lazy to go out.

Right.

And i promised someone that we wiLL meet up next week.

Shit,do i reaLLy mean it?

HeLL no !

wooooooooo~

Went out yesterday[i've toLd you]

it was a bLast !

i mean,i din notice that guys can reaLLy crack you up.

Hehs

And Afi asked whether i am a mix.

Like heLL,you wLdnt wanna noe the reason why he thought im mixed with chinese.

OnLy managed to take pics with ALep.

HAhahaha

SeLenge~

2008-12-12T01:22:00.003+08:00

Ouch !
its Like this room is infested with mosquitoes !Very hungry ones !
im scratching aLL over.
No,no need for you to imagine that Jenny.
Jenny who?
Went to Jp or the extended JP or Boon Lay exchange,whateber,was pLanning to dine out at Swenson,but heLL no,the restaurant were stiLL not open for business.
Right.
So head to Siam Kitchen.
Bro-in-Law + Big sis and 3rd sis.God,i sound as if we were in the drama series,ten brothers?Yes,thats the one.
i aLmost cried from the Last episode.Sobs.
So the manager is a cuckoo.
weeeeeeee`
And Bro ALi[we said that name just to piss him off,but it din work,so..nevermind.Like Bro NuruL?it was to piss off abg Shah,except ofcourse,we hadnt reaLLy said it infront of him]just gotten his pay.
So you know what im saying?
He treat us !
TerimakasihabgRamLi.
XD
And to the movies.
Body of Lies.NC16.Hehe.abeh bange?[PuL's]
ReaLLy exciting movie if you're the one that Like action-packed?adventure?
Yes,thats the movie for you !
About terrorism or something,just when i get the fuLL picture,the story ended !GRRRREEAAt... it was a kinda sad movie.Not sad sad dummy.Just sad disturbing Like.You know what im saying?
gahh !
Fuck it mosquitoes !
ReaLity back.
Going on a date with the pussy i mean pushy guy with the phone?tomorrow.
But i wouLdnt caLL it a date,as we wont be dining out in some fancy restaurant.
Right?
TotaLLy.
FoLLowed by a date with another guy.
Hey,its the best i can do you know if you know the date doesn't go weLL.
A nice excuse this is,meeting up with a friend,rather then my auntie died or something Like that. Pffffft`
So if you found it rather disturbing,repLace the word 'date' to meeting up.
its the Least i can do for you guys not to LabeL me as a Hoochie.=/
Right,i have no frickin' idea what to write anymore,dearest,now its time for you to tag !
hehe.kiss kiss.
idk but i feLt the bottom of my stomach churning wen i saw u.its Like im missing ur jokes?And it feLt so surreaL?Like?What the F !
hahaha
weeeeeeeee`
And stiLL missing ShahriL.Oh my fuck.He has broken up with his gaL,thats wat i tink.mayb.So Get back to me prat !
grrr`
yeLah2,RiNDU BFH pon LAhh
taahaa !
TUKiMi !

2008-12-10T22:21:00.003+08:00

Good evening darLings !
Whoever reading or who just happens to hop here
whatever~
nyaha nyaha`

SLept in tiLL 11 a.m,its Like so not me `cause i am usuaLLy an earLy bird.
Right.
Must be because of texting a particuLar guy and heLL was he pushy.
DesperateLy or in another word was BEGging to taLk on the phone with me.
Like heLL,i wont taLk on the phone with a dude unLess i Like the DUDE.
Wait,i wont even taLk to you even if i even Like you.tahha
yeLah Syaf..bedek.
Duuuuuuuuur.
its just that,taLking on the phone is boring.
Shit,how i hated it especiaLLy when darLing 2nd sis was taLking on the phone with abg Shah.
i reaLLy hated THEM for disturbing my beauty sLeep.
And what a coincidence for 2nd sis boifee to have his birthday a day before mine's and kakti's !
And stiLL remember that i used to date a guy who has the same birthday as me.
Like shiet,we are so not compatibLe.
Cause they say dont choose a guy that has the same horoscope as you !
Nyaha nyaha~
And pLease stop asking me what im gonna do for my birthday,cause i've no frickin' idea.
Sure,pLan for me you whiny bitch.
*giggLes*
i wonder why peeps doesnt LabeL me as a Lesbian or something as it are going to be 2 years since i Last attached with a guy.
That guy is so destroyed.
Ok,i know why.
How obvious,i've never been with a girL.
hahaha.ok.Syaf taLking crap.piesspiess..0.0*
i mean,weLL,i am interested with/in/to guys but i reaLLy was hoping that i couLd be singLe tiLL,Lets say,tiLL i am getting married.
Why?
i want to Lay off the things you do with your spouse,
you know what im saying
Right.Sure you are.
HeeXD
i am reaLLy hoping for it.
SeriousLy cant wait for the effen schooL to reopen,its Like im bored to death.
And i swear i wont pick a random dude just to meet up.
dont be pathetic,whats wrong with staying at home?
Right.
After...
Shiet,i was pLanning to type something but it suddenLy sLipped off my effen mind.
Strewth !
Went to repair my-soon-to-be handphone for the second time and it cost me a frickin' 60 bucks.
wah wahh,he want to cheat me[the Last time,he said 80]
ALas
Dont LabeL me for anything that i post in here.
im a good girL.
heheXD
"Suke bace..suke,suke,suke baby
Laughing,Laughing !" <<<that was just an inside jokes.
May the force be with you.

2008-11-27T19:00:00.003+08:00

So i've just reaLized that if you want to work in a tattoo parLor/shop you are required to have tattoos.Right.
BLearghzz....
Anyway,wiLL anyone give me an advance birthday present !
Like heLL
i need them money...
PLease give me money
i need them to repair my frickin' handphone.

i NEED TO GET FUCKiNG EiGHTY BUCKS TO FUCKiNG REPAiR MY FUCKiNG HANDPHONE !

thanks God theres Crunchie to caLm me down or i wiLL definiteLy murder someone tonight !
*eviL Laugh*

2008-11-26T17:16:00.004+08:00

Booyaka !
weeeeeeee`

So yesterday,around mid-afternoon suddenLy reaLized that the cLass BBQ was being heLd.
After contacting some peeps,we have to reach Bedok at 3?
And it was aLready 1 pLus i think.
So the reason wasnt because of the timing ofcourse,but a coupLe of other reasonabLe reasons.
Right.
Sure.

AfteraLL i've got a pLan.
Niway head out at 4.30 eventhough pLanned to meet at 3.30[i was aLready READY]Right.So waited for Mizi[i feLL asLeep].
TotaLLy unexpected when i first saw him.
The Last time was when i was Like 12?And i thought he was wayy hot[at that time]
Rode on his bike[my first time,weLL,partLy]
it was bLack in coLour so was i,and the heLmet was in bLack too.
So it was reaLLy cooL.
i don't want to ride another bike ever again.
it wiLL effen bore me to death !
Sure.
And
i paid for my OWN effen Lunch !
it sucks.
TotaLLy not an ideaL first date,[not to go dutch anyway]he is so destroyed.
Saw bitch from schoLL,HeLL she doesnt even aknowLedged me,a smiLe the Least?
Not.
Frickin' surprised`
After that hang out around Jurong West,pLus saw Syafiq !
Hang out with them for awhiLe,right.
Head home at 6.30 !!
He need to get to work,too unexpected.
PLease,i don't wanna go on another date,with anyone,anywho.never !
i am so effen destroyed !
And the thing is,i hate it when a guy imitates my taLk.
Yes,i sometimes sounded whiny and stuff,but that doesnt give them the green Light to make fun of me.
TotaLLy not funny and they receive a roLL on the eye from me.
Fcuk off.
nyeh nyeh
weeee`
teeheeXD

Reached home?Guess what?
FamiLy ordered Mac without me.
They din' even bother to order for me !
Effen sad.

And heLL,i shouLd reaLLy change my skin
bLog skin you dummy !
HAha
Not that im in Love or anything.
Grrrr`

SuddenLy i reaLLy effen miss ShahriL.
My best-friend?
Right.
The Last time i contacted with him was Like Dec07.
How couLd he ditch his friend just cause` he got a girLfriend.
Frickin' ..
Haha,ok shuddup

And where the heLL is BFH?
i miss her.
Not !
HAhaha
HeLL-o,i wouLdnt even write someone's name if i din' miss them.
Sure.

OikOik`
ok,i copied someone.

Effen destroyed

2008-11-22T15:33:00.002+08:00

i was stressed out and therefore the messy hair.

0.0*

i am trying my new handphone.

Right.

Sure.

i am so destroyed.

Was meant for Mimie,but i use it for my own use anyway.

Hah.

Ta-daa !

The fansign !

AtLast.

Managed to create a 'creative' fansign for Mysuicide.

it's my pLeasure to do fansign for peopLe.

Tahaha !

Prompt me if you want one.

2008-11-22T02:45:00.002+08:00

What an effen exhausting day !
As i am too fatigue to post aLL the detaiLs,Let me post it on point form.
Right.
Sure.

FoLLowed Syu meet up with Apiz.
PLayed soccer.See,we were excersizing.
At 5 pLus,we went to meet up Faz + Hidzir + Troy.
Tried the skateboard.Damn i Love it.
Had a few bruises here and there.
Lost my bangLe.
Two caring strangers asked what i was Looking for when they saw me searching high and Low for the bangLe on the grass.Thanks for being so concern anyway.Hee.
Had a reaLLy bad faLL.Broke my ass.Not Like i have any ass to be broken.
My achin' ass.
Caring peopLe was concern if i was ok.
Awww..
Hidzir..
Homed
Tahaha.Cute.
Ok.Confused?
Jeng jeng jeng...

2008-11-20T22:02:00.002+08:00

i reaLLy don't care what you said.
it doesnt even bother me.
So just get Lost and stoop back to your Low Life.
Strewth.
Just accept me for who i am.
Cant he take up a joke?
Damn.
Damn it.
So not in the mood.
Syaf sad.
Not.
HeLL,its not me,its him.

='/

2008-11-20T21:34:00.002+08:00

i ponder from time to time LateLy.
Who or what type of characters do i want in a companion?
Was it his sense of humour?
or his good Looks?
i was bLinded by this,whiLe chatting with a guy,he was cute though.
We promise to keep in touch.
i din even detect his sense of humour.
Oh,i am so destroyed,what have i done?
The Last few reLationships,i was Left stranded aLone.
They dumped me,for i was wrong to chose a guy just for his Looks.
My funny bone were apparentLy not tickLe.
But,i hate a guy who feLt inferior to himseLf.
Wake up !

He kept my heart beating fast,which i've forgo that feeLing .

2008-11-19T15:52:00.003+08:00

Remember him?
Right.Sure.

it's raining,again,afteraLL its the monsoon season right?
Damn,i hate November + December eventhough December is my birthday,i stiLL hate it if i cant ceLebrate it outdoor.
Not that i know anybody gonna make me a surprise party or anything.
Gosh,i am so destroyed.
Reminiscing through the past memories,my birthday ceLebration was taken indoor,as we can't neither go to the beach nor to Escape theme park.
This rain are destroying me.
HeLL.
i shouLd stop saying heLL,Look the thing is,they destroys me,the rain.
i feLt so coLd nearLy everyday i wouLd catch a fLu.
Damn.
Not that i have any idea how to catch it.

i am stuck at home again.
Not because of this effen rain,my sociaL caLenders are empty.

Nuriha,the BFH,is stiLL at Johor,i think.
*Shrugs*

TaLking about MaLaysia,i miss going there,for weddings,shopping etc etc.
i miss going to Seremban and meet aLL the kampong's viLLagers.
AfteraLL i am from MaLaysia,weLL not me exactLy,but its my dad.
it is reaLLy a pLeasure going there cause Singapore's beauty reaLLy made them awe-struck !
HAHAHA.sorry,i was just puLLing your Leg.
Going there either by train,bus or van,it was a wonderfuL journey.
When can i step my foot there again?
i wanna get out of Singapore for a getaway.
Few days back,our famiLy,mostLy my sister and me made a ridicuLous idea.
We asked our mom if we can move to MaLaysia!?
Great,we can,actuaLLy,and i wouLd LOVE to stay there.
*Laughs*
But due to certain measures,damn,this is absoLuteLy a-out-of-your-mind-idea.
So we stick to staying here in Singapore.
ROFL.

i was aiming for this guy in friendster.
*shrugs*
But he doesnt seems to notice me.
Great.
ALL and aLL,i don't reaLLy care,cause if i were meant to have a guy,i shouLdn't make a move at aLL,he can come by himseLf.
i aLways assure myseLf with that.
Being singLe is not a fauLt,its a fact.
i even dreamt of him Last night !
Strewth !

i need to give myseLf some sLack.
Looking at the mirror,i frequentLy notices my fLaws and start criticizing[speLLcheck] and feLt inferior.
Too many pimpLes,too short,too shy,nose that are too big for my Liking and etc.
From now on i swear to myseLf when i Look in the mirror i wiLL say,
"im beautifuL,damn it !"
This is a suggestion to aLL too,but don't over-do-it cause' Liars go to heLL.
*smiLe*

Shit,my mind keep wandering at night.
imsonia sucks.
Din' know that that 'disease' can infect me,but they did.
They are destroying me,this imsonia.

i aLways thought what wiLL become of me next year.
AfteraLL i am retained,so questions Like 'who gonna be a friend,who gonna sits with me for breaks' and other stuffs when it is Like your first day of schooL.
*shrugs*
Can i make it next year?
Or wiLL the same mistake being made again?
AtLeast i have Syu,whats that suppose to mean,that atLeast i've got her?!
HeLL,you guys don't know what you're taLking about.
You guys are destroying me.
Or wait,couLd next year be a better year,to start afresh with my maths and stuffs.
HeLL yeahh,its stiLL a Long way to go.
i shouLd stop thinking unnecessary stuffs[yet].
i've stiLL got a month.

StiLL searching for a job.
StiLL searching for a job.
StiLL searching for a job.

TAAHAA !

2008-11-16T20:03:00.003+08:00

i've typed afew sentences before my Laptop went dead.
HeLL,i din even know that this frickin post din automaticaLLy save my draft.
i am so destroyed.
i din remember what i am suppose to type.
So Lets make this another random post.

Aye !
A guy used to ask me,'what is aye?'
i din even have the exact answer but i gave him an answer of my own.
Now after i've mature and are exposed to the worLd,i suddenLy reaLized,what the meaning
actuaLLy means.
Aye,this guy.
He destroys me.
Look,Lets get to the point..
What am i doing infront of this eLectronic device on a sunday anyway?
Shit,you guys have no idea that i've been staying at home aLmost aLL day.
PLans?PeopLe?asked me out on a date?im effen bored.0.0*
No,im not desperate or anywhere near it,but i seriousLy need to get out to breathe in the fresh air.
i am going to schooL tomorrow,retrieve back my reportbook?
Yes,i've toLd you.

After the news was getting oLd,suddenLy a good friend of his asked me a pretty dumb question.
HeLL,he did not teLL the whoLe worLd about our reLationship.Great though.

Any job vacancy?i need a job.
HeLL,hoLidays effen destroys me.
Cant wait for schooL to reopen.
And this Lead to my birthday nearing around the corner.
Sure.
My achin' eLbow.

i've pLenty of money,im not even broke.
But yet,the money is of no use.
Money reaLLy destroys me.

i figure when wiLL my cLass outing be heLd.
i've no effen idea when is the date.
And i bet noone wiLL urge me to go anyway.[i din pay for the foods and stuffs]
Oh,how i miss my cLassmate !
i am genuine.

Friendster sucks.
Look i think i shaLL join tagged,facebook,myspace or anything.
i want to have miLLion of friends.Cyber-friends to be exact.
im effen bored.
Lets drown ourseLves with books.

Some peopLe toLd me to join acting,heLL,i din even know i couLd act !

Random much?
i shaLL stop here,since i've run out of words and there is nothing to say anyway.
And my engLish Language?i shaLL brush up on it.
Right.
Sure.
i am so destroyed .

2008-11-15T21:38:00.002+08:00

HEY HUMAN!
i'm back,as in i'm back here trying to bLog again,not that i went to vacation or anything.
But ofcourse i wish to go somewhere during the hoLidays,but money constraint.
Can you dig that?
Man,i'm stuck at home aLmost aLL day.
i am destroyed.
Friends,pLenty.PLans,zero.
Look,i am not exactLy the anti-sociaL type but what am i doing here on a Saturday?
Ok sorry,maybe i am one,but its just because i choose my friends.
No no,not girL friends,i am taLking about guys here.
Guys,they reaLLy destroys me.
And,i am not the type that hangs around under the void deck,unLess you put a hunk there.
TaLking about staying at home,i've tried appLying for job.
They seems to ignore my genuine interest to work with their 'team'.
i am so destroyed.
Ever heard the word Herpes?
Yes,its the word you Learned from your sex-ed cLass.
its a frickin' disease.
Stop thinking ! i din get infected !
Someone i know which i 'Love' sometimes.nyaha
its reaLLy scary.
ok,skip.
i guess i wiLL update soon.
CAnt wait for monday,i wiLL receive my reportbook !
HeLL,i am not Looking forward to it.
Retained !frickin disease !
Another year as a sec 3 again.
Sec 3 express again,mind you.
Hehe.stay safe
XD

2008-09-20T22:09:00.002+08:00

Back home from GeyLang.
Phew.
i've aLways hated going there,with the humid air and crowded pLaces it is just too much for my LittLe body and mind to cope.
CouLdnt seems to find the perfect cLothes,it was either way too expensive or way too ugLy.
See,i am so choosy.
i hate choosing Hari raya cLothes.i hate choosing.
Fuck.
i am stressing now.
Hope my
*dream-cLothes-which-i-din't-managed-to-buy-today-wiLL-be-avaiLabLe-tomorrow*
My heart wiLL be shattered into pieces if it were to be soLd out.
={

it is getting a LiL too boring isn't it,seeing me updating everyday?
No fret,i won't be updating again tiLL[Let me see]Hari Raye?
Hehe

Stucked at home again on another Saturday night.
it has been weeks since i step my foot outside,the Last time since i went out with Venom.
Unnecessary again.
i've been shutting myseLf up from my sociaL Life and are cLosing the door from the outside worLd.
i need to get a Life.
HeLp.

i've give up on my studies.
i am in no mood to study,especiaLLy on maths.0.0*

My horoscope:
The social games used to be fun and charming, but lately they've become too predictable and tiresome -- it's time for a change in your plan. People who are all talk and no action need to be avoided -- instead, you need to spend more time with people who commit to things and know how to follow through. You need to align yourself with people you can depend on. Shifts happen from time to time in your relationships, and this one is a necessary one.

Sometimes i am getting too LoneLy and tired

and im missing you again.

2008-09-19T23:31:00.002+08:00

CurrentLy devouring on the mouth-watering chocoLate cream pie.
The Last i've got a taste of it was way back in time,the moment i Last ate at Long John,the moment i Last ate with Venom?
Unnecessary.
After about a century i faiL to pass my Geography test,finaLLy i did it.
i passed it,i passed it weLL.
Even Georgina was surprised and said,"Not bad,you actuaLLy studied."
What do you expect madam?Looking down on the quiet girL who seems to sLeep whenever she got a chance during your Lessons?
The truth is,i was taken aback at my score too.[exaggerated]
Thank God.
=DD
Was browsing through a brochure of Temasek poLy and has made up my mind to choose the course 'Law and management'
Laugh hard !
But i've been fatasizing to be a Lawyer when i grew up since i was an infant.
The criteria doesn't take much,just get hoLd on your scores to be a grade 6 and above.
Laugh even harder !
Syaf can do it.
if she say she can,she can.
But for now,she has doubts and time hasn't been on her side LateLy.
She doesn't have much time and even to think about improving her maths which she faiLs tremendousLy was a dream far-fetch.
Tomorrow wiLL be going to GeyLang with famiLy.
Shopped for a white baju kebaya/kurung either way it must be white.
And if there are no white,Let it be green.
Ok,whatever,kaLau sume tkde saye mLs nk crk baju !hehe.=.="""
What a reLief,after BFH accidentaLLy dropped the Laptop,i thought it wouLd be damaged or suffer from any internaL 'bLeeding',but there isn't.
The connection was even faster now!Hahaha.
Yes,Syu has broken up with Faz aka Jerk.XD
Now i couLd rest my head i am so cLear-headed now,kakti too..
it is not that i hate him,but i've never favour him from the start.
But seriousLy? dude,sometimes i misses your effing crazy seLf eventhough you're such an ass to me.
Haha,if you want to Let my sister go,Let her freed compLeteLy out of your Life.
Nobody couLd resist saying you guys was the perfect match for each other,but the behaviour,it is a contradiction.
im terribLy sorry but our famiLies are a bunch of hypocrite peopLes.
Teehee.

aLL i got to do is find my way back to Love.

Cause i'm Lost.`

2008-09-17T22:18:00.004+08:00

it was time for me to update on my currentLy hectic days.
UnLucky,is the word that had hit upon Syu and me.
We were Late to schooL after about a Long time improvising our time management we thought we were never to be Late again.
And now i owe two hours of detention.FUCK !
Weeeee~
EventuaLLy the day struck us,hard.
Not onLy did the teacher caLLed our parents but we Lose a period to sitting down on the coLd hardy texture on the parade square.
Ended,it was time for the torturous subject i've been experiencing since forever.
Maths,eventhough how hard i tried,the equations and formuLas just wouLdn't stuck permanentLy in my brain.
Yes,a day is the maximum time i can recaLL the formuLa and stuffs,but after about two days,it was automaticaLLy fLushed out of my mind;brain.
i couLdn't possibLy give up without trying,but i can't seem to concentrate on the 'maths Language'.
What?Cosine ruLe?Sine?HaLf AB sin C?/haha.okok.Sorry.
Since entering the secondary years,homeworks is not in my dictionary.
How hard you prompt me to hand in.i wouLd not.
How strict you force us to do.i wouLd do it by cLosing my eyes.
it is just not working !Serious.
After schooL has ended,onLy three of the Express Art students went to the BiennaLe traiL heLd at City HaLL. [pLus other NA art students]
Yes,the artpiece should i say,magnificent?
Awesome,their creativity skiLLs and uniqueness never in my mind wouLd i think of art as a passion.
They've reaLLy accentuate the meaning of A.R.T.
At first,accepting the excursion bLuntLy was just a chance to escape from Maths remediaL but
to think it was worth it,it even worth my seven bucks.
Teehee.
For a previous Chemistry test,i scored weLL.
Even the teacher who Likes to criticize me and Syu said we are improving.
*Big smiLe*
The truth is,the test was effing easy,so anybody wouLd have ace it !
Hahaha.
XD!!

i am even proud on myseLf in the time management aspect.
Not onLy did i cut down on internet and idLing time but i Learned to squeeze in time to actuaLLy study and study harder.
The minimum time for me to have this Luxuries is onLy about an hour,yes,i can cope with it.
Since i aLso wanna cut down on my friends and not to search for anyone afraid to Let my mind wander again.
HeeXD
ALrite,i need to sLeep now.
Time check=10.45
Wow.What a big improvement !
Since about a few weeks back and counting i sLept the minimum is 12 and maximun is 3.
Jyeahh,
That expLain the head on my tabLe at every period.
ApoLogies.
Hee.XD!!

2008-09-13T20:11:00.003+08:00

ALrite,now i reaLize i ought to say sorry,if not for you,its for me.
Pardon me for the previous post and the unintentionaLLy too emotionaL posts.
its just that it is the time of the month which i tend to get emotionaLLy-disturb and overLy-sensative,hehe.
im sorry for scaring you away `cause of my too hoping and expecting too much from this friendship.
its just that i shouLdn't post aLL those shit.
ShouLd just kept it in my thoughts,but i cant refrain myseLf to convey it here.
i need to Let it out.
Aye,apoLogies.
Tcaires.
=DD
Time check=8.16
im ok.
im ok.
its ok.
ALRiTE!!
weeeeee~

2008-09-13T01:08:00.004+08:00

Even psycho know how to appreciate me and he even thought you were Lucky cause aLL i think about was you.
Since i've met you,its been awhiLe since i Looked out of the window,but now i reaLize,even the dude has a bigger heart than yours.
Who are you?
i don't even recognize you anymore.
Or maybe it was you aLL aLong but you just din't show your true coLours.
Maybe you din't reaLize who i was too.
Maybe i've commited a mistake,maybe i am too pathetic to grope to any man that waLks pass.
i swear i rue the day i met you.
ShouLdn't have deveLop a feeLings that has not been entering for so Long.
ShouLdn't have judge you from the outside.
Thanks God we wasn't taking things too fast,cause if we were,it wouLd be 20/08.
No,i am not desperate to have a bf or you in any way,you see i have been singLe for about a year + now and yes i know i can be independant.
i need you cause i used to Love you.
it was you.yes,it was you baby that said "when can you be mine?"
i gave you time eventhough if onLy i knew what the outcome wouLd be.
it was sudden and rare to have met someone that i thought couLd be mine.
i even have fantasies about it.
ALas,the person Looking at the product gets tired and move away to another.

i've got roLes to pLay too.
A daughter,sister,bestfriend and a student who pLedged to study even harder now.
What a great way to expLain things huh?But i din't ask for one,aLL i need is for you to teLL me Goodbye.
i'm off.
i wiLL sureLy find my way out and find a cLearer path to waLk,not a path fuLL of roses and thorns.
Thanks again for the memories i've not been experiencing for a Long time but yes,i am going to wash it aLL away soon.
Fancy playing with a 14 years oLd girL's heart.
it's funny how things happened.Laugh it aLL out Syaf.
My tears are drying anyway.
What the use of crying when it wasn't worthwhiLe.
i kept teLLing myseLf to cLose my heart but your words was too meaningfuL that it penetrated into it.
Great,now i have been Losing sLeep and time thinking aimLessLy.
Now i know what i shouLd do.
Yes,it wouLd be very easy for me to move on if onLy there are pLenty of guys Lining up waiting for me.
The probLem is,there isn't.
But i'm sure i can get better.
The patience ones wiLL get much better.=D
PeopLe used to say i am Lucky to have found you but maybe for now,i don't think so.
ReLationship=Some are good but not the permanent one's.
Even Mizi is missing.haha.ok,crap.
Run away guys,go shoo,run away from me.
0..0*
Now you reaLize what is wrong,now you know what you've made.
why did you even need to touched me with your charm?to show off your experienced skiLLs?
it doesn't make any sense.
i guess it wiLL not take much time deLeting you off since i am the girL who gets bored easiLy,
waiting.
AfteraLL i am the girL who can move on fast after a period of time missing a guy.
Read my archive.XD
There is no need for your sorries.
i hate apoLogies.